Journal - Approaches on street, at mall, etc.

[NorwegianDJ]

You should approach people AFTER you fart 'on' them.

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah Norwegian! Once I'll have some free time, I will approach girls (or anybody) and interrupt the conversation with a good squeeze. I'll do an awkward silence of 3 seconds for fun, and then continue the conversation. Oh my god that will be so funny.

I must focus on the new bootcamp first.
It went a lot better than I though. 11 approaches and approx. 7 names. I used to go for 1-2 girls every time I went to the mall. Now, I did a lot more and pushed myself more. I'm lucky to have a good buddy like Casta. He also did 11 approaches. We are feeling so pro! We will go on 'till the end and fix a day every week to go do the bootcamp's exercices. Also, every wednesday after our breakdancing class, we'll go do some approaches.

Me and him want to start out a new breakdance crew with another buddy. That would definitely help me keep myself in shape. I will also try to find a way to start working out.

I also have to start practising the piano again and try to get ready for the talent show coming March 30th. There are 3 talent shows coming up at my school. I dunno if I can attend all of them but I'll try. I must get over my fear of the public. Hard songs to learn... There's one of them that is neoclassical metal, and I want to play it on the keyboard. Hard as hell, but I will practice!

Oh and, I have to study and do homeworks for school too. Ugh, so many things to do. I will be consistent and I'll work a lot so I'll have enough time to practice for the bootcamp. I'll have no excuses to give.

Peace guys.
I'm loving 2012. I'm winning.

 

[Mindgamez]

Just read a succes story on Sosuave.
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=66856&highlight=sosuave
I got emotional on this one. I have to admit those last words really got into me. I'm not the only one fighting for change. I'm not alone in this world. There are people out there, just like me, trying to change their lives. I though for a moment that I was alone, different. My friends are different from me, but they are also like me in some way. The difference is, that they don't want to change. They don't believe in change. But I do.

Sometimes I cry of joy. That's a good feeling. It's liberating. Sometimes, I don't know why I do, but I feel so damn happy. So damn proud. So damn unique and different. I'm Yannick, I'm not some dumb AFC anymore. I am me, and only me. For 2012, I'm not the new me. I'm the real me, the me that always existed deeply within myself. It's here and I know. But I've never been this real me completely. My possibilities are endless. Life is such a beautiful thing. It's during the darkest of times that the brightest stars shine. If life was easy, everybody would be incredible. There would be no challenges to overcome. I'm glad I have obstacles, because overcoming them makes life meaningful.

I just read what I wrote. I like it. 3 years back, I would've never thought this way.


Today, I talked a little to Claudia. I poked and touched her many times today. She always smiles. She looks at me and initiate conversation. She laughs at the little things all the time, they aren't even funny lol!

I encountered her at least 5 times today. It was the usual hellos + smile at first. Then I grabbed her hip with one hand as she was going up the stairs to tickle her. But then after the 3rd encounter I was like, okay she's following me.

After the last period, she walked pass by me. I poked her again, and then we talked. She seemed pretty interested and she was staying closer to me than any other girl. We just talked normally though. I told her that she was a stalker for following me. She laughed as usual.

Just before leaving school, I heard her laughing from behind. I looked back and she was there again. I told her that she was a stalker again. I grabbed her with my hands and teased her a bit. I played with her hair. Good kino. She's an asian girl, and pretty responsive. I think it's a good sign. I'll go for her.

Thanks Sosuave and everybody out there. I really love you guys, and I really mean it. Everybody that supported this forum, I'm very happy right now. I have no idea why. I'm getting emotional again, haha.

For 2012, happiness and well-being.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

I get those moments too. Thanks for the read.

Next time, you should pull her in by the hip and just chat slowly in very close proximity to her.

 

[Mindgamez]

Yeah Norwegian. I must stop being afraid of going more direct. We are kind of friends and we know each other since last year, so I don't know if going too direct would be bad. I mean, I did the very direct approach on Mel and it didn't work out! I just want to know what's best.

Today, I talked to Sophie and Mel. They are becoming good friends of mine. Sophie likes to think sexually. I like her smile when I say things a little more sexual. I didn't show any interest toward her though. We didn't go deep enough.

Lol. I think that my friend's little sister (probably 3 years younger or something) tried to pick me up. She was being so friendly, and smiling when I would do the slightest glance to her. What the hell, I didn't do anything. Anyway, I hope she doesn't like me. She's so young and not hot at all. She's friendly though.

Just listened to some old song from my iPod I used to listen during my trip to Cambodia. It reminded me the fun I had giving random smiles to random girls. That was my start. It all started in Cambodia. I don't know if you guys remember my first post on my journal. I remembered the confidence I had, the joy and excitement, the change I was experiencing. It was so new to me. As I was listening, I was transported into another world. I was living these moments again.

This HB9's warm sexy smile. Her laugh. Her eyes sparkling.
This other pretty girl's glances at me. Many of these girls.
Those girls I couldn't talk to, but with who I could communicate with non-verbally.

This time I started to really feel confident about myself.

Did I forget about this? Of course not. This trip changed my life. It was from this day forward that I started wanting to become a Don Juan. Slowly becoming better and better. It is this year, 2012, in particular that I will become truly better though. But I know that this trip was the start of everything.

It's such a nice song. No lyrics, but it means a lot to me.



I must study for mathematics. I write too much and I forget about time sometimes.

 

[Amo]

...what's the song?

 

[Mindgamez]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-yjbdX5Xtuc
I especially like 2:06.
I don't know what's so amazing about it. Probably the fact that I love metal and techno. I was listening to this the whole trip so it really got stuck in my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ShVQiPmEfA
This song is what I played the night of the 31st just before 2012. I was writing down my new years resolutions. It's so powerful to me. It means change. No lyrics again. It's a beautiful song, and it gives me energy. Love the beat.

Anyway. I always associate songs with things. So when I listen to these songs, I always remember the feelings.

 

[LearningSlowly]

Mindgamez! Your posts are so hypothetical! They're all about how you felt today, or one thing you noticed about a girl you're friends with. I wanna see some texts between you and this girl you like, or SOMETHING.

I can't say I mind the "I felt amazing today" talk, and I write that stuff too, but your sections about girls are always smaller than your sections about your own headspace!

Keep posting, but keep that in mind.

 

[Mindgamez]

Hehe you're so right I just realized that!
I like being in my head and daydreaming. I like writing about how different I feel from day to day. I realized that it doesn't really help me take action though!

So let's take action. QUICK!
It's good to dream big and I will dream big but I also have to become big, and I have to start taking action for this to become reality. And I should read less and write less, take more action.

Seeya guys. I'm gonna do some meditation. It's been a long time.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Hahahaha. Wanna see paragraph upon paragraph of random rambling? Check the first pages of my journal.

OH MY GOD. THATS SO RANDOM. The opening notes in the first song is exactly like MY FIRST SOLO I played on stage. It's even the same tempo!

LOVE the second song.

 

[Mindgamez]

Glad you like them!

Today started pretty slow. I always have these moments sometimes. Sometimes I lack a lot of confidence. This morning, I almost tried to avoid conversations. Thoughts were going through my head. I think that I was wondering if Claudia liked me or not. I'm always looking for approval... why is it only now that I notice this? Why is being accepted by others so important to me?! It's only when I start getting some smiles from girls that I become more confident and I just go for it. Then I realize that I start having a good vibe around them. And when one bad thing happens, I start questioning myself. Sometimes, I interpret it as bad, when nothing really happened. WHY the hell... Sometimes it's just a disgusted look because of what I said, and I immediately start loosing my cool.

It's just like a domino effect. When I feel good, I can feel very confident. But when I feel bad, it just feeds upon itself and becomes worse. I'm tired of this rollercoaster going up and down.

Anyway. This day ended up pretty good. I love physics classes, because I can talk to Mel and Sophie. We took pictures with Mel's laptop. I'm being more and more comfortable touching them. I can wrap my arms around them sometimes, touch their arms or their hair. That's good. They find me funny and that's great too.

I was feeling more confident after this. After class, I met Claudia at her locker. She was putting stuff in her bag, then I said Heey! Then I slid my hand on her back and her hair. It wasn't very sensual, it was more to tease and play with her. She laughed. Then I told her in some rapist voice : Hey, tonight you come at my house and we do the video! She knew it was about porn, because I teased her a lot about it before. She took 2 steps back playfully. She had a veeeery subtle smile. I didn't know what to do. I pretended to be in a hurry so I just left after I laughed a little. It was going good, I don't know why I left.

After I got friendlier with Sophie, I just thought about it. It's easy to become friends with girls, and there's no big deal. You just talk about what you feel like talking and they'll be open. I could become friends with their friends. I could make friends of friends. That could be great. I have to start having a better social life. I always hang out with the same guy buddies all the time. The routine always stays the same EVERY day, every lunch time. We eat, then we either stay at the cafeteria and talk, or play flash games, or go outside play football. I rarely spend my lunchtime with girls. I should go eat with Sophie one time and meet her friends (I already know them, they just aren't my friends yet). Or eat with Claudia and the other buddies.

I don't know if I'll be friendzoned or not for doing this. I'll try not to, and if I do well, it's good to have more friends! I must get used to talk to girls.

 

[Mindgamez]

February 2nd
(I'll start writing the date of the day from now on)

Exams and homeworks affect my game. But school comes first, always.
I studied a lot yesterday and today during lunchtime and before class. I didn't talk much to girls. Also, the physics exam made me more stressed and I was too focused to talk to others much.

Saturday, I'll do my approaches with Casta! My goal is to get a number. If I don't, I must try at least 5 approaches, or more. Hope I'll do good.

I think that I'll try to write and read less. I have things to do in my life and I have to take action rather than think and think. Auditions for talent show is coming soon. I will practise the piano, the electric keyboard, I will study, and I will edit my next drama film and post it on Youtube as soon as possible. I get too much into pick up sometimes, and I forget about the rest.

Seeya guys! Stop writing and do things! Unless really good things happen

 

[Amo]

Stop writing and do things!

Ah good! I was just about to complain about you thinking too much!

But really, you think too much.

Physical activity needs to become a huge part of your life. At least three times a week, you should be doing SOMETHING physical, not including PE. Sports, lifting, running, gymnastics, anything and everything.

 

[Jack Wealthy]

Ah good! I was just about to complain about you thinking too much!

But really, you think too much.

Physical activity needs to become a huge part of your life. At least three times a week, you should be doing SOMETHING physical, not including PE. Sports, lifting, running, gymnastics, masturbating to my advice, anything and everything.

Fixed.

 

[Mindgamez]

Jack... lol wtf XD.

February 3rd

I chatted with Norwegian yesterday. I thought about it and it would be a good idea to do no MB. I fought hard this morning to stop the urge, and I'm proud that I didn't mb. I'm at day 2. woooh.

So yeah, today I went to the café and me and my friends studied a lot for the upcoming exam next week. Next week I have 6 exams... and then, I'll go snowboarding Thursday and Friday with school.
One of my friend wanted to study mathematics tomorrow, but I said no because I wanted to go pick up tomorrow. He said that he would like to see me and follow us (without doing pick up) so he can laugh at me. I knew he was joking, but still, he's so AFC and it kind of pisses me off. I'll go without him.
When I left to go home after the studying, I encountered Ariane and another random girl I didn't know. She was Ariane's friend. They are both ugly chicks, but whatever. Random girl was blushing when I first introduced myself. She looked nervous too. I did some good conversations with them and I was friendly. This random girl knew my full name, so she stalked me... I think it's because Ariane has some attraction towards me, and she probably told her or something. I joked and said my name was Robert and that was funny. I didn't flirt with them. I started analysing the surroundings around me to make funny comments. I should practice doing this and starting conversations on anything, anywhere, so I always know what to say. Before leaving, she asked me what bus I would take to go home (she asked me twice), and I don't know, I felt like she was trying to get me.

Bad news... tomorrow I won't go do my approaches, because I'm going to the funerals of Casta's cousin. He's not so related to him, so it doesn't affect him much, but his father is. Casta and us are motivated, and we will do week 2 and 3 in one week, all on next week. We'll do some Wednesday after break dance class, and Saturday we'll do more. The intensity will be higher and it we will have to be persistent. That's great. This is what men do. They are persistent and they go for what they really want in life!

Most of my friends don't want to go to the snowpark, so I'll have to get other buddies to go. Yeah, I'll do that. Maybe make some new friends during those 2 days. Too bad we can't go to the girls' room during the trip(obviously... the teachers won't let us go). It is still a great opportunity to socialize with people and have fun. Can't wait!

Gotta get some sleep so I can study tomorrow for my exams. I'm finding the motivation to study since today and I'm doing more than usual. The trick is to just like what you do, and just do it and make no excuses.

Seeya guys! Next week at school, I must do something about Claudia, or Sophie, or even both. And what about Mel? Hehe, let's neg her! She deserves it haha! I'm playful of course, I'm not being mean I think... And yeah, let's make good girl friends.

 

[Nino-Tk]

I know what it feels like to have AFC friends who don't believe in one trying to improve their lives in the dating arena, just ignore the bugger haha, next thing you know, He will be the one asking you for advice when he sees you ballin' with the women. And since you are going with him, he is there to laugh at you, so just make that you don't let his state affect yours yeah, be your own motivational coach.

 

[ohbe]

It seems like you do a whole bunch of thinking and very little acting throughout your journal.

 

[Mindgamez]

It seems like you do a whole bunch of thinking and very little acting throughout your journal.

I have to agree with this...
I'm working on this.

 

[Mindgamez]

February 4th

I know what's wrong.
I stopped doing meditation. I will stop talking about doing it and I'll just do it. I'm getting lazy these days. I didn't exercise in a veerry long time. Maybe a week or so. This is pretty bad! Oh, and I gotta study more. Loafing and not doing anything productive doesn't help improve my life at all.

I noticed another problem. I'm addicted to facebook! It's always the first place I go to when I open my iPod or computer. I think I'll just stop for a couple days or so. It will help me for sure.

Let's do this.

 

[DanZy]

Yea a lack of meditation isn't the problem. A lack of taking action is.