squirrels said:
It's a confidence issue. Too many men have been convinced these days that women find them ignorant and disgusting by nature and that they have to do something to "compensate for their intrusion".
Yeah, this is a feeling that i'm trying to bury. For some reason I hate the thought of a girl thinking i'm hitting on her or interested in her. I mostly think it's because i hate someone having the upper hand on me. I worry about it even more if the girl is worse looking than me but not by a lot. Oh no the beneath me chick thinks i want her!! How dare she think i'm in her league! Her lucky day this is not! But if she is the one initially showing interest than i feel she has no upper hand since she's displayed her interest already, and thus i'm comfortable.
Is this fear of rejection? I don't fear rejection really... i just get angry by it

"What! I am awesome! How dare you!"
This is actually a newer phenomenon because this didn't used to happen. Why would i care more about what she thinks about that now than i used to? Probably because i understand women better and know how evil they are so i'm more guarded about what they get to know.
I intellectually realize though that WHO CARES what people think since it really has no effect on me.. this becomes more and more of me as times goes on and hopefully i can bury the dumb feeling once and for all soon. I feel retarded with kino too, but i never felt like i needed it much...