Day 30-something:
Having fantasies over the sex with my ex lately. I've had a couple of one nighters but its just not even close, in some ways I'm repulsed by it. Doesn't help Im playing in a lower SMV bracket as well, taking what I can get type thing to try and distract myself from the loss. I remember in one of my previous breakups with this girl I managed to bang a hottie and even then I remember not really feeling it, I look back now thinking I should have appreciated that opportunity more.
Im getting more used to the living alone situation, had a great weekend partying and feel pretty good about the people I met and the situations I found myself in. It is a limited resource though, I cant just party for the rest of my life, I need to at some point settle back into a more healthy routine. For now Im ok with it.
As for online dating, well it sucks as usual. I got breadcrumbed a week ago by my ex but didn't respond, for me this is a win. Nothing since so I guess shes got a new squeeze, its really the main reason I don't hear from her. She uses men like clothing, whatever makes her feel good at the time.
Its been so long without a healthy relationship Im starting to wonder if they are a fantasy. Looking back Im not sure if Ive ever had one.
Having fantasies over the sex with my ex lately. I've had a couple of one nighters but its just not even close, in some ways I'm repulsed by it. Doesn't help Im playing in a lower SMV bracket as well, taking what I can get type thing to try and distract myself from the loss. I remember in one of my previous breakups with this girl I managed to bang a hottie and even then I remember not really feeling it, I look back now thinking I should have appreciated that opportunity more.
Im getting more used to the living alone situation, had a great weekend partying and feel pretty good about the people I met and the situations I found myself in. It is a limited resource though, I cant just party for the rest of my life, I need to at some point settle back into a more healthy routine. For now Im ok with it.
As for online dating, well it sucks as usual. I got breadcrumbed a week ago by my ex but didn't respond, for me this is a win. Nothing since so I guess shes got a new squeeze, its really the main reason I don't hear from her. She uses men like clothing, whatever makes her feel good at the time.
Its been so long without a healthy relationship Im starting to wonder if they are a fantasy. Looking back Im not sure if Ive ever had one.