CerwinVegaFan said:
Broke the NoFap challenge.
Got drunk like hell yesterday.
I created a FB account in order to get updates from the university I'm going to.
Lost to the temptation to visit her FB. Seems like she munches hard on those carbs as she gained weight and doesn't seem happy at all at her pictures, I would've been embarrassed to be seen "In a relationship" with her.
She also started wearing this red string around her arm:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_string_(Kabbalah)
LOL no amount of red strings can save her after what she's done. Stupid wh0re.
In a way it made me feel bad, not a-month-ago-intestines-ripping-from-the-inside bad but rather "you'll be sorry" bad; On the other hand, it gave me a huge motivation boost.
Whatever, I blocked her so I won't be able to view her profile, and her tiny-****ed Ars (
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ars_(slang)) looking boyfriend.
FVCK. I sound like a ****ing wimp.
Gotta get my **** together, do something productive.
I'm joining the Salsa club in my city!
The problem is that she's is your entire thought process. Mad, sad, heartbroken, etc you still think on her. I would be more productive, BUT it needs to be something that will better you, like college or a career. You need a boost because you sound a lot like me.
You were too invested in this girl and you made her your world. When she broke it off with you, you lost a piece of yourself and it seems to you that she never really though of you at all, then she proceeded to play games.
The best thing to do is attempt to stop thinking about her. Her mentality will only get her so much and she will continue to play other guys, because she's a gamer. Think about it, most of your women, if they want sex from someone, they can get it effortlessly. However to get something meaningful, they have to put an effort in to be with someone to make the relationship work.
To me from what you've said in here, she sounds like a little girl, who wants to be single and you wanted an adult relationship, cramped her "style" and she wants to screw around to see what's out there and have her "freedom" because you "jailed" her with the relationship. She's a ho, forget about her.
Sure you can hate her for what she did, but you can also thank her as well for setting you free because in the end, you will prosper, and she will just be another ho that many men to stick it to and will be more toxic, figuratively and physically. YOU DODGED A HUGE BULLET
Your new life has already started, the ending of that life depends on you.
Me personally? I was mad like you, stalked her Facebook, read too much into things.
But then I started seeing things for what they really are, started seeing the me that I visioned. Made myself productive, got raises in my career with nice experience, lifted out, etc. I have no problem with getting a woman now, and now I'm having fun whereas before, when with the ex, I had to worry about certain things and so many issues she had and be a total mess.
Now women want to ask ME out in dates. Hell, tonight after my job, I'm going on one. Then on Saturday, one woman who has been talking to me on the phone, wants me to come over her place and spend the night.
Gals and guys. DO NOT WORRY OR THINK ABOUT THESE TOXIC PEOPLE WHO ARE YOUR EXS. If they are meant for you, it will eventually happen again. Until that point, they are dead. Treat them as such, and move on.
Soon enough, things will fall into place as they should. Life and karma tend to handle things over time.
"Give them nothing, but take from them, everything"