oh sorry man i didnt post a reply on this.
so i broke into it.
NOT that night, but couple after.
that night and we got all hot and heavy and i thought that was it, im gonna get it from her..
but then all i got was head.
Although, she let me put my hands in her.which was a first.
she really enjoyed it but felt extremely guilty after.
i made her feel relaxed with alot of talk after.
and fingered her again, this time she made the bed wet.
so i realized i had a squirter...which is cool.
then i tried gettin in, and she said something like
plz baby, not tonight i feel kinda guilty for going this far.
i didnt wanna push, coz i could see it in her eyes, she loved the pleasure but she was really upset.
we lay in bed cuddling and she said the L word.
and said she let me go this far because she thinks we're going to be together forever.
and i said just calm down and dont get so guilty, you're speaking like this because you're feeling guilty.
she took it as an insult and argued with me, then i calmed her down again but sternly and she then realized she could lose me if she went on like this.
i just blamed it on her guilt and fear being the cause that she's mad at me for trying to be a nice guy and please her and not even get ANYTHING i want from this..
she apologized..forgot that i didnt reply to her L word.
next day, all day, i woke up first, outta bed dressed and off to work, left a note saying i look forward to more of her and that i really enjoyed putting her to bed and waking up next to her beautiful face..
she rung me and thanked me said she wants to see me 2 days after that for a special night.
i know she called her girlfriends when she woke up and had a 2 hour convo because she rung them from my house phone.

all good.she let herself out.
2 days later as planned i came back from hong kong on a work thing and visited her.
she made dinner, candles up, rose petals everywhere and it was beautiful
i was very surprised. it actually took me back how much effort she had gone into.
we had dinner, drinking wine, and then started making out on the floor. she had one incense candle set infront of us on the floor.
i stood up, stood her up, carried her with her legs around my waist to her bedroom..and set more candles up and we go in..
and i tell you what, that WAs AMAZING!!!
and i didnt go to work the next day...
she's been at my place everyday since, its been like 3 days she's been staying over at mine and EVERYDAY she wants it..i have to say, she's pretty good coz she listens to what i want and does exactly the way i ask her to do it..
only one problem..
she keeps saying the L word..and i have said it back, I KNOW...I SHOULDNT but i did.because i felt guilty..
also, i havent spoken to my other plates in the last 3 days or so. i do get texts from them i just havent been able to reply.