TheGambino
Master Don Juan
I saw my bpd ex again after months in a random bar. We had a bad break up.
Thing is, I still want to fvck her again. Never did I text her again after the break up. She wanted me to commit but then just broke it off when we had arguments.
When she came in her friend immediatley said ''hes here'' I saw that and pointing to me. And her face was like ''omg here we go again''.
I know she still has feelings for me, but she told me in the end of the time together ''all my friends tell me im crazy still dating you and giving you chances''
Anyway she looked in my direction a lot in the bar. I smiled a couple of times, friendly nothing more. She looked very stressed around me and kept an eye on me all night. I felt that. She also made sure that guys were giving her attention, touching her and then looking in my direction to see any reaction from me or if I noticed. I just had fun all night and gladly number closed and hugged a girl in front of her. She looked mad and jealous when that happened, totally looking at us.
A couple of times she passed me and tried to glance but God made it happen that everytime someone bumped her or me that we couldnt lock eyes.
My ego hold me to talk to her, I couldnt bring out a hi or anything else, I only looked at her a couple of times smiling friendly and her friend would be like ''hes looking!!''. End of the night she went for food with her friend and 2 guys lol. I knew she totally did not care about them but was looking to see if she could get any reaction, validation from me, she still craves my validation. Though Im not sure what would happen if I talked to her. She might as well ignore me, no idea.
Could I text her or is that totally stupid?
Thing is, I still want to fvck her again. Never did I text her again after the break up. She wanted me to commit but then just broke it off when we had arguments.
When she came in her friend immediatley said ''hes here'' I saw that and pointing to me. And her face was like ''omg here we go again''.
I know she still has feelings for me, but she told me in the end of the time together ''all my friends tell me im crazy still dating you and giving you chances''
Anyway she looked in my direction a lot in the bar. I smiled a couple of times, friendly nothing more. She looked very stressed around me and kept an eye on me all night. I felt that. She also made sure that guys were giving her attention, touching her and then looking in my direction to see any reaction from me or if I noticed. I just had fun all night and gladly number closed and hugged a girl in front of her. She looked mad and jealous when that happened, totally looking at us.
A couple of times she passed me and tried to glance but God made it happen that everytime someone bumped her or me that we couldnt lock eyes.
My ego hold me to talk to her, I couldnt bring out a hi or anything else, I only looked at her a couple of times smiling friendly and her friend would be like ''hes looking!!''. End of the night she went for food with her friend and 2 guys lol. I knew she totally did not care about them but was looking to see if she could get any reaction, validation from me, she still craves my validation. Though Im not sure what would happen if I talked to her. She might as well ignore me, no idea.
Could I text her or is that totally stupid?
