Okay, this sounds all shocking and stupid for many veteran members here. Yes, I understand the risk, yes it ain't a good idea, I know all this.
Ofcourse she knows I like her and yes I also know she had/has some interest.
But the damage is not done yet. I never showed weakness, never acted jealous, never asked about her ex. Never reacted emotional, always a masculine frame. No whining, or b1tching, always very dominant, nice and with energy focussed on work around her. Always professional, only making jokes sometimes and some cexual jokes last week like I said. No big damage. I didn't ask her out 1 on 1, I didn't give her advice on her bf who cheated on her, I didn't show any weak signals or made it clear with words that I like her. We only flirted, vibed, and that's it. Like I said, she is the one who asked me every single day what I was up too that night and if I was cooking for myself. Just to fish what I was planning and if theres a girl. We had drinks once after work but when she got a few drinks in her system and started to tell about her ex that came back in her life I ended the evening and left. She knows I'm kind of interested but I also told her I date chicks, she knows I spin plates, she knows a girl is interested is trying to lock me down and im uncertain of that.
You guys know how I really feel about her, but she doesn't that's the main thing now. She feels that I am uncertain of her wheter I want to fvck her, I also show her mixed signals. She is probably hella confused also. She does not know how I feel, I remained hard masculine with no emotions around her, ever, period. That's the main thing, so I can easily eject and go back to 100% professional without any damage.
I will follow up, she is probably coming back to work saturday if she feels good with no complaints. She called that her other friend that was also on the ''party'' tested today and if he has corona she will test too. Whatever, if she comes to work or not.
I decease. I go professional, I leave it like it is and focus on everything but her. I do my best, I did not do any big damage. I only went renting on here, clueless if I should go for the kill and ask her out to my crib or be smart and try to leave it.