it’s normal to think like this when you are in your 20s. I’m not patronizing you. I’m just saying saying 10-15 years from now your mindset and goals will change. When you are young, you want to build yourself up to become Superman.
When you get older, you realize there is no need for Superman. Like if I were to get locked up by the fbi, I wouldnt really feel any emotional fluctuations. If an asteroid were to come falling from the sky, id just think “I’m surprised it hasnt already happened given the probabilities.” I’ve been in knife fights where i barely had a pulse.
It’s like when you are young you feel like you need confidence to talk to women. When you are older you don’t even understand social anxiety to the point where confidence is needed. Like “really? Guys need mindset and all those mental gymnastics to say hello?”
You can tell who is who by what they preach. Some guys preach approaching like it’s the ultimate challenge. While other guys scratch their heads and think “what are we, 12 years old?”
you can chalk it up to internal dominance that comes from life chiseling you, or perhaps the imagined pressures in life dissolves itself and you realize there is nothing to really overcome when you get older.
Whatever the reason is, there is no need for super powers when you get to a certain level of emotional intelligence.
The game is an illusion. There are no obstacles. No pressure to overcome.
People might think I have strong inner game. But I have no inner game. Or rather, no need for inner game. Because life is nothing.
The only explanation I have is that I’ve died enough times that nothing phases me.
When you die, your illusions die with you. And when you come back, you stop giving a sh1t.
Of course, I mean ego death. Even when I am talking about smv, I am talking about it from a business value standpoint. Just matter of factly.
The irony of life is when you grow up, you want to build yourself. But when you are older, freedom is when yourself dissapear.
Yeah I know what you mean, I’m farther along in my journey than you think because most of the time, I don’t really give af about most things anyway. I just don’t care. Like if something good happens to me, awesome. If something bad happens, it’s just another ****ty thing that happened in my life.
The only problem is that you could become complacent and just stop caring about anything and everything all together, and I’ve come across that fairly recently. I’ve become a lot more ‘aware’ about how things actually are and you just kinda realize there’s no point. I’ll give you an example: All those lazy ass kids back in high school who were naturally more mature and more street smart than the rest just never tried and never really gave a **** about school because they saw just how pointless it was. But they also ended up being losers in life because of it. And while it’s fine for them because they don’t really care, I’ve determined for myself that I do not want be a loser, irregardless if whether I care or not. It’s just that because of how pointless everything is, it makes doing stuff so much more daunting. But for me and my sake, I decided that I still need to keep moving and improving.
There’s a reason for this though—I haven’t been fully unleashed and exposed to the world yet. I’m still living in a bubble right now. In about a year or 2, I’ll suddenly gain more autonomy and might even say that I’m ‘free’. Within 5-6 years, I’ll be completely free. Why does that matter? Because me being in this ‘bubble’ means that I can still cultivate myself and that I still have time to
become, before who I am becomes permanent.
I need to maximize as much of my potential as I can before it becomes impossible for me to change. Once I get my full freedom, I shall skyrocket in terms of who I am and what I am, my ability/abilities, smv, social skills/prowess/intelligence/understanding, etc. and I will self-actualize and perhaps even transcend, God-willing. But I need to know what I have to do right now, so that I can prepare myself actually do all those things and
be all those things once I’m on my own. I have the advantage of being able to observe things objectively from where I’m at now, but sooner or later I might lose that and I won’t be able to learn any more than what I already know. I’m trying to maximize my potential. Surpass my form, if you will.
When you die, your illusions die with you. And when you come back, you stop giving a sh1t
Yeah, that’s what everyone says after the first time they go unconscious. After that, it gets easier to ‘go’ all the other times.
The interesting thing is that the exact opposite happens for people who try DMT. It always turns the most hardcore atheist/anti-theists to people who are firm believers in God.
The fact that both of these even exist sets a strange polarity to existence and its meaning. In the end, it’s your choice to believe whatever you want to believe. I tend to notice that people who don’t go far enough into death say that it’s nothingness, but that those who go even farther eventually experience things they shouldn’t. When they’re told it’s not their time (yet), things fade to the nothingness again for a while before they return. Food for thought.