cloneofstenyhoyer
Don Juan
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and I'm sure many on this forum were as well. I remember tonguing girls down in 1st grade at my birthday party. I was a pimp on top of the world. I use to tease girls and get them to be my girlfriends - easy as pie. Then - social conditioning happened. But how did this this happen. What conditioned me to be anti-social? to be scared of women? to second guess myself? to give too much significance to my interactions with women?
was it the media? school?
I don't know. Maybe someone on here does.
I do have some success with women (I've slept with over 10) - I've had 3 relationships lasting over two years - but I still run into anxiety around women. I still often times 'not knowing what to do' or find myself being needy or even arrogant (since I know I've had success in the past). I alternate sometimes between a 'what will she think of me' ego state and a 'I've had success in the past with women' ego. both are traps. especially the latter because it is harder to see as a problem. I get this 'cooler than everyone else, too cool to talk to anyone' type ego thing going on - and this is harder to break than afc habits.
how do I balance and become how I was as a 5 year old boy?
was it the media? school?
I don't know. Maybe someone on here does.
I do have some success with women (I've slept with over 10) - I've had 3 relationships lasting over two years - but I still run into anxiety around women. I still often times 'not knowing what to do' or find myself being needy or even arrogant (since I know I've had success in the past). I alternate sometimes between a 'what will she think of me' ego state and a 'I've had success in the past with women' ego. both are traps. especially the latter because it is harder to see as a problem. I get this 'cooler than everyone else, too cool to talk to anyone' type ego thing going on - and this is harder to break than afc habits.
how do I balance and become how I was as a 5 year old boy?
