nicksaiz65 Odyssey

[marmel75]

Bro you are who you are. You can't become something you aren't. Your goal should be to become the best version of you possible, not to become someone else.

 

[SoSuave666]

You’ve got a lot on your plate, lots of interests. That’s a good thing. But you need to be able to prioritize better. From the skimming I have done school and music should be the top 2. Don’t know about your physique but hitting the gym hard will build T levels and affect everything you do - added benefit you will look and feel better.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Thanks for the kind words guys. Today was pretty much terrible in every way so I really appreciate the encouragement.

@marmel75 I totally agree. I just feel like I’m stuck in a rut, especially with Game. When I look at my previous entries, I can tell I’ve improved, but idk. I suppose I’m just going to have to make some major changes in my Game and in my life before I can continue to move forward, as the best version of myself.

@SoSuave666 Thats how I’m going to start dressing again. Simple but fresh. I went through a long phase where I wanted to be better than everyone, so I started buying fake designer and it caught up to me. I really got put on blast today and that’s all it took to break me out of that phase. I still think that FashionReps will be a valuable resource. But stuff like Gucci and Chanel? I don’t need it as a Don Juan. Hey, at least I know that now. And I’ll keep focusing on school and music for sure, that’s how I’m going to make money.

Regarding my fitness, it’s starting to get warm outside, so I’d like to do some 5K training along with StrongLifts 5x5. That’ll help my self esteem for sure. It’s kinda bad that I can’t run a 5K without stopping. I need to stop being so damn lazy and fix that.

Sometimes I just worry that I’m nowhere near cool enough to get the girls that I want, y’know? I hope this belief will start to melt away with another year of Self Improvement.

And as for Game, I think my Overall Game is pretty decent. I’m just gonna keep working on it, along with my overall look. And I’ll keep practicing at sex in the meantime. No matter how you slice it, HB Candice should’ve been a lay, and not the flaky bullshyt that I got. And it’s not because I didn’t escalate. I’m going to keep improving myself until situations like that are no longer an issue. Might take a full year though...

I really appreciate the encouragement you guys. Makes me feel a lot better.

Although I Lowkey think I might need to get into some therapy because I’ve been having way too many suicidal thoughts lately and I don’t feel like I can really open up to anyone except on here...

You guys are the best though!

 

[lamath]

Man you should be proud of what you are doing
You are doing much more than most ppl to improve your situation.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Hey @SoSuave666 mind if I ask you some questions about fashion though?

So I got called out today because I was wearing a fake Chanel durag. Chanel doesn’t even make Durags, so that was a dumb mistake on my part. No more “hype” shyt like that for me, it’s just ridiculous. Also no more Durags in public so I need to learn to cut my own hair. But anyways.

Designer is out, but how do you feel about places like r/FashionReps where you can get replicas of non-hype things for cheaper? For instance, I would like to get some Air Max 97s and some Chelsea Boots. I’ll post links below. If I buy these from the US, it’s gonna cost me over $300. But if I use FashionReps stuff, I can get replicas overseas for about $150. You think it’s ok to do stuff like that or will I just get embarrassed again? Although these are replicas of actual real things, instead of Durags that don’t exist.

If you all want to chime in on this question too, feel free.

Air Max 97s:
https://stockx.com/nike-air-max-97-...6_GigoES5pjoj25QuXkIpKGlqcWC-QtMaArcCEALw_wcB

Chelsea Boots:
https://tictail.com/handmadeshoe/sand-crepe-chelsea-boots-for-men

 

[nicksaiz65]

Man you should be proud of what you are doing
You are doing much more than most ppl to improve your situation.

I appreciate it. I realize I’ve come a long way since the start of this journal. But it looks like to break my plateau, I’m going to have to become the Nick that I envisioned at the very beginning of this journal. What I’m doing now just isn’t enough.

I just worry sometimes that my efforts won’t help and I’m destined to be a loser for the rest of my life

 

[lamath]

If you stay in current mind set and dont relent you will very successful.
I wish i had half your drive to makes things happens

 

[nicksaiz65]

If you stay in current mind set and dont relent you will very successful.
I wish i had half your drive to makes things happens

Thanks man. I’m just trying to get there one day

 

[nicksaiz65]

The Final Texting Update

Okay, although some may disagree, I really like Dr. Nerdlove’s Texting Method. It works great, I’ve gotten laid with it, and after talking to him on the phone I think it’s definitely the one that I need to use.

Although I did feel horrible today, I’m gonna just brush my hair, have some sex and then get to work. And yes I’m gonna wear a durag. I’m in my own home. I don’t want my hair messed up during sex. How else am I gonna get the Godlike spinners and get the confidence that I need to reach the next level?

 

[nicksaiz65]

I’d say I’m decent at sex? I guess? I’ve hit the point where the only way for me to improve is to read the sex books, watch the video tutorials that some have recommended me, and watch porn. This shyt is gonna be like a sport to me as I defeat life.

 

[SoSuave666]

Hey @SoSuave666 mind if I ask you some questions about fashion though?

So I got called out today because I was wearing a fake Chanel durag. Chanel doesn’t even make Durags, so that was a dumb mistake on my part. No more “hype” shyt like that for me, it’s just ridiculous. Also no more Durags in public so I need to learn to cut my own hair. But anyways.

Designer is out, but how do you feel about places like r/FashionReps where you can get replicas of non-hype things for cheaper? For instance, I would like to get some Air Max 97s and some Chelsea Boots. I’ll post links below. If I buy these from the US, it’s gonna cost me over $300. But if I use FashionReps stuff, I can get replicas overseas for about $150. You think it’s ok to do stuff like that or will I just get embarrassed again? Although these are replicas of actual real things, instead of Durags that don’t exist.

If you all want to chime in on this question too, feel free.

Air Max 97s:
https://stockx.com/nike-air-max-97-...6_GigoES5pjoj25QuXkIpKGlqcWC-QtMaArcCEALw_wcB

Chelsea Boots:
https://tictail.com/handmadeshoe/sand-crepe-chelsea-boots-for-men

My style is different than yours. You're a young black guy in college, I'm a 32 yo white working professional. Our styles will be different but equally effective if pulled off with swagger. Don't try to be something you aren't. There are plenty of boots that look like that or better and are certainly cheaper. Also I would probably never spend that type of money on sneakers...but I'm not a sneaker head.

My advice is this, really: find whatever style fits you best. Get a few of the high end clothes/shoes you want but don't go overboard. There are plenty of bargains out there for you and I would utilize those instead of buying upper-end accessories, especially at your age. The more important thing is how the clothes/shoes look on you and how you feel. If you are working out hard, you'll have confidence even if you were wearing paper bags on your feet. Clothes will fit much better if you've got broad shoulders and a slim waist.

Good luck. And there's a thread over in don juan tips about another members makeover. There's some good advice in there that may help you as well, as far as clothes, watches, etc. https://www.sosuave.net/forum/threads/redskinfan92-physical-makeover.256396/page-7#post-2616366

 

[nicksaiz65]

My style is different than yours. You're a young black guy in college, I'm a 32 yo white working professional. Our styles will be different but equally effective if pulled off with swagger. Don't try to be something you aren't. There are plenty of boots that look like that or better and are certainly cheaper. Also I would probably never spend that type of money on sneakers...but I'm not a sneaker head.

My advice is this, really: find whatever style fits you best. Get a few of the high end clothes/shoes you want but don't go overboard. There are plenty of bargains out there for you and I would utilize those instead of buying upper-end accessories, especially at your age. The more important thing is how the clothes/shoes look on you and how you feel. If you are working out hard, you'll have confidence even if you were wearing paper bags on your feet. Clothes will fit much better if you've got broad shoulders and a slim waist.

Good luck. And there's a thread over in don juan tips about another members makeover. There's some good advice in there that may help you as well, as far as clothes, watches, etc. https://www.sosuave.net/forum/threads/redskinfan92-physical-makeover.256396/page-7#post-2616366

Thanks for the tips! Working out and getting that ripped body really is gonna be critical in my own personal transformation. With resources like this site, r/MaleFashionAdvice, r/StreetWear, Alpha M, and TMF, I think I know exactly how I need to dress. Now I just need to actually buy the pieces.

 

[nicksaiz65]

From Here

Well guys, I played some video games and got some sleep and I feel infinitely better than when I had my mental breakdown yesterday lol.

So love life wise, I’m gonna ignore all the rejections and my own insecurities until I can fix them. I’m gonna try to set up a date on Monday. That is, AFTER I buy a couple swagged out Graphic Tees from Forever21 or Rue21. To make up for my fashion mistakes and so I’m not such a dang fashion embarrassment lol. Also, I need to take better care of my clothes in general.

I’m not a natural in any sense of the word, so I’m gonna just exclusively use Seduction Material to dictate how I should do my love life. I know most of you guys only text for logistics, but I relate to Dr. Nerdlove so I’m gonna use his texting method from “I Got Her Number Now What.” Two of my favorites, RSD Jeffy and Todd V Dating also agree with this. I will combine their methods with Dr. Nerdlove’s as well, especially Todd’s Method of classifying texts. That should stop me from really having any questions about where I stand ever again. On top of that, this is the method that I see my Natural Chad Type friends using, so I’m gonna just let go and trust it. As for the actual escalation process, I’m gonna use Dr. Nerdlove’s “New Game Plus” and “Models” by Mark Manson. This will give me some much needed structure in my love life.

But I’m still working on my waves, and I’m gonna Buy the shirts. After that, I’m gonna keep going for the dates. I’ll just have to fake confidence if I’m not confident yet. I don’t care if I get rejected 100 times. I’m going to keep going for the dates while I improve myself.

God! It took me nearly a year to put together a solid text system, and I had to wait for a whole book to come out before I had one. But I think I have one that I’m finally happy with, and I’m gonna leave this as a constant.

Instead of being confused all the time and not knowing what to do, I’m just gonna run my texting Computer Algorithm. That way I will know what to do at pretty much all times and I won’t be confused anymore. In conclusion, my Text Game is gonna be Dr. Nerdlove, Todd V Dating, RSD Jeffy, and Based Zeus too. There are different schools of thought when it comes to this stuff, so I’m going with this one. As long as I do what they say, I should be all good.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Nick the Fashion Mogul

I was so livid about people calling me out on my fashion yesterday. In retaliation, I spent nearly $160 on new clothes in these last 2 days. Simple yet fresh stuff, nothing crazy.

Today I copped 3 fresh ass Graphic Tees.

But after this, I need to chill. I have classes to save for. What’s more important, being fresh now, or enabling myself to make money, Be Rich, and be a Don Juan in the future? I’d say the latter.

I found the Nike Air Max 97s I wanted in my size on DHGate(r/FashionReps) for $47. Hell yeah. In my world, that’s exactly how much sneakers should cost. So I’ll definitely be getting those. I’m also gonna replace my loafers. But after that, no more big splurging hauls. I need to save for my classes or I’ll be an eternal loser with no degree. After I get those items, I’ll just buy simple items(plain or graphic T-shirts, jeans, CHEAP shoes) intermittently to sustain myself.

My 22nd Birthday is coming up. And I’m gonna spend the first half of the day with friends drinking, and the second half working. There’s no way that I’m gonna miss an opportunity to make $100, and I can drink at my job anyways. That money can go towards some of my Don Juan goals: school and dressing nicely like a DJ should. Money makes the world go round.

 

[nicksaiz65]

I’m reading all these old posts of mine... makes me bang my head against the wall where I can tell a girl was interested in me but I didn’t make a move. Of course, I didn’t have the knowledge at the time...

 

[Papa_smu]

Random Midday Note: Venting Time

...

As morbid as it is, sometimes I wish I could just die. Sometimes I feel like everything in my life is wrong and I just wanna quit. I don’t know if I can salvage it. I’m literally still insecure and I’m just trying to cover up my insecurities like with a Band Aid. Faking who I am, trying to pretend like I’m someone I’m not... even if I make like a 3.7-3.8 GPA this semester I still don’t think I’ll be happy. And I don’t know what will make me happy. I guess all I can do in the moment is continue to work on school and learn Game.

I’m just gonna sit down and do my homework somewhere. This has been one of the worst days of my life so far. Jeez.

When you talk like this, it's worrisome. It wouldn't hurt to talk to a counseler about these things. In fact, I suggest doing it tomorrow right after class.

This line of thinking can snowball and turn into a dangerous situation.

 

[nicksaiz65]

When you talk like this, it's worrisome. It wouldn't hurt to talk to a counseler about these things. In fact, I suggest doing it tomorrow right after class.

This line of thinking can snowball and turn into a dangerous situation.

I’ll do that at my earliest convenience as long as I can humble myself lol. I get crazy thoughts like that whenever things are going badly for me for whatever reason

 

[Papa_smu]

I’ll do that at my earliest convenience as long as I can humble myself lol. I get crazy thoughts like that whenever things are going badly for me for whatever reason

This isn't something you should put off. It's one thing to post stuff like that once. But when you post similar stuff involving suicide, it's not something just to shrug off. You need professional help.

 

[nicksaiz65]

This isn't something you should put off. It's one thing to post stuff like that once. But when you post similar stuff involving suicide, it's not something just to shrug off. You need professional help.

Honestly I’ve known for a while that I’ve needed some help, I’ve just been averse to admitting weakness in the “real world,” you know what I mean?

 

[GrowingPains]

Honestly I’ve known for a while that I’ve needed some help, I’ve just been averse to admitting weakness in the “real world,” you know what I mean?

Get some help, brother.

Even if all you do is go to the session and talk about your favorite ice cream with the counselor, it's better than nothing. You have so much going for you, life is already short enough. Don't make it shorter.

It is hard to feel like you're making progress when you look at it on a small scale. But then you zoom out and see your progress is exponential. I think you understand this, you've read your older posts and compared to now. You need to understand something; you will never be perfect. Especially if you aim for being perfect. There's always something that can be done to be better. But your goal should just be to always be progressing and having a purpose in life. I'd say you're doing a pretty good job at that, you just need to learn to be "proud but never satisfied". I, too, struggle with wanting to be perfect. But I've come to realize that I shouldn't be so hard on myself. I have a lot going for me and I will continue to push myself. But it isn't the end of the world if I don't do this one thing perfectly. It's okay if I don't get this chick's number. It's okay if I don't do well on my homework. It's okay if I miss the gym tomorrow. It's only not okay if I accept those failures, don't learn from them and decide to stay set in my ways.

Your ego will destroy you if you continue to let it make your decisions for you. You know what you need to do, do it. Think about it, what's there to be embarrassed about? You know you have a problem and you know there is a professional who can help you. They literally get paid to help you and that's their whole purpose. Here's a less serious, similar example that I experienced recently that I learned from: I was getting destroyed in my fluids class. I went to office hours and everyone was asking questions that I hadn't even gotten to yet. I was too proud to ask my little basic questions because I didn't want to seem out of place. But because of that, I didn't finish the homework. I completed maybe 30% of it because I was too proud to get the help I needed. From a person who is literally there to answer questions like mine. And the whole time I knew that I should suck it up and ask my questions, but I was too proud. I will never do that again. I always ask my questions now no matter how basic they are or how many times the TA has to explain it to me. I'm gonna get mine.

Don't be so proud and bound to your ego that you keep yourself from living the life you deserve. Go get yours. If you truly want to be a Don Juan, then I think you have some questions that need professional answers. These things you discuss, suicide and discontent, need to be addressed as they're fundamental to your well being. You need to understand why it is you feel this way and how you can deal with it.

Listen to yourself, man. You're talking about wanting to end your life and you can't humble yourself enough to get the help you need. You know that's not right.

Your mental health is your most valuable asset. We care about you, but we need you to start caring about yourself.

"Man fvck
What's wrong Kyle?
Man these, kids man, talkin' sh!t, makin' me feel bad
Man, fvck them kids, bro. Look around, bro, look at life
Man you're right
Man, you see, you see these fine b!tches over here?
Yeah, woah
You see these trees man? You see this water?
I guess it is okay
Come on, man, you got so much more to appreciate, man
Man you know what, y-you're right
You damn right, I'm right, I can't remember a time I was goddamn wrong
Man, thanks, Lil Boat
Hey man, that's what I'm here for"