and i feel more depressed than ever. im not excited or happy or anything right now. to top it off, me and my best friend have been having like a weird rough patch kinda thing right now and i really wanted her to come to my party but she isnt. she said her parents arent letting her, but shes not 13 anymore and i dont beleive that really. i think i just give up on our friendship if she doesnt come tonight. i feel like an idiot trying to fix things when she doesnt give a **** at all. i didnt even want a present from her or anything, all i wanted was to spend my birthday with the person i care the most about. well happy ****ing birthday i guess.