What I actually need is to just not have this in my life, as I've mentioned all this brings to me is an extreme sense of frustration. This isn't good for my mental health and to be honest I think I'm just going to throw in the towel for now. I'm just going to focus on my courses for school, hang out with my friends, continue training/working out and keep making money.@sangheilios I sense your frustration. It’s beyond evident. Sometimes people have to hit the wall so to speak before they breakthrough it.
Know that I understand your frustration. I hear it loud and clear. Those who wish to help you feel frustrated too!
Only you can do the next step! Homework...
I guarantee you there is a whole world of possibilities, on the other side of the wall.
I've intuitively always felt I was meant to be alone for life, I was aware of this at the age of 13.