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Master Don Juan
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It's sad to see that even though my last post is half a year ago, my journal is still on the front page of this forum. There used to be a lot more activity. Some when I joined and it kept increasing the more I participated. The age of journals, it was back then. I think it shows how content and certain content creators are the core of what increases forum participation. There is no reason for anyone to look here no more because there isn't any quality content or threads they can be invested in. Perhaps that will change?
https://soundcloud.com/mushroomizer/home-mushroomizer-remix
Because I remember how lovely it was to write. Writing down your thoughts it truly something that I believe has helped me a ton. Think back to your childhood. let's say when you were 10-13, for reference. You don't remember it that accurately, do you? With memory cues, sure, you can probably remember most of it, but just thinking back, it's all kinda faded and you rarely think much of it. Sooner or later you start forgetting the intricacies of your thoughts, how you felt, how you worked.
Think back to the past few days, weeks, and then months. You can pinpoint fairly accurately your mood, what drove you, what you did, how you thought. Now, think back maybe 6 months, maybe a year. Notice how you're losing attachment to those times and how as a consequence lose track of your path.
When writing things down and processing them, bringing them back to memory later, it can be a method to beat this autopilot. You can approach yourself quite methodically. What was I doing when I felt my life was moving forward? When I was happy? How did I achieve a flow state? How did micro and macro momentum play a role and what factored into it? This way, we can logically approach ourselves from a more objective standpoint, gain a sense of control, and begin a process of trial and error. I've always had this idea in the back of my mind, but I've never applied it fully. How I think of approaching it is with a scientific approach. A spreadsheet that rates mood per day on a scale of 1-10, and correlate that with regular journal entries that detail roughly my routine, my thoughts, and my feelings. Wouldn't be too hard.
The irony here is the very action of keeping tabs on these details, in the sense of having a routine and in the sense of paying closer attention, kickstarts the process of momentum that is our very goal. Of course a regular, structured check-in would be required, so to judge which behaviors benefit you and which do not and to change accordingly.
https://soundcloud.com/echosofficial/coda
Let's try that for myself quickly.
Which actions of mine benefit me? (gives me a sense of self-confidence, satisfaction, happiness, purpose, perhaps more):
Exercising, yoga, not procrastinating, putting effort into my work, socializing, being engaged in my community (doing different things, new things, mainly getting outside the door), conscious eating, meditate, stretch, learn novel material, listening to podcasts, discovering music, watching certain shows, reading books, keeping hydrated, cold showers, going to class, getting up in the morning, not masturbating (particularly during daytime), being appreciative. I need to feel that I am making progress towards some goal.
What affects me negatively?
Sleeping in, excessive video games or computer use, masturbation, lack of exercise, failing to leave my comfort zone, procrastinating, negative self-talk, failing to complete tasks daily, failing to plan, overindulging in instant gratification, (basically not doing things in the previous category). Mindless existence, excessive cannabis, excessive sitting, failing to be present and non-judgemental. So on.
Mainly, a contentedness with sub-optimal existence.
Further, it'd be ideal to list how each of these things affect you.
https://soundcloud.com/fauxtales/the-chainsmokers-all-we-know-faux-tales-remix
You guys seen Westworld? Sense8? Shows like these are among the things that rejuvenate my zest for life. They truly make me feel alive, to think novel and perhaps on a higher plane, and they remind me that I am not just a me, I am also a we. They remind me of all these lessons that we try to teach ourselves over here. It truly comes down to recognizing oneself and the world for how things really are. You are, you came into life and you will perish. There are no rules to your existence, it is entirely of your making, despite how much we wrestle for the possession of the remote. Realizing that being anything but you truly is cheating yourself, because when you are with others, we seek to make connections, but what is it worth if it is not authentic? Yes you can project different aspects of your personality, I feel like a different me on various days, that's natural (but also too inconsistent for my liking). However, my point lies with how you think and how you feel when interacting with others. I recognize myself. Being present, but rooted in this anxious desire to being liked by everyone. It's OK to let go of that. It is OK to simply exist and enjoy what is in front of you rather than compartmentalizing your life in efforts to further your self-interests. Firstly, this is all standard yoga-spew, enlightenment ****, hippiecraft, so adopting their principles does help with this transformation. What I want to point to is how you regularly judge yourself and others. If you can make yourself stop passing judgment, you may find that you don't feel as judged. This means less negative self-talk too. It's a powerful tool, but it is only one of many.
https://soundcloud.com/yeppe-lammerts/energy-flow
I was watching the Christmas special of Sense8 last night, accompanied by a friend and a nice spliff, and it was everything I wanted it to be and so much more. It's like falling in love, reading authentic/conscious writing, being in a flow state - It makes me feel alive, loved, connected, belonging. These spiritual ideals of civilization is within our reach and I strive to be like this myself and to seek out communities that foster these qualities. This is perhaps why I enjoy the rave scene as much as I do. Perhaps why I have such a deep interest in psychedelic substances. Piercing the veil gives me this same refreshed sense of life that drives me to be better to myself and others. My last entry is over half a year ago, which means I haven't mentioned Pretty Lights at Telluride! Seriously, check it out!
I've still got the wristband on, a reminder of what joy that was. I've never been at a place with such a nice crowd. We went up as a group of 15+ and rented a penthouse for the weekend. Made our way down the gondolas and to the concert, where this girl in our group was tripping too hard to find her ticket on her phone. I stayed behind with her and sorted it out and from there on we were interlocked for the remainder of the weekend. We were somewhere right of the camera (46:23, by the cat!). Dancing and grooving and feeling this music and mutual love to the bottom of our core. We could barely walk afterward, not of exhaustion, but because my legs felt like jelly and such a contentedness that drove us forward one slow step at a time. It was like being massaged for three hours, oh life was so good.
I live for those moments, but it is also this human desire to eternalize beauty that fools us into thinking we can be like this all the time. There will be ups and downs and the goal isn't to make those good feelings last. As far as I know, just try to recognize yourself.
I got to see Porter Robinson & Madeon's Shelter tour in Denver earlier this December. Check it!:
I recommend kicking back and watching the whole thing of course! That song blew my mind. What an amazing concert. THAT is how you de-stress.
Alongside with the rave I describe in the previous entry, I can't help but feel that they can be catalyzers for spiritual transformation, or you know, solving deep-rooted issues that may be inherent to most humans. Being in these spaces where you feel so connected, so belonging, and so loved, it's so therapeutic. Simply being THIS happy shocks me out of daily routine and reminds me that life is beautiful, I am not alone, we are not alone, and you just gotta let go, man.
Tying it together, that's what you've gotta do. Treat women like other people, because, you know, they are. If your ego is removed from the equation, suddenly it's not such a big deal to be liked and approaching women without an agenda, in so many cases, is what lets you pierce the veil, where on the other side you will find that they are, and we all are, like you. Independent of how we look, none of us asked to be brought into this world, and we are all dealing with it in our own way.
What do I ask from you and from myself? Remember that decisions are made in the present and catalyze the present moments that are to come. Treat improving yourself like you would investing: recognize what will benefit you the most and minimize risk of falling out of good habit or indulging in lesser things. While you do this, remember to live authenticly. Express yourself unapologetically and learn to be comfortable with being vulnerable, because it is through this vulnerability that you will discover life in yourself and in others.
https://soundcloud.com/mushroomizer/home-mushroomizer-remix
Because I remember how lovely it was to write. Writing down your thoughts it truly something that I believe has helped me a ton. Think back to your childhood. let's say when you were 10-13, for reference. You don't remember it that accurately, do you? With memory cues, sure, you can probably remember most of it, but just thinking back, it's all kinda faded and you rarely think much of it. Sooner or later you start forgetting the intricacies of your thoughts, how you felt, how you worked.
Think back to the past few days, weeks, and then months. You can pinpoint fairly accurately your mood, what drove you, what you did, how you thought. Now, think back maybe 6 months, maybe a year. Notice how you're losing attachment to those times and how as a consequence lose track of your path.
When writing things down and processing them, bringing them back to memory later, it can be a method to beat this autopilot. You can approach yourself quite methodically. What was I doing when I felt my life was moving forward? When I was happy? How did I achieve a flow state? How did micro and macro momentum play a role and what factored into it? This way, we can logically approach ourselves from a more objective standpoint, gain a sense of control, and begin a process of trial and error. I've always had this idea in the back of my mind, but I've never applied it fully. How I think of approaching it is with a scientific approach. A spreadsheet that rates mood per day on a scale of 1-10, and correlate that with regular journal entries that detail roughly my routine, my thoughts, and my feelings. Wouldn't be too hard.
The irony here is the very action of keeping tabs on these details, in the sense of having a routine and in the sense of paying closer attention, kickstarts the process of momentum that is our very goal. Of course a regular, structured check-in would be required, so to judge which behaviors benefit you and which do not and to change accordingly.
https://soundcloud.com/echosofficial/coda
Let's try that for myself quickly.
Which actions of mine benefit me? (gives me a sense of self-confidence, satisfaction, happiness, purpose, perhaps more):
Exercising, yoga, not procrastinating, putting effort into my work, socializing, being engaged in my community (doing different things, new things, mainly getting outside the door), conscious eating, meditate, stretch, learn novel material, listening to podcasts, discovering music, watching certain shows, reading books, keeping hydrated, cold showers, going to class, getting up in the morning, not masturbating (particularly during daytime), being appreciative. I need to feel that I am making progress towards some goal.
What affects me negatively?
Sleeping in, excessive video games or computer use, masturbation, lack of exercise, failing to leave my comfort zone, procrastinating, negative self-talk, failing to complete tasks daily, failing to plan, overindulging in instant gratification, (basically not doing things in the previous category). Mindless existence, excessive cannabis, excessive sitting, failing to be present and non-judgemental. So on.
Mainly, a contentedness with sub-optimal existence.
Further, it'd be ideal to list how each of these things affect you.
https://soundcloud.com/fauxtales/the-chainsmokers-all-we-know-faux-tales-remix
You guys seen Westworld? Sense8? Shows like these are among the things that rejuvenate my zest for life. They truly make me feel alive, to think novel and perhaps on a higher plane, and they remind me that I am not just a me, I am also a we. They remind me of all these lessons that we try to teach ourselves over here. It truly comes down to recognizing oneself and the world for how things really are. You are, you came into life and you will perish. There are no rules to your existence, it is entirely of your making, despite how much we wrestle for the possession of the remote. Realizing that being anything but you truly is cheating yourself, because when you are with others, we seek to make connections, but what is it worth if it is not authentic? Yes you can project different aspects of your personality, I feel like a different me on various days, that's natural (but also too inconsistent for my liking). However, my point lies with how you think and how you feel when interacting with others. I recognize myself. Being present, but rooted in this anxious desire to being liked by everyone. It's OK to let go of that. It is OK to simply exist and enjoy what is in front of you rather than compartmentalizing your life in efforts to further your self-interests. Firstly, this is all standard yoga-spew, enlightenment ****, hippiecraft, so adopting their principles does help with this transformation. What I want to point to is how you regularly judge yourself and others. If you can make yourself stop passing judgment, you may find that you don't feel as judged. This means less negative self-talk too. It's a powerful tool, but it is only one of many.
https://soundcloud.com/yeppe-lammerts/energy-flow
I was watching the Christmas special of Sense8 last night, accompanied by a friend and a nice spliff, and it was everything I wanted it to be and so much more. It's like falling in love, reading authentic/conscious writing, being in a flow state - It makes me feel alive, loved, connected, belonging. These spiritual ideals of civilization is within our reach and I strive to be like this myself and to seek out communities that foster these qualities. This is perhaps why I enjoy the rave scene as much as I do. Perhaps why I have such a deep interest in psychedelic substances. Piercing the veil gives me this same refreshed sense of life that drives me to be better to myself and others. My last entry is over half a year ago, which means I haven't mentioned Pretty Lights at Telluride! Seriously, check it out!
I live for those moments, but it is also this human desire to eternalize beauty that fools us into thinking we can be like this all the time. There will be ups and downs and the goal isn't to make those good feelings last. As far as I know, just try to recognize yourself.
I got to see Porter Robinson & Madeon's Shelter tour in Denver earlier this December. Check it!:
Alongside with the rave I describe in the previous entry, I can't help but feel that they can be catalyzers for spiritual transformation, or you know, solving deep-rooted issues that may be inherent to most humans. Being in these spaces where you feel so connected, so belonging, and so loved, it's so therapeutic. Simply being THIS happy shocks me out of daily routine and reminds me that life is beautiful, I am not alone, we are not alone, and you just gotta let go, man.
Tying it together, that's what you've gotta do. Treat women like other people, because, you know, they are. If your ego is removed from the equation, suddenly it's not such a big deal to be liked and approaching women without an agenda, in so many cases, is what lets you pierce the veil, where on the other side you will find that they are, and we all are, like you. Independent of how we look, none of us asked to be brought into this world, and we are all dealing with it in our own way.
What do I ask from you and from myself? Remember that decisions are made in the present and catalyze the present moments that are to come. Treat improving yourself like you would investing: recognize what will benefit you the most and minimize risk of falling out of good habit or indulging in lesser things. While you do this, remember to live authenticly. Express yourself unapologetically and learn to be comfortable with being vulnerable, because it is through this vulnerability that you will discover life in yourself and in others.