The *No Contact* Challenge! ( Read this if you just got dumped)

[insertusernamehere]

Any books you guys could recommend to get through the pain?

 

[powersize]

Any books you guys could recommend to get through the pain?

1 - The Rational Male
2 - Book of Pook

Hit the gym in between of reading this books

 

[Raasay]

I plan to do the challenge asap but how do manage aspects like
1. we lived together for 4 years and splitting contracts, the things we own, financial things takes forever, i dont want to wait until this is done and its also tearing me apart to do this now.
2. we have 2 cats i love that stay with her and i dont want to lose them as well. maybe i should just not see them for 60 days...
3. in case we have to be in contact, how should i behave? if im very cold, distanced, serious she will see how much im hurt and i dont want that. I would rather like to be funny, relaxed, happy, maybe a bit flirty... or what do you think?
4. her birthday, if i dont wish her happy birthday same as above probably or she will simply think im an *******.

besides that, like everyone in my phase, i hope to get her back (lol) but i have to move on and get over it. at the same time i dont want to show myself in a way to de-value (sad, crying, desparate etc.) myself in her eyes, i know she is still somehow interested, but too much hurt and too little convinced that we can get better. i want to demonstrate that it was a mistake to let me go because i believe this will also help me to process it.

 

[Romanemp22]

I plan to do the challenge asap but how do manage aspects like
1. we lived together for 4 years and splitting contracts, the things we own, financial things takes forever, i dont want to wait until this is done and its also tearing me apart to do this now.
2. we have 2 cats i love that stay with her and i dont want to lose them as well. maybe i should just not see them for 60 days...
3. in case we have to be in contact, how should i behave? if im very cold, distanced, serious she will see how much im hurt and i dont want that. I would rather like to be funny, relaxed, happy, maybe a bit flirty... or what do you think?
4. her birthday, if i dont wish her happy birthday same as above probably or she will simply think im an *******.

besides that, like everyone in my phase, i hope to get her back (lol) but i have to move on and get over it. at the same time i dont want to show myself in a way to de-value (sad, crying, desparate etc.) myself in her eyes, i know she is still somehow interested, but too much hurt and too little convinced that we can get better. i want to demonstrate that it was a mistake to let me go because i believe this will also help me to process it.

Your biggest mistake here is that you are focusing only on her and what she want and not you. That is lack of confidence. Your move now is to not want her back rather you need to start speaking with new girls asap.

Put it this way, you drove a car which is old and it finally it broke down so ofcourse you sell it so you can buy new one which is cool, fresh and sexy.

Whatever you do just don't try to get her back because as she have mind on other d1cks, you should also think about new puzzys.

 

[dude99]

I plan to do the challenge asap but how do manage aspects like
1. we lived together for 4 years and splitting contracts, the things we own, financial things takes forever, i dont want to wait until this is done and its also tearing me apart to do this now.
2. we have 2 cats i love that stay with her and i dont want to lose them as well. maybe i should just not see them for 60 days...
3. in case we have to be in contact, how should i behave? if im very cold, distanced, serious she will see how much im hurt and i dont want that. I would rather like to be funny, relaxed, happy, maybe a bit flirty... or what do you think?
4. her birthday, if i dont wish her happy birthday same as above probably or she will simply think im an *******.

besides that, like everyone in my phase, i hope to get her back (lol) but i have to move on and get over it. at the same time i dont want to show myself in a way to de-value (sad, crying, desparate etc.) myself in her eyes, i know she is still somehow interested, but too much hurt and too little convinced that we can get better. i want to demonstrate that it was a mistake to let me go because i believe this will also help me to process it.

You be yourself and do your thing. You do not go out of your way for her at all. What she thinks doesn't matter because she isn't a priority to you any more.

1. Just cancel all things and then get your own accounts and she can do the same. No need to even deal with her. Just do your own thing.

2. How about you take one she takes the other. She has a problem with that then leave the cats and get your own. Oh but she will have a problem with that. She will see it as me moving on and not be able to manipulate my feelings for her by staying in my orbit using the cats. That's the point.

3. If you have contact, you be yourself. You give her 3 minutes you tell her nothing about yourself except that you are crazy busy and you don't have time, tell her we will catch up soon, (but continue no contact after) but take care.

4 her birthday is no longer a concern for you. It is just another day of the week..she is no longer a priority so wishing her a happy birthday is useless.

Stop over thinking things. Get busy with yourself. Trust me she not thinking about how she blew her chances with you and how to fix things, she is focusing all her energy on the next guy.

 

[andreihaha]

I plan to do the challenge asap but how do manage aspects like
1. we lived together for 4 years and splitting contracts, the things we own, financial things takes forever, i dont want to wait until this is done and its also tearing me apart to do this now.
2. we have 2 cats i love that stay with her and i dont want to lose them as well. maybe i should just not see them for 60 days...
3. in case we have to be in contact, how should i behave? if im very cold, distanced, serious she will see how much im hurt and i dont want that. I would rather like to be funny, relaxed, happy, maybe a bit flirty... or what do you think?
4. her birthday, if i dont wish her happy birthday same as above probably or she will simply think im an *******.

besides that, like everyone in my phase, i hope to get her back (lol) but i have to move on and get over it. at the same time i dont want to show myself in a way to de-value (sad, crying, desparate etc.) myself in her eyes, i know she is still somehow interested, but too much hurt and too little convinced that we can get better. i want to demonstrate that it was a mistake to let me go because i believe this will also help me to process it.

This "challenge" is about doing the best for you.
If instead you want to try to get her back, you're setting yourself up for more pain. Most of us experienced it and you probably did as well at some point in your life.

Be the smart man that learns from mistakes. Otherwise you're gonna fail again and again and you're not getting any younger.

Hope you'll have the will and balls to do the right thing. A new life awaits you.

 

[jamesfromhouston]

Hello gents.

Back again with my monthly update. Another month has gone by.

It is now:

NC 240 (8 Months)

For those who have followed (and those that have not) read my monthly updates, I have been doing well for months!

But things have been a bit tough and down lately (starting from month 6 - 7). Following my last update, I have sunk into a lower point because of an insane dry spell I've been going through. As I mentioned, I have moved somewhere with stricter Covid restrictions, for a period of time it has been strict lockdown. So I've not been able to really go out and date women. Being locked down has forced me to really be myself and I found my thoughts often going back to the high moments of my past relationship especially during moments when I have felt lonely. It doesn't help that recently a friend of mine had told me that the ex has moved to Barcelona, somewhere we talked about settling down in together. No doubt, she is starting her own life there.

At the same time, I am aware that I should not be thinking or feeling like this, I am consciously aware (from RP awakening) that the relationship was toxic, the girl had many red flags but it is hard to control the emotions at times. I feel pathetic and frustrated I cannot erase this person from my mind. In fact, to my very surprise, I have had 2 dreams about the ex within the past month (surprising since I've not dreamt about her for the whole year).

Interestingly, this resurfacing pain has recreated a momentum for me to amp up my self-improvement. (I talked about in earlier months that as I was recovering and the pain was gone, I've started to slack on my gym and self-help routines.) I am starting to amp up the frequency of my exercises, read and journal more. Also, it has really led to question the source of my self-esteem and value, maybe rather than focus it on the girl (or any girls), I should really draw value from within myself and learn to be happy being alone.

An interesting thought I had was on the idea of how women 'flow' into your life. When I was with that ex, I had women literally vying for my attention, a lot of plates were spun; top quality ones too. It was really really effortless. In a way because I was with the ex, I did not actively cared or chased. Now, that I am in a dry spell, it has been difficult to set up plates, requires so much effort. Even if I am trying deliberately now with much effort, the results have not been good at all. So I find it interesting how, when they come, they come in droves and when they're gone, they're gone in droves too.

Anyway, good news is, the restrictions for Covid are now gone and I am recently vaccinated, so I believe I will bounce back from the dry spell and get back to normal life again. I will keep you guys updated for sure.

For those who are reading this for a reference/indication of breadcrumbs; the ex has not left any, not after 8 months, not a single spec.

Take care brothers.

-James

 

[andreihaha]

Hello gents.

Back again with my monthly update. Another month has gone by.

It is now:

NC 240 (8 Months)

For those who have followed (and those that have not) read my monthly updates, I have been doing well for months!

But things have been a bit tough and down lately (starting from month 6 - 7). Following my last update, I have sunk into a lower point because of an insane dry spell I've been going through. As I mentioned, I have moved somewhere with stricter Covid restrictions, for a period of time it has been strict lockdown. So I've not been able to really go out and date women. Being locked down has forced me to really be myself and I found my thoughts often going back to the high moments of my past relationship especially during moments when I have felt lonely. It doesn't help that recently a friend of mine had told me that the ex has moved to Barcelona, somewhere we talked about settling down in together. No doubt, she is starting her own life there.

At the same time, I am aware that I should not be thinking or feeling like this, I am consciously aware (from RP awakening) that the relationship was toxic, the girl had many red flags but it is hard to control the emotions at times. I feel pathetic and frustrated I cannot erase this person from my mind. In fact, to my very surprise, I have had 2 dreams about the ex within the past month (surprising since I've not dreamt about her for the whole year).

Interestingly, this resurfacing pain has recreated a momentum for me to amp up my self-improvement. (I talked about in earlier months that as I was recovering and the pain was gone, I've started to slack on my gym and self-help routines.) I am starting to amp up the frequency of my exercises, read and journal more. Also, it has really led to question the source of my self-esteem and value, maybe rather than focus it on the girl (or any girls), I should really draw value from within myself and learn to be happy being alone.

An interesting thought I had was on the idea of how women 'flow' into your life. When I was with that ex, I had women literally vying for my attention, a lot of plates were spun; top quality ones too. It was really really effortless. In a way because I was with the ex, I did not actively cared or chased. Now, that I am in a dry spell, it has been difficult to set up plates, requires so much effort. Even if I am trying deliberately now with much effort, the results have not been good at all. So I find it interesting how, when they come, they come in droves and when they're gone, they're gone in droves too.

Anyway, good news is, the restrictions for Covid are now gone and I am recently vaccinated, so I believe I will bounce back from the dry spell and get back to normal life again. I will keep you guys updated for sure.

For those who are reading this for a reference/indication of breadcrumbs; the ex has not left any, not after 8 months, not a single spec.

Take care brothers.

-James

Sometimes the only thing that can cure a broken heart is time...
And, more important than that, someone new.
In the end it is up to you to decide if you're willing to work towards meeting someone new or torturing yourself with the past.
To me, it seems like you think about her waaay too much after 8 months. It's not ok.
I do hope you'll get better bro, but in all honesty, it's all up to you. Man up and go out there!

 

[mjb3617]

Hello gents.

Back again with my monthly update. Another month has gone by.

It is now:

NC 240 (8 Months)

For those who have followed (and those that have not) read my monthly updates, I have been doing well for months!

But things have been a bit tough and down lately (starting from month 6 - 7). Following my last update, I have sunk into a lower point because of an insane dry spell I've been going through. As I mentioned, I have moved somewhere with stricter Covid restrictions, for a period of time it has been strict lockdown. So I've not been able to really go out and date women. Being locked down has forced me to really be myself and I found my thoughts often going back to the high moments of my past relationship especially during moments when I have felt lonely. It doesn't help that recently a friend of mine had told me that the ex has moved to Barcelona, somewhere we talked about settling down in together. No doubt, she is starting her own life there.

At the same time, I am aware that I should not be thinking or feeling like this, I am consciously aware (from RP awakening) that the relationship was toxic, the girl had many red flags but it is hard to control the emotions at times. I feel pathetic and frustrated I cannot erase this person from my mind. In fact, to my very surprise, I have had 2 dreams about the ex within the past month (surprising since I've not dreamt about her for the whole year).

Interestingly, this resurfacing pain has recreated a momentum for me to amp up my self-improvement. (I talked about in earlier months that as I was recovering and the pain was gone, I've started to slack on my gym and self-help routines.) I am starting to amp up the frequency of my exercises, read and journal more. Also, it has really led to question the source of my self-esteem and value, maybe rather than focus it on the girl (or any girls), I should really draw value from within myself and learn to be happy being alone.

An interesting thought I had was on the idea of how women 'flow' into your life. When I was with that ex, I had women literally vying for my attention, a lot of plates were spun; top quality ones too. It was really really effortless. In a way because I was with the ex, I did not actively cared or chased. Now, that I am in a dry spell, it has been difficult to set up plates, requires so much effort. Even if I am trying deliberately now with much effort, the results have not been good at all. So I find it interesting how, when they come, they come in droves and when they're gone, they're gone in droves too.

Anyway, good news is, the restrictions for Covid are now gone and I am recently vaccinated, so I believe I will bounce back from the dry spell and get back to normal life again. I will keep you guys updated for sure.

For those who are reading this for a reference/indication of breadcrumbs; the ex has not left any, not after 8 months, not a single spec.

Take care brothers.

-James

I hear you bro but stop analyzing your relationship through the RP lens. It's good to reflect and understand where you went wrong, but don't keep replaying it in your head.

What's in the past is in the past. Leave it there.

 

[Raasay]

Hi all,

2nd post, here, I'm Nico (30) from GER, was tired of my GF, made her dump me after 5 years, 3 months later a big crisis hit me, tried to get her back, failed, now I'm doing the challenge, this is day 1.

Yesterday, I had my final talk with her, pushed her to say, that it is over forever vs. she saying "over for now", "maybe in future" etc. Inside I knew it was over but somehow these "maybe in future" statements gave me some irrational hope. I was relieved, even in a good mood for some hours and ready to move on until I went to bed and memories started to haunt me all night, in the end I slept 3 hours before going to work. I will describe how miserable I feel, not to get your compassion but because it is part of the story and it somehow helps to write it dow here.

To be honest, I do not know whether it is good or bad that it is over, maybe it is even good, which this is hard to believe in my current situation. On the other hand I know that I am especially missing and loving the girl she used to be, I am missing an old version of her, old times that are in my memories and that are bound to places and all kind of things in my life and it is those memories that have turned my days into a nightmare for nearly 4 weeks now. I wish I could just put them in a box until I am over it. Interestingly it is not only old memories but also memories which happened just a few days before the break up. It seems to be a very selective perception of my mind, only showing me the great things and ignoring everything which was bad. But this insight does not help me emotionally - at least not now. It is also weird, that it was the exact opposite that lead me into the break up: my mind only showing me negative things and ignoring everything which was positive. I need to get this in control, else it has the potential to ruin further parts of my life.

In the last weeks after the break up I seem to have learned more about myself than ever before and I am grateful for this reflection but also deeply disappointed of myself at the same time. I was extremely arrogant, selfish, a coward, running away from problems, ignoring everything which was outside my comfort zone, always happy and overly confident (the confidence of an idiot who does not know himself), looking down on people who had problems I could not understand and more. I know I am not a terrible person but it scares me that I let myself become like this without consciously knowing, just pushing it all away.

I also learned a lot about my former girl friend and it feels that even a tiny part of what I know today about myself and herself could have made a huge difference in our relationship. It is sad that things like our break up have to happen for me to open my eyes.

Edit: I will take three weeks off work to be with myself and start getting over her. No update from me during that time.

 

[LoboSolitario]

1 - The Rational Male

I'd stay away from the ratinal male especially while your in pain. it will turn your pain into hatred as is evident with many posters here. Also I don't think it is relevant in today's climate.

I would read deeply on Stoicism.

Two lessons:
1. What do I control in this situation and what do I not control? focus on what you control and leave what's outside your control to the fate.
objective judgment: it is what it is.
2. dealing with emotions: Acknowledge the emotion without judgement or trying to run from it, explore where it is coming from, act on it in a rational way

Do not run from pain or try to block it out. Pain means you are processing. You may have become attached or even developed a codependent dynamic. If that is the case your goal would be to break the attachment and break the chains of codependence......aiming for healthy detachment and independence. This will take time and patience. Enjoy the journey.

There was a story before about a guy who was practicing meditation with a buddhist monk. They travelled to visit some botanical gardens but when the arrived the gates were locked. The guy started to get a little frustrated as they had travelled some way and now the gates were chained before them "this is terrible" he gasped. he even apologized to the Buddhist monk for "dragging him" all this way for nothing (subjective judgements ). The Buddhist monk just smiled and started to walk along the gates parameter. The guy looked at him and thought were the hell is he going we might as well just turn back. They kept walking. Eventually the fencing just ended and the gardens opened up, they could just simply walk in. It was just a facade. Despite facing a locked gate and fencing the Buddhist monk just smiled, remained present and walked forward.

Remain present and keep walking forward. Suddenly the pain will fade and better things will open up to you.

Perhaps No more mr nice guy could be a good option too. If codependence is an issue read codependence no more after.

 

[gettinit]

As amazed as I am, I'm back in here. I had dated a long time friend and caught feelings. She is moving a couple hours away and had given me the friends speech. I had made it clear when we split that I had crossed a line, friends wasn't an option for me and told her to get back in touch if things change. I cut all contact, never texted her and never responded to a text sent by her a month later. I had posted about some interactions since then, where I refused a hug and she took it pretty hard. I hadn't posted about the breakup on this thread and rode it out.

I thought that I was all good after four months and dated quite a few others, but she showed up again where I was (yet again), sat down next to me and we spent the night catching up. She had been pretty persistent in trying to reopen things with me over the last month and I finally caved. I had been avoiding her and leaving whenever she showed up. Long story short, we talked like the last months never happened, closed the place and made out a bit at her car. She sent me a text the following morning that it was really nice to see me again and I simply replied, same here. A week later, there I was at her place (last night). She had showed up again, we closed the place again and invited me back to her place for a drink. On my end, I realized that my heart was still attached. I tried to make a move, but she shut me down, saying in short: "what's the point, I'm moving". In my "logical" head, I shouldn't even have been there, but the brain chemicals had definitely clouded my judgement. It seemed that she was trying to freindzone me, but I wasn't buying and it ended up being a repeat of the original break up. Right now, I feel like I just got back on the same roller coaster that I had boarded months ago and just went over the big hill. I have to say that my pride took quite a hit and I am mad at myself, since I thought that I knew better than to allow myself to start to feel close to her again or provide her with any validation.

Red pill, blue pill, whatever. If you aren't a narcissistic robot, emotions can get the best of you and sneak in when you never thought that they would. I'm a realist and have lived both sides of breakups enough to know that if it's not there on both ends, that's just the way that it is and there is nothing that you can do on your end to fix it. When things don't work out, someone always gets hurt and it was simply my turn. Being that I understand that a woman will be a woman, I really don't have any animosity towards her, but this would probably be easier if I did.

So, I am going to have to change hang out spots for a bit to avoid any further contact, continue dating others (read as distract myself at possibly another person's emotional expense) and get my head straight, again. In a few weeks, hopefully, I'll be over this.

I probably won't post again on this unless someone has a question.
In hindsight (always 20/20), I should have left when she sat down or at least declined her invite. Why does my brain fail me at critical times?

Thanks for reading.

 

[Ava Ross]

interesting thread

 

[Raasay]

It's been more than 3 weeks now that I had contact with her the last time, see above, final talk, last time trying to get her back, didn't work out.

Today there was some interesting development: I still get letters to our old address, so I texted her, where my letters are. She told me where and asked when I'd be in town to get them and how I'm doing. As usual I ignore everything which is not "administrative". So I get my letters which she brought to my new apartment and I realize that she still has the keys for my cellar.

So I go to her apartment, call her, text her, tell her I want my keys, I'm quite rude tbh. No answer on the phone, I ring the bell multiple times, no answer. Finally she says, she needs 10 mins, we can meet at my new apartment which is close. I say no, I don't want to wait, she should just throw the keys out of the window or whatever, no need to make a big thing out of it. It goes back and forth, she wants 10 mins, I say just hand them over immediately, after some mins, she appears, I get the keys, say thanks, bye, leave. I'm annoyed about this drama about the keys and text her something like what the **** was this drama about.

She starts texting me "I don't know what I did to you, why are you so unapproachable, I try everything to be kind and nice and you are like this, I was looking forward to seeing you but this is not how I imagined it, I listen to songs of your profile picture everyday (have a drawing of an Linkin Park album cover, which helps me to handle the pain, in my profile picture) etc.

I ignore all of this. I guess she just needs a best friend for the time when she is not sucking the **** of my successor. Still interesting, I know women do this, but I told her multiple times, that how I feel or how I'm doing is not her busy anymore and I don't want to have any business except the administrational stuff with her anymore - still she keeps trying, quite selfish I think...

Anyways, I'll continue the no contact thing, it seems like the right thing to do.

 

[dude99]

It's been more than 3 weeks now that I had contact with her the last time, see above, final talk, last time trying to get her back, didn't work out.

Today there was some interesting development: I still get letters to our old address, so I texted her, where my letters are. She told me where and asked when I'd be in town to get them and how I'm doing. As usual I ignore everything which is not "administrative". So I get my letters which she brought to my new apartment and I realize that she still has the keys for my cellar.

So I go to her apartment, call her, text her, tell her I want my keys, I'm quite rude tbh. No answer on the phone, I ring the bell multiple times, no answer. Finally she says, she needs 10 mins, we can meet at my new apartment which is close. I say no, I don't want to wait, she should just throw the keys out of the window or whatever, no need to make a big thing out of it. It goes back and forth, she wants 10 mins, I say just hand them over immediately, after some mins, she appears, I get the keys, say thanks, bye, leave. I'm annoyed about this drama about the keys and text her something like what the **** was this drama about.

She starts texting me "I don't know what I did to you, why are you so unapproachable, I try everything to be kind and nice and you are like this, I was looking forward to seeing you but this is not how I imagined it, I listen to songs of your profile picture everyday (have a drawing of an Linkin Park album cover, which helps me to handle the pain, in my profile picture) etc.

I ignore all of this. I guess she just needs a best friend for the time when she is not sucking the **** of my successor. Still interesting, I know women do this, but I told her multiple times, that how I feel or how I'm doing is not her busy anymore and I don't want to have any business except the administrational stuff with her anymore - still she keeps trying, quite selfish I think...

Anyways, I'll continue the no contact thing, it seems like the right thing to do.

She probably had new guy in her apartment and wanted to avoid the awkward confrontation of you seeing him there.

She wanted you to leave and go back to your apartment and bring you the keys to avoid the awkward meeting.

There is no other reason she couldn't just open the door , go "here" then close the door. She was afraid of how she would look. Plain and simple. 95 % of the time women are responsible for the break up and 100% of the time they won't take responsibility. Hence her fake words playing the wounded bird of "why are you so mean to me now?.i am sad, hurt and listen to your songs blah blah blah."

Don"t fall for the BS. Just comment " i got what i wanted."

Then ignore. Delete. Block. Next the s#!t out of her moving forward.

She had new dude over. She was scared of you seeing him there..plain and simple.

 

[Raasay]

Thought about this too... thanks for sharing your view, mate. Anyways, just found it interesting to share somehow, I don't plan to further dwell over it, although in hindsight I got to admit that there is still some unrealistic hope that we get together again and this chat somehow nurtured it. I guess that's just part of a natural process, I won't committ myself to these thoughts and they will fade over time.

 

[Raasay]

1 - The Rational Male
2 - Book of Pook

Hit the gym in between of reading this books

I started Rationale Male before the break up and after the break up it didn't help me at all to process anything. If you want to puss.y out of the big **** you can try to start hating your former girl (I know people who do this) and maybe Rationale Male helps with it. I consider my break up as a gift as it gave me very deep and powerful self reflection that is hard to get without a major crisis or so. If I turn all responsibility for the failed relationship to my ex gf, I turn myself into a helpless victim and I waste a big opportunity to become a better person. So my recommendation as of now is not so much reading but rather judging yourself, maybe take some notes about it, listen to music (for me e.g. Linkin Park helps) and if you read which is not the most important thing at first imo, I support the stoicism suggestion.

 

[Barrister]

I started Rationale Male before the break up and after the break up it didn't help me at all to process anything. If you want to puss.y out of the big **** you can try to start hating your former girl (I know people who do this) and maybe Rationale Male helps with it. I consider my break up as a gift as it gave me very deep and powerful self reflection that is hard to get without a major crisis or so. If I turn all responsibility for the failed relationship to my ex gf, I turn myself into a helpless victim and I waste a big opportunity to become a better person. So my recommendation as of now is not so much reading but rather judging yourself, maybe take some notes about it, listen to music (for me e.g. Linkin Park helps) and if you read which is not the most important thing at first imo, I support the stoicism suggestion.

Hating your ex solves nothing. In fact, stoking up a feeling of hatred is just going to delay your healing because it places focus on her. Rational Male is not at all about hating women, however. It is 100% Red Pill. It may not help you feel better right now, but it is absolutely required reading for a man who wants to better understand women.

As for how to best get over your ex: get in the gym multiple times throughout the week, go to places with your bros (preferably not places you frequented with your ex), spend time on your own hobbies, and once you are ready start meeting and dating other women. This is a great opportunity for your personal growth because you can focus 100% on yourself for the first time in a long while.

 

[powersize]

1 - The Rational Male
2 - Book of Pook

Hit the gym in between of reading this books

3 - Anti-Dump Machine

 

[Raasay]

She keeps texting me, meanwhile she visits the doctor because she suffers from the break up so much, luckily the pain is still not so strong to stop her from f*cking the next guy

She does not want me back because she doesn't say "I thought about you getting me back, can we talk" or so and it is better this way. I have 2 cats with her, which I don't want to lose as well... but as long as this continues I will not be able to finally let her go. At the moment my life is not 100% functional anyways, mostly because I do not have an apartment and need to stay at my parent's house ad interim. I plan to try to hold on until my new apartment is available. If I manage to minimize all interactions to close to zero with her by then I'll just pick up the cats every couple of weeks to have them with me for some days - if that doesn't work out I will have to let go of the cats as well and then I could finally remove her from my life entirely (I know it sounds crazy and I'm sure they are not concerned about me but I just love those little guys...).

I'm also thinking about to offer her to come over, to hear her out (to stay in good terms for the cats), also I'm somehow curious if I can still kiss or even sex her, but I suspect that this is just a form of wanting her back, still loving her, still being attached to her etc. so it's clearly not a good idea and I imagine what you guys will comment on it. But this is just the truth, what's going on and I'm sharing it here. For now she remains on ignore and I'm quite busy with other stuff in my life. Not sure actually if this is helping anyone but me but I guess that's the idea of this thread.