I think most guys here are absolutely right about seeking professional help. But mind you, nobody on this planet will hold your hand and stand by you 24/7. And I ve seen a few friends who went to rehab ,came back and started drinking even worse than before. Personally I have a love- hate- hate relationship with alcohol. Some personal opinions.
-you need less then you think: I ve once read when you are with a woman you should drink 2 , maybe 3 max. Anything more might damage the interaction. You'll go from funny drunk to just uncontrollably drunk real fast.
- acknowledge the alcoholic side of your self:its actually pointless to deny this side of yourself. It would be great if you could find peace with this side of you. It's there, 3/4 of the world drinks (maybe it's as old as humanity).
- quick inner search to why you drink: I ve find out I am drinking mostly to cope with stress depression ect. Once this became clear at least I had a reason. Didnt solve the issue completely, but at least when sober I was able to process thoughts and feelings on a conscious level(instead of sub conscious).
- to add to the first point; being sober between drunk people can be like the king with one eye amongst blind people. By staying sober but still going out you might actually be the sharpest tool in the box, bit its highly risky for somebody with alcoholic tendencies.
-Get your tolerance back to a more acceptable level: when I dont drink for a longer period , I can have two 330 cl cans of beer and feel dizzy. When the tolerance disappears, I need all kinds off thing like weed and worse to "feel something ".
- alcohol destroys you. Being 35 and drinking this much, will deteriorate your mind and soul. You'll gain weight, get ugly and damage your brains. Treat alcohol like hard drugs: you can take it but know there is a consequence.
