Ok maybe you truly loved her, but ask yourself these questionsmikey2012 said:I guess you truly loved her....you can never get over the ones you truly loved..
Does she love you now?
Did she stick with you during the hard times?
Is she with you now?
Was she faithful?
Was she honest?
More than likely you'll say no to most of that.
You might love her still but she is a damaged female who can't handle adversity. She bailed on you more than likely during a hard point or low point in your life and she found something "better"
I had the same problem too and I woke up and saw things for what they really were:
She never really loved me, was more about that ego trip and control
She lied several times in the relationship, I lied once, and very minor and she crucified me for it.
She didn't want the hard times but she wanted the Disney life
She's not with me now and is trying or found a lesser mark than myself
I question was she ever faithful to me fully
Now I got females knocking on my door wanting me more than the ex ever wanted me.
You have to put things In perspective. More than likely you used NC to get her back and she never called. That's ok, you found out 2 things.
1. She clearly doesn't want you, but she can't help herself because she herself doesn't know what she wants and more than likely get what she doesn't want. Be glad you are not a part of that. I have friends that are married and have kids tell me that I'm lucky, I'm young, career has started, no kids and that they are jealous of me.
2. You are a normal human being with feelings. Use your actions of sadness, depression or anger, and go run, hit the gym, work on your career, etc. You deserve someone who cares just as much as you do and will not take you for granted. You do not need that drama you had with your ex in your life.
You'll find out if you are you, women will flock to you just like your ex did, but realize there is always someone better than your ex.