lastmanstanding I'm 33 she's my 2nd LTR and I've pretty much have short term relationships from one night stands to about a month, I think I'm good looking and I've been told by a lot of women and girls as I was growing up that I'm gorgeous. I'm not big I'm tall and lanking but I'm in shape because I used to be a boxer and take jujitsu. as far as Carmen not being worth it, maybe, but I, as a man have a high sex drive and Carmen used to be a stripper, not only did she fall for me, I had nothing, like I said I ride a bicycle I still live with my parents, before Carmen I had no credit, my room was a pig style and I worked part time. She excepted me for who I was and spent thousands on me and all I had to offer her was me and my time. I was AFC when I was young and that's why even if I was handsome I would be bad with the girls. alot would be attracted to me but they tell my friends that I'm too slow. As I was working at this hotdog stand I met this valet guy named Joe he had nothing was dirt poor but he was total Don Juan. Joe also rode a bicycle to work and told me he lived in the woods and his toliet was a bucket, but man would I see him with fine as b*tches meeting him at work. He would come to the stand to beg for lunch and kick it with me and talk story he was also a musician, he was top notch at rapping and beat boxing he was 22 years old pretty handsome, and full of love for anybody. We would kick it and watch all the honeys pass by and he would beat box joke around and nothing would piss him of and he taught me about kino, not purposely, but he would give me a hug when I feed him left over food and just sit close and invade my private space and rub up against me like it was something natural. I know it's starting to sound gay but it's not. He was just comfortable with his fellow human beings and knew how to love and the love he showed me was brotherly love but he had girls as lovers. He also taught me about eye contact and just gazing into someones eye and getting really close with a smile on your face cause before he would hug me he'd do that. Look, I'm straight as an arrow and it's against my religion to do homo **** but the things this guy did started making me attracted (lol) although again I would never turn or do gay stuff and it hit me, I knew why a lot of girls liked him. So to make a long story short before I found this site, I imitated Joe and his attitude in order to get Carmen and the other girls before her and it works like a charm then I came upon this site and it validated everything Joe did, the way he acted and was. The point is, I had my fair share of women, I have 2 kids the girl is 12 and the boy is 13 I'm not with the mom because I was AFC and now I know why I lost the mom after 7 years, I have learned alot through this site and experiences with real life Don Juans like Joe and I used to be in a gang when in high school so yeah my other friends were also natural DJs but they did the techniques subconciously I guess they were "sexy jerks" and "bad boys" that girls fell in love with. Carmen was a prize not only is she a manager at Ross's (she makes way more than I do) she also was the best sex I ever had all the nasty stuff you see in porn she would do to please me if I wanted, infact we made a lot of porn hence she's porn material. Also outside of bed she was very loving and thought of me like buying me clothes, food, this computer etc. and in return i couldn't keep up with my income I couldn't afford to buy her nothing but Mcdonalds. So it's hard to think she's not worth it and that she's the one losing me. Again I'm a man with a high sex drive and she having been a stripper knows how to please me the way I like, she could easily be in a Buttman video, and that's why I'm trying to get my ex back.
