Yeah, there must be some reservations towards that idea which is why I wrote a thread like this rather than just send an email. I think there are way more draft emails, threads, posts, or journal entries written about her while actual communication with her is just one isolated email 4 years after the break-up and a forwarded video from youtube within the same 2016 year. It comes to point as to whether the cure is worst than the disease.
Why is there a reservation you might ask? I'm afraid of "something" warping up my mind if I send an email to this particular ex. It happened the last time I sent an email. I end up looking at allot of music videos afterwards and going in some La La land high. (The music video "Under your Spell" from Candi and the Backbeat, was played over 10-20 times and it was a bad occultic music video that I would not watch with a 10-foot pole, also some other music videos from that time.). This is more of a self-effect than a real result. It is like it wakes up something and I'm not myself anymore.
As far as this community, I have to guage how many posts or threads are being made about this ex, and if it would just be more efficient to just send an email, and even if she doesn't reply, or there is a crazy self-effect like the last time. At the end of the day, I go on with the course of the day whether or not an email is sent. Maybe at worst some chemicals are released in the brain and there is a dopamine high or something, and there is really no best outcome since she lives in a different country in the other end of the Earth (New Zealand).