OK... This is my second year in college. I'm only a sophomore, no frat status at all or anything like that. I go to an HBCU so NPHC (Divine Nine) Greeks rule, espcially AKAs (Alpha Kappa Alpha girls) and Deltas(Delta Sigma Theta girls). That being said, here's a f*ck up (a few) I had last year.
AKA f**k up:
As the Fall semester started my freshman year, me and this boy I met who grew to be my best friend decided to tag team for the only party I've been to thrown by the AKAs, celebrating the first football game. As me and my friend meandered through the party @ this club, we got bored of the girls we were messin with, and so we decided to get bold. We made our way to stand near the stage where only the AKA and the Alphas (their greek brothers, Alpha Phi Alpha) were allowed. Me and my friend start pointing AKAs out and pulling them down off stage to dance with us, and to our surprise, THEY DO!
Eventually I pull the finest one off stage, and she dances with me for at least 15 minutes, we went through a minimum 4/5 songs in great rhythm before she turns around and starts conversation. Just as I get her name, her sorority sister grabs her away and she tells me she'll come back for me. Next time I see her go by she's still getting pulled by one of her sisters so she can't stop, but she makes sure to shoot me a dirty/nasty-in-a-great-way look. I knew I had a chance with her... but what did I do?
I haven't spoken to her since.
Deltas:
The second week of school the Deltas had a week of events, starting with the "Urban Espresso" where they had people performing spoken word, hip hop, and singing. While another guy was singing, I sang along with him, and one of the Deltas heard me and dragged me to the front. To sing next (yea, I'm a singin ass guy). After I was done, a Delta gave me her number so that I could sing her to sleep some nights, "in person if need be". I completely thought about me being a freshman and not being able to drive, and not that (1) She drives; (2) She lives in walking distance; (20 minute walk for a fine ass, certified HB9) ; (3) We have free buses that take us by the most common apartment complexes, hers being one of them.
In addition, things I've realized that are significant (yet I missed them):
-Deltas would dance with me straight up
-wrap their a leg (or both) around me when I dance with them @ their own parties (Deltas normally dont act slutty in public, ESPECIALLY @ their own events, not even allowed to drink @ their own events)
-drink with me @ their own events
-show me more attention at frat parties when they can freely act slutty (in my memory i can still feel their hands rubbing down there..)
It seems my (dont give a f**k) has gone a bit overboard cuz I could've smashed at least 4 Deltas, and POSSIBLY the finest AKA (and finest girl PERIOD) in the entire school. AND, all this as a freshman, and being that 3 are high status (one is Editor and Chief of the school paper, one is head anchor on the school news TV show, and THE FINEST girl in the school)....
I never made that bold step to either of them. I feel sh*tty whenever I think about it, my friends mention it as a low blow to piss me off.
Of all the progress I made, I still have a bit of a fear of rejection, and what kills me is that this fear is the only thing separating me from the beds of the baddest girls in school.
