"Honestly I ****ing hate eating with people"
Hahaha I'm the same way.. Ordering food at the bar where you're not facing each other and there are sports on TV is much more comfortable to me. Sitting across from someone quietly eating trying to come up with horsesh*t conversation until you can go back to your place and bang is just torturous. I guess underlying this is my lack of social skills and fear of opening up to people in general, but there is nothing more cringe-worthy and uncomfortable than forced small talk and awkward silences, especially while you're trying to enjoy a meal.