nicksaiz65 Odyssey

[GrowingPains]

Proud of Myself

I'm not supposed to post in here until May 5th so I can keep this journal going until I'm a College Grad, but I just can't help myself. I'm really proud. Here's some more improvement for you guys.

I checked my exam grade in Databases. I just made a 91 on Test 3!

There's a 100% chance I'm gonna pass that SQL Class and move on now. These study/life strategies that I have now really work...

That's big, brother! Do it again.

You can post whenever you want. Whether it's 10x a day or 1 time a year. None of us are going to think you're a failure if you're still trying to improve on page 121. It's a choice for us to read your journal or not to read it. You expressing yourself in a way you find constructive should not be based on whether we're tired of reading or some arbitrary number.

 

[nicksaiz65]

That's big, brother! Do it again.

You can post whenever you want. Whether it's 10x a day or 1 time a year. None of us are going to think you're a failure if you're still trying to improve on page 121. It's a choice for us to read your journal or not to read it. You expressing yourself in a way you find constructive should not be based on whether we're tired of reading or some arbitrary number.

Thanks bro! Once again sometimes I feel like my life is so fvcked sometimes that this journal has to go for a while. I can't stop or give up until it's fixed. Less frequent updates will let me do that, but I'll still share all my mistakes with you.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Fixing Myself and Tough Love

Okay guys... I need to touch on some stuff that I haven't really touched on before.

I tried to do a Cold Approach at a bar today with this HB9. It was the most positively pathetic thing that I've ever seen in my life. I just epically failed and got mogged to hell and back. Didn't even get the number. What the hell is wrong with me? I've done this all the time before. I have a few theories that I'm gonna list below.

I still have that Blue Pill conditioning that PUAs are "creepy" or what not. Well you know what? Dressing well, being ripped, having nice hair, and being able to approach women? There's nothing cooler that you could possibly do, honestly. It's the only way for me to be cool.

I need to practice doing more approaches just like Roosh said.

I need memorized openers. The DJ Bible actually says to do this. My openers are fvcking garbage, I never know what to say. Hell, even Mystery has a complete plan with the openers. I need that PLAN. If I don't have an exact roadmap of where I'm going before I approach, I'm doomed.

I can't spam approach until my confidence comes all the way in.

People meet by Cold Approach at Bars and in class all the time. Even sorority girls. I need to stop being so damn self conscious.

Man, I want to fvck some sorority girls or even date one. I've got to work up to that level. On top of that, that ship never sails.

Long story short, I'm really disappointed in myself for that approach. Plus, I should've been killing school, fvcking sorority girls and all that. Literally the only thing that is on my mind is becoming a DJ through these next two years of school, being an ACTUAL HUMAN BEING, and atoning for my Blue Pill Sins. That's the only thing on my mind at all.

I'll have friends no matter what, even if I just have to hang with my Band for now. I need to go to more house parties period.

Like in some ways I'm glad I had the life experiences I did but fvck bro.. fvck! I'll get there but sheesh. I just had to get this onto paper. I think this is decently new.

I'm sorry this journal gets so emotional sometimes guys, but this is honestly what's going through my head. I'll see you May 5th for the next update unless something major happens.

SIDENOTE: My dancing is getting better. But I will NEVER get there if I don't consistently do it every day. I've been doing 3 times a week so far. I'll see you guys on May 5th for the next update.

 

[nicksaiz65]

@DEEZEDBRAH I caved and double texted this girl. I should not have done that. The phone is for SETTING DATES in Red Pill/PUA Land.

I've overlooked a lot of this girl's flaky ass behavior just because she's exactly my type. I especially love how she can post on Instagram but can't respond to my text. Low Interest, attention wh0re, hard next. Well I'm only gonna text to set up dates and such from now on. You do that, it's literally IMPOSSIBLE to ever overpursue them. No validation giving/seeking texts. Thats what the Bad Boys do. I might flirt a bit, but that's it. Anything much more than setting up the date could be considered over texting.

I have fvcked girls when I only have their Snapchat though. So social media game isn't out of the question.

SOLUTION: Increase SMV, Next Set

I could stand to listen to The Rational Male audiobook again. The Medium is the Message. I know Rollo says otherwise but the Channing Tatum Rule seems really damn accurate.

I'm gonna start memorizing conversation topics too cause I'm so damn sick of running out of things to say.

 

[DEEZEDBRAH]

@DEEZEDBRAH I caved and double texted this girl. I should not have done that. The phone is for SETTING DATES in Red Pill/PUA Land.

Its what TR refers to as self sabotage.

I lead. She follows or next.

Its not for chatting.

i've overlooked a lot of this girl's flaky ass behavior just because she's exactly my type. I especially love how she can post on Instagram but can't respond to my text. Low Interest, attention wh0re, hard next.

There's no exception nor any excuses.

Set pace. Pull. Crush. Smash. Repeat.

LMR, low sex drive means #next.

Well I'm only gonna text to set up dates and such from now on. You do that, it's literally IMPOSSIBLE to ever overpursue them. No validation giving/seeking texts. Thats what the Bad Boys do. I might flirt a bit, but that's it. Anything much more than setting up the date could be considered over texting.

I have fvcked girls when I only have their Snapchat though. So social media game isn't out of the question.

SOLUTION: Increase SMV, Next Set

I could stand to listen to The Rational Male audiobook again. The Medium is the Message. I know Rollo says otherwise but the Channing Tatum Rule seems really damn accurate.

I'm gonna start memorizing conversation topics too cause I'm so damn sick of running out of things to say.

Fan of rollo but, again, he's a married dating coach essentially. Anybody who followed the beaten path i am skeptical of. I listen because he is usually spot on. I can't stand Steve the dean nor anybody else married talkie game when they checked out, plsy house, married before MySpace was a thing. Gtfo! AMS called out that cuck.

Tattum rule?

 

[nicksaiz65]

Its what TR refers to as self sabotage.

I lead. She follows or next.

Its not for chatting.



There's no exception nor any excuses.

Set pace. Pull. Crush. Smash. Repeat.

LMR, low sex drive means #next.



Fan of rollo but, again, he's a married dating coach essentially. Anybody who followed the beaten path i am skeptical of. I listen because he is usually spot on. I can't stand Steve the dean nor anybody else married talkie game when they checked out, plsy house, married before MySpace was a thing. Gtfo! AMS called out that cuck.

Tattum rule?

I didn't quite get it at first but AMS and Rollo say a lot of the same things it seems like.

You know the movie star Channing Tatum and how women drool over him? It's an interest test. For example, this girl ignored my text. If Channing Tatum texted her and asked her out, would she ignore him? Of course not. I know Rollo says it's a fallacy but I think this is a great interest test.

Deleted her number

 

[DEEZEDBRAH]

I didn't quite get it at first but AMS and Rollo say a lot of the same things it seems like.

You know the movie star Channing Tatum and how women drool over him? It's an interest test. For example, this girl ignored my text. If Channing Tatum texted her and asked her out, would she ignore him? Of course not. I know Rollo says it's a fallacy but I think this is a great interest test.

Deleted her number

The key is to think for yourself.

A lot of women say they wont **** a black guy but if Tyrone Balotelli took out bbc, she would get run over.

I like ams but imho, he's dun goofed by dating single mom's. I know he's nearly forty. Not an argument.

Learn From everyone. Moreover, trust your instincts, be a free thinker regardless of your intake of content, and mentoring. Learn from the experience. Trust in the process.

Huge mystery fan but he's super manic and blue pill.

Lastly, avoid being doxed. Use burner email and nothing game on social media.

 

[nicksaiz65]

The key is to think for yourself.

A lot of women say they wont **** a black guy but if Tyrone Balotelli took out bbc, she would get run over.

I like ams but imho, he's dun goofed by dating single mom's. I know he's nearly forty. Not an argument.

Learn From everyone. Moreover, trust your instincts, be a free thinker regardless of your intake of content, and mentoring. Learn from the experience. Trust in the process.

Huge mystery fan but he's super manic and blue pill.

Lastly, avoid being doxed. Use burner email and nothing game on social media.

Yup bro. I'm kinda mixing Game Styles together. I agree with not overpursuing or validating women but I like being a bit flirty in my messages and texts.

I think Mystery Method is great for night game. It'll help eliminate that "what do I say, what do I do" BS.

Any tips on what exactly I should say/talk about during the Attraction phase though? I always had trouble with that.

 

[DEEZEDBRAH]

Yup bro. I'm kinda mixing Game Styles together. I agree with not overpursuing or validating women but I like being a bit flirty in my messages and texts.

I think Mystery Method is great for night game. It'll help eliminate that "what do I say, what do I do" BS.

Any tips on what exactly I should say/talk about during the Attraction phase though? I always had trouble with that.

MM beats 'compliance' to death. The missing ingredients of most of the game and pickup content now a days (for the most part). As for attraction, rsd particularly, rsd tyler bangs out assuming attraction. I'll go as far as to say, presume attraction from Go. Approach as you would if you had already smashed. As in, zero ****s given either way. Chain gun cold approach. Swipe right at life.

Create a routine for self-care. As in, gym, lift, diet, read, meditation, education, social life with family, friends, pray, etc. Get paper right. Detox with all of the above. Build a nest egg. Have savings. Learn resources. Have a career and learn entrepreneurship. At the least, have a side hustle, and or freelance yourself. There's nothing more red pill than entrepreneurship, being a resourceful man, your own boss, and acquire Lifestyle.

My biggest critique to the post (for what its worth) isn't wackkk game, neediness, overly agreeable, highly open, and too available. Its the lack of purpose. The drive for a man on the hero's journey is one of struggle and obstacle. The end goal is besides the fact. The approach, pull, and smash is irrelevant. Its about Crush it Gary Vee. Its being 'that guy.' lose rudderless leaf in the wind way of Being. Aim for the highest and act accordingly.

 

[nicksaiz65]

MM beats 'compliance' to death. The missing ingredients of most of the game and pickup content now a days (for the most part). As for attraction, rsd particularly, rsd tyler bangs out assuming attraction. I'll go as far as to say, presume attraction from Go. Approach as you would if you had already smashed. As in, zero ****s given either way. Chain gun cold approach. Swipe right at life.

Create a routine for self-care. As in, gym, lift, diet, read, meditation, education, social life with family, friends, pray, etc. Get paper right. Detox with all of the above. Build a nest egg. Have savings. Learn resources. Have a career and learn entrepreneurship. At the least, have a side hustle, and or freelance yourself. There's nothing more red pill than entrepreneurship, being a resourceful man, your own boss, and acquire Lifestyle.

My biggest critique to the post (for what its worth) isn't wackkk game, neediness, overly agreeable, highly open, and too available. Its the lack of purpose. The drive for a man on the hero's journey is one of struggle and obstacle. The end goal is besides the fact. The approach, pull, and smash is irrelevant. Its about Crush it Gary Vee. Its being 'that guy.' lose rudderless leaf in the wind way of Being. Aim for the highest and act accordingly.

I could honestly use some prayer in my life, dude. Maybe that's part of the reason I'm so off the rails all the time.

Yeah, I'm lucky enough that I know exactly what I want to do with my life. I know what I want to do for a career, and I know what my passions are. I'm still a student, so the main way I'm doing that is by working on passing my classes and getting a degree. As well as doing my own programming personal projects. That way, employers will respect me and I can get a high paying job. I don't want any more education past college. For me at least, there's not a point.

I'm gonna be posting more in here about my purpose as time goes on until I graduate.

 

[nicksaiz65]

4/14/19: Update Frequency, Cold Approaches, My Passions, Alarm Clocks and Being an Idiot

Okay so first things first. I've decided on a good update frequency for this journal. I will do it biweekly. I think that's a good compromise. I just don't want this journal to go over 200 pages. So 52 weeks in a year, I'll post 26 times a year in here. Then let's leave an extra 275 posts for general discussion. That totals to around 300 posts a year, way less than what we've already done. That will ensure that the journal won't go over 200 pages(that estimate is extremely high to compensate for conversation) and I can graduate. It'll be a lonnnnnnnnnnnnnng ass journal, but I'll make progress with every post and I'll be such a freaking boss at the end. Plus we can have discussions on my flaws and it'll give me something to look forward to.

Cold Approach 33, 34, 35
Been doing more Approaches at bars lately since that other girl wanted to ignore me. I'm just gonna meet new women, plain and simple.

On my 33rd Approach, we had a good conversation because it turned out she makes films. She has some very nice t*ts. We'll call her HB Kaiya. I got her number and texted her a couple days later:

Me: Nice to meet you, Kaiya!
Her: It was nice to meet you too
Me: If I ever get some spare time, you should show me some of your film stuff. That's dope!
Her: We'll see
Me: Ok!

Probably could've left of the exclamation points, but what can you do I suppose. I hope that wasn't too needy. So she hit me with that "we'll see" BS that AMS was talking about. On top of that, her texts seem very cold compared to mine. Ladies and gentlemen, we have Low Interest. She took about an hour to respond, so I took an hour as well. I low-key wanna drop her because of that "we'll see" BS, but I might wait a few days and then ask her out for the lols. That'll let me know exactly where I stand. No counteroffer, no interest! Hell, if she doesn't respond then I'll know exactly where I stand.

Following PUA Routines to the letter will help me make sure I'm building the connection during the approach. Increasing my SMV too, of course. LMS. I need to approach heavy if I'm gonna get a LR5 by the end of the semester.

I used to think that I was doing terribly, but I'm really not. Just like Roosh V says, it's a numbers game. He said that only 5-25% of the numbers that you get will result in a date. All you can do is maximize your look(as girls get more and more superficial), get tight Game, and continue to play the Numbers' Game.

I was also talking about why you shouldn't ever blow up a woman's phone with a Natural. He says that you should always be mysterious. She should be thinking, "I hope he texts me!" That can't happen if you're blowing up her phone like a simp. Now this is different in a relationship, but I have zero business pursuing any type of relationship until I've gotten at least 20 Lays. Red Pilled sh*t only.

Nothing remarkable about the other two approaches. Now that I'm following a Red Pilled Algorithmic Approach, I'm just gonna start posting Conversation Logs too so y'all can see exactly what I'm doing.

Blue Pilled Nonsense
No more of this BS about "oh you have to connect with women, just let it happen." Pure Red Pill Algorithms from now on. Although I do like the Nerdlove Approach. I'm just gonna contemplate and keep practicing my approach, to see how it goes.

I love Dr. Nerdlove's stuff but he doesn't agree with The Red Pill at all. Sometimes his content is just a bit Blue Pilled for me.

School
Databases Program 4 is coming up, I've started working on that. I'm setting up housing, summer classes, and looking into these fees. Need to get my Alternate PIN but don't wanna talk to my advisor. I need to keep practicing for Private Violin so I can make sure I have an A in there... Same old boring stuff.

Alarm Clocks
Every single time I go to sleep, even if I'm coming back from a party, I need to set my alarm clock. One thing that I should've learned in high school too. If I expect to be successful, I need to monitor my sleep and breaks like a scientist.

Music, my Passion: Jazz Theory and Jazz Improv
I've really taken a liking to Jazz Theory and Jazz Improv. Even the huge Classical Concertos that I like use jazz type chords in them(you just don't notice it.) I think my violin playing and composing could be improved if I delved into this topic. I want to buy The Jazz Theory Book on Kindle but it's $27... jeez. There's a purchase I'll have to think about. Also if I'm serious about being a musician and not just a pipe dream... I have to practice and compose WAYYYYYYYYY more than I do currently.

Also, even as my chordal vocabulary expands I shouldn't forget about the basic triads. I still need to use them. There's a very clear relationship between chords and scales as well.

This EDM Track I'm composing is starting to sound pretty good. Idk exactly what I'm going for with it, though.

Work Experience
My violin teacher has a bad website. I plan on staying in my college town this summer. He said if I redesign his website from the ground up, he would give me free weekly violin lessons over the summer. I see no reason not to take him up on this. Not only could I get some more Computer Science experience that would look good on my resume, but I'd be saving money and furthering my music passion as well. This is a win win win.

SIDENOTE:
This is random, but I've been putting off listening to and learning the lyrics to mumble rap for sooooo long. I have GOT to get on that. People literally listen to nothing but rap these days

 

[DEEZEDBRAH]

I could honestly use some prayer in my life, dude. Maybe that's part of the reason I'm so off the rails all the time.

You and I both brother.

The serenity prayers a good start. Change what you can. Do your part. Meditate. Let go. Leave the rest to God/universe/Being.

Yeah, I'm lucky enough that I know exactly what I want to do with my life. I know what I want to do for a career, and I know what my passions are. I'm still a student, so the main way I'm doing that is by working on passing my classes and getting a degree. As well as doing my own programming personal projects. That way, employers will respect me and I can get a high paying job. I don't want any more education past college. For me at least, there's not a point.

I'm gonna be posting more in here about my purpose as time goes on until I graduate.

Everyone is sold the same bill of Goods. The get a edu, get a good paying job, start a family. Get married. These generic ideas which are criteria but, far from solutions. Its how people end up on life tracks they never asked for nor requested.

Grab life by balls. Stay focuses. Get your STEM degree (please tell me its STEM not left handed poetry?). Network. Its not handed out business cards. Its face time. Its connecting, mirror exposure, establish contacts, and acquiring the right leads as well as prospects to get on.

Come out of school and have minimum three references. Your profs usually have pull. Some suck but some maybe captivating and inspiring. Get exposure. Note, this goes for women, relationships, biz, work, life etc. Stand out. Everyone is your competition inside your classroom and outside.

 

[nicksaiz65]

You and I both brother.

The serenity prayers a good start. Change what you can. Do your part. Meditate. Let go. Leave the rest to God/universe/Being.



Everyone is sold the same bill of Goods. The get a edu, get a good paying job, start a family. Get married. These generic ideas which are criteria but, far from solutions. Its how people end up on life tracks they never asked for nor requested.

Grab life by balls. Stay focuses. Get your STEM degree (please tell me its STEM not left handed poetry?). Network. Its not handed out business cards. Its face time. Its connecting, mirror exposure, establish contacts, and acquiring the right leads as well as prospects to get on.

Come out of school and have minimum three references. Your profs usually have pull. Some suck but some maybe captivating and inspiring. Get exposure. Note, this goes for women, relationships, biz, work, life etc. Stand out. Everyone is your competition inside your classroom and outside.

Yeah spirituality is always good. The only thing is I feel it's kind of a contradiction and I'm not sure exactly what to do about that. On one hand there's my spirituality, and then it's like "Red Pill, fvck these h0ez to sleep lol."

I'm a Computer Science major. Part of STEM so I'm good. No underwater basket weaving degree. Unfortunately, my teachers think I'm an irresponsible fvck up so that's dead. I should still be able to get a job as long as I work hard. Increase the "M" in LMS.

I've made so many mistakes in my life and academic career that it's quite embarrassing. I plan to fix every last one of them as I continue my school career though. I'm doing pretty darn well this semester so that's a start.

 

[DEEZEDBRAH]

Yeah spirituality is always good. The only thing is I feel it's kind of a contradiction and I'm not sure exactly what to do about that. On one hand there's my spirituality, and then it's like "Red Pill, fvck these h0ez to sleep lol."

I'm a Computer Science major. Part of STEM so I'm good. No underwater basket weaving degree. Unfortunately, my teachers think I'm an irresponsible fvck up so that's dead. I should still be able to get a job as long as I work hard. Increase the "M" in LMS.

I've made so many mistakes in my life and academic career that it's quite embarrassing. I plan to fix every last one of them as I continue my school career though. I'm doing pretty darn well this semester so that's a start.

When it comes to employment, nobody cares seriously about GPA. Putting it on your cover letter or listing being on the Dean's list is as likely to piss off employer for wasting time and the 3 secs to read the piece of info that, they cannot get back. Not saying, don't crush it. I am saying, you can network employment. Look at freelance work. Entrepreneurship is OG. Build sites. Generate leads and prospects. Conversion rates will bleed into other areas of life.

 

[shouldbefun]

Yeah spirituality is always good. The only thing is I feel it's kind of a contradiction and I'm not sure exactly what to do about that. On one hand there's my spirituality, and then it's like "Red Pill, fvck these h0ez to sleep lol."

I'm a Computer Science major. Part of STEM so I'm good. No underwater basket weaving degree. Unfortunately, my teachers think I'm an irresponsible fvck up so that's dead. I should still be able to get a job as long as I work hard. Increase the "M" in LMS.

I've made so many mistakes in my life and academic career that it's quite embarrassing. I plan to fix every last one of them as I continue my school career though. I'm doing pretty darn well this semester so that's a start.

I'm just speaking out my thoughts out loud but what why did you pick stem and not just music? Have you tried applying into a music school?

 

[nicksaiz65]

When it comes to employment, nobody cares seriously about GPA. Putting it on your cover letter or listing being on the Dean's list is as likely to piss off employer for wasting time and the 3 secs to read the piece of info that, they cannot get back. Not saying, don't crush it. I am saying, you can network employment. Look at freelance work. Entrepreneurship is OG. Build sites. Generate leads and prospects. Conversion rates will bleed into other areas of life.

Okay, here's the thing I'm worried about though. My grades have been sh*t for several semesters now. Like it's been baaaaad before you guys got on me and helped me raise my grades. I hated school, and didn't care about those classes whatsoever. Idk why I didn't.

Now I'm doing better of course, and I'm making summer plans as well, but that doesn't erase my Godawful transcript(and pitiful GPA that will take some time to resuscitate, but I'm pretty sure that it can be done with my extra time at school.)

When I apply for internships will they ask for my transcript/GPA? If they do, I'm fvcked and I'll have no work experience once I graduate because they'll never ever want me. Do I just lie? Do I suck it up and apply anyways? Any other ways I could get work experience? Just knock on peoples' door such as Papa_Smu suggested? Of course, I could enter my own personal projects in competitions too. Even just developing/finishing them would look fire on my resume. Posting example code to GitHub. But any idea about what I should do to get myself out of this hole that I've put myself into?

 

[nicksaiz65]

I'm just speaking out my thoughts out loud but what why did you pick stem and not just music? Have you tried applying into a musical school?

I made a post in here a while back, but long story short I saw myself as an engineer/programmer because I had been doing that and liked it. I didn't want to be a pure music Major. Crazy hard to make a living and I don't wanna be a broke boi forever. Although I'll be honest, I'm a much better musician than programmer lmao. There was a post where Marmel and I talked about why we liked Computer Science.

And at this point, it's a matter of my personal pride for Computer Science lol. I will finish that degree if it's the last thing I do in this world

 

[shouldbefun]

I made a post in here a while back, but long story short I saw myself as an engineer/programmer because I had been doing that and liked it. I didn't want to be a pure music Major. Crazy hard to make a living and I don't wanna be a broke boi forever. Although I'll be honest, I'm a much better musician than programmer lmao. There was a post where Marmel and I talked about why we liked Computer Science.

And at this point, it's a matter of my personal pride for Computer Science lol. I will finish that degree if it's the last thing I do in this world

Fair enough, finish your degree since you can't really backpedal now. But essentially it's about finding what you like. "Practicality vs passion" is a concept that you really don't consider until you are neck deep in the hardest part of your major. Generally speaking, CS is an introverts job, as well as other stems.
Theres also the fact that having a lower GPA will make it harder to cherry pick your favorite companies and this may upset you if you wanted to work in a specific company/top company. Of-course non of this triviality matters, if you just want to find work in your respected profession and have a normal salary.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Fair enough, finish your degree since you can't really backpedal now. But essentially it's about finding what you like. "Practicality vs passion" is a concept that you really don't consider until you are neck deep in the hardest part of your major. Generally speaking, CS is an introverts job, as well as other stems.
Theres also the fact that having a lower GPA will make it harder to cherry pick your favorite companies and this may upset you if you wanted to work in a specific company/top company. Of-course non of this triviality matters, if you just want to find work in your respected profession and have a normal salary.

I feel you on that man. And I had definitely considered that issue. Luckily, I thought of a way to circumvent it. All I need to do is get one tech job. Even if I'm working for free. Like @DEEZEDBRAH said, they don't care about GPA. And even if they do, all I have to do is get one Tech Job. Then, they'll ask "what was your work experience?" Instead of "What was your GPA?" And then my college blunders will be erased from my life and I'll be free to do whatever I want.

 

[marmel75]

Okay, here's the thing I'm worried about though. My grades have been sh*t for several semesters now. Like it's been baaaaad before you guys got on me and helped me raise my grades. I hated school, and didn't care about those classes whatsoever. Idk why I didn't.

Now I'm doing better of course, and I'm making summer plans as well, but that doesn't erase my Godawful transcript(and pitiful GPA that will take some time to resuscitate, but I'm pretty sure that it can be done with my extra time at school.)

When I apply for internships will they ask for my transcript/GPA? If they do, I'm fvcked and I'll have no work experience once I graduate because they'll never ever want me. Do I just lie? Do I suck it up and apply anyways? Any other ways I could get work experience? Just knock on peoples' door such as Papa_Smu suggested? Of course, I could enter my own personal projects in competitions too. Even just developing/finishing them would look fire on my resume. Posting example code to GitHub. But any idea about what I should do to get myself out of this hole that I've put myself into?

Then you simply tell them the truth. You tell them when you first got to college you were so excited to be free from your parents for the first time that you basically went overboard on the partying and exercising your freedom to not do things you should have done and your grades suffered from it. Then you tell them you learned your lesson and matured and now have improved in that area and look to continue improving.

This type of thing can go a long way. Everyone wants to paint the picture they are perfect in interviews but being honest and being someone an interviewer can relate to because a lot of people(including me) went through the same type of stuff at that age.

At the very least it shows them you recognized your weaknesses and set out to correct them, which a lot of people dont do.