My main plate was acting quite weird the past 2 days... I was wondering what was up but left it alone like she's probably just wanting more attention or something.. but then this morning she didn't come through for some morning fun. I was honestly shocked so then I checked her instagram story to see what she might be up to but she didn't post anything. She usually always posts some sh.t around that time. So I drive up to her place because I felt super weird the past few days..
I pull up, and see some black dude coming down her stairs leaving her apartment building. Now, I know she dosen't have a black neighbor and theres only 2 apratments in her building. (Its an apartment over a bakery). I didn't think too much of it but i waited a bit before calling her to just be chilll about it.. because I felt like "yo man im acting crazy over this bih" .. The guy ends up going to his car and im thinking oh he's delivr because he had one of those Uber/Lyfe symbols on the back of his car. I'm like phew.. but still like concerned..
Next thing you know, this guy hops back out his car.. goes back to the building.
I'm like oh okay thats kinda weird.. So I follow him 5-10 seconds after he gets in. I wait at the bottom for a bit. I hear the door open and close no sound or no verbal. I go up and I couldn't tell what apartment he went into.. But about 1-2 minutes later i hear the sound of some tv turn on and talking. I creep past her apartment to hear the other apartment door. At this point my heart was kinda beating.. There was alot of talking coming and loud tv noise and some other background noise. I couldn't make sene of it.. I looked at my phone thinknig about calling her, about to walk back down the stairs.. and as I pass back by her door, I hear her getting f-ed. I immediately open the door which was completely unlocked, and this black dude is f-ing her on her couch butt ass naked , dude telling her "say my name b,itch" "say my name" and shes yelling his name
Bro, the moment I rushed in there, they didn't evn notice me at first. I yell out "Yo what the fu.ck" this dude says "oh ****". pushes her off the sofa , shes on the gorund with the "I Just seen the devil" face.. Dude tries to confront me like "who the f- are you?" I'm like "dont worry about it. shes a hoe, u can have her dude". and immediately told her "thast why i f-cked your friends stupid bi.tch i knew i couldnt trust your hoe ass" .. and I was about to leave.. walked out. then came back in and dudes putting on his boxers and I just asked him "yo man how long have you known this *****?" . He said "bro i just met her last week, I can show you the texts" "she told me she was single" .. thats when the **** hit me so hard.. that I have absolutely no strings with this girl. and yet i'm over at her place, freaking out about her - banging this dude..
I start laughing a bit (i think my brain was trying to process how stupid I was for doing all this) ,m eanwhile she was dead silent like a str8 guilty bi.tch, and dude is lookin kidna shook for a sec.
and tell dude "bro... my fault dude.. listen, this isn't even my girl. we got no strings attached. i just been f-ing her for the past few months" "You good bro.. do you" Dude was like "3 months?" "***** you been seeing him 3 months?" she starts crying all crazy.. and yells GET THE FU.CK OUT BOTH OF YOU..
He tries saying some **** and she just keeps yelling to leave. He say someting like "you a fake ass IG model stupid bit.ch! and your ***** wack!" and at this point I wasn't even mad at him.. I tell him man do you bro i dont even care if you fuc. with her. hes like "nah im done.." Dude looked super pissed, when he was walking toward me to get out, I swear i thought hew as about to deck me but he just walked past. We both walk out as shes yelling that shes gonna call the cops.. we walk out, she slams the door. he shows me texts by her saying she loves him, and that she never felt that way about anyone before.. how she's been single for a while and her last boyfriend treated her like sh.t ..
I look at certain days that she texted him stuff or excuses, and i told him those days i was with her and sh.t and you can see the hurt on his face.
After talking to him over a cigarette he wanted to know more and ****. I took him back to my place.. and showed him all the **** of hers I have here. He grabs this box (Not sure waht it was, some makeup **** with colorful squares and a glass top ) eye powder? hes like "I bought her this ****. i bought her all of ths. shi.t"
After talking to dude.. I realized she played the s.hit out of him. and started to feel guilty, we took some shots . He had to go back to work but he called off and we spoke for like an hour or two. We tried to call her and confront her, but no avail. Dude looked like he was going through some serious ****.. Sadness, confusion, kept asking himself questions like as if he was trying to believe this was all fake and that she really liked him.
Something occurred to me later after he left.. She would tell me she was going to work out sometimes and I think she meant "get workedout by this black dude". I remember thinking it was weird the way she would say it.
Not only that, I finally understood WHY her friend while knowing she was seeing me, slept with me. I think she knew about the black dude and the whole thing. Her friend literally told me "I could treat you so much better than her" but I took it to be in a sexual way. Maybe that was just random but idk.
At the end of the day, I'm kinda hurt.. NGL. It's safe to say that even if you try your best not to catch feelings, go around f-ing other women on Tinder, even f- a chicks best friend.. If you're having sex with her all the time, you're going to get attached. I know that my attachment though was mostly physical and not healthy because , when a girl gives you everything you want and need from her, its like you feel like shes your possession rather than someone you're simply f-ing.
I don't know if me treating her like a str8 object had anything to do with it or if she didn't think i was good enough in bed. I honestly can't really figure it out right now im so confused as far as emotions go. It's so weird how you can feel at the top of the mountain but some simple **** like this can make you feel so f-ed up. I hit all the tinder girls i messed with since I felt terrible and none of them responded wanting to meet up.. now that feels extra ASS. I feel like I was on a high horse, boasting about doing so well and it bit me in the ass.
Truly, I know she wasn't worth it. I knew it from the beginning.. Thats why I did my own thing and stayed true to some player ways. I felt like I did everything 100% right yet I still feel hurt. Oh well, we live and learn. Those were some fun 3 months though. I'll tell you that much.
