how to wash myself?

[espanish]

when i am talking to a girl i keep thinking "how would this guy react?" and that messes me up
"this guy" could be anyone, could be my friend, or some guy I saw on youtube picking up girls years ago (haven't watched any videos in years because of this exact problem). you know, it's interesting that you say that because years ago I heard fake wrestlers are not allowed to watch each other's matches because they will automatically start imitating each other and not be genuine.

I feel like I need to wash myself of all that garbage so I can act like myself. how can I do that? or is that not even the right question to ask?

 

[BackInTheGame78]

Why would you ever wonder how someone else would react? You are being fake and the women see through it.

 

[espanish]

Why would you ever wonder how someone else would react? You are being fake and the women see through it.

because I don't trust myself to not mess things up.

 

[BackInTheGame78]

because I don't trust myself to not mess things up.

And of course by doing so, you usually do anyway

 

[BillyPilgrim]

Don't forget to lick your @sshole. Watch animals.

 

[xplt]

Take a break from the internet and the manosphere.
Take care of yourself (Gym, work, hobbies, goals...) to develope more confidence and take your focus away from women.
See how your confidence is growing, when you see results and your head is free from BS.
The rest will fall into place. Pretty cliche, right. But works damn well.

Seems like you already know your problem and the solution.