You're bargaining. I know it's powerful, have dated a few of them. You need to love yourself and stop trying to win, it's a rigged game anyway. Likely you do not love yourself enough right now, a symptom of before/during/after Cluster B relationships.I haven't blocked her after the break-up if I do it now, will it show that I'm butthurt? or am i just bargaining?
This drug is very powerful.
She could just as easily perceive you as a chump for remaining friends after she devalued you and treated you poorly, in fact my NPD ex told me she did.