Johnny Alias
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So... Wow.
Just got the news my ex BPD gf of 4 years is getting married...
I won't lie I've been very broken up about her. She moved in with him 6 months ago right after we broke up. The first 3 were agony with my best friend also dying.
So they've been together 6 months... Still the honeymoon phase really especially in terms of an alcoholic junkie borderline...
I'm 38. She's 43 with rapidly fading looks. Used to be a knockout but now she's got the white wine belly, ever expanding ass, grayig hair, wrinkles.
I didn't want this... She's a train wreck. Pill popper, mean drunk, no job, debt, rage... After 4 years and 3 recycles I was done.
And now she's getting married... In the time we've been apart steroid boys been in a bar fight and arrested, she's raged at many of her oldest friends and they're leaving her, she's been hospitalized twice due to drugs/alcohol...
Sounds like a winner right???
In our last face to face she bragged about how much money he has... And before that we had a fight with her saying "I was raised traditionally. I think a man should pay for everything!" This after I insist she do SOMETHING with her day besides sleep.
I know in a few years had we gotten married she and I would get divorced and id lose everything... Especially my time... Which isn't good. I do want a kid.
The stupid thought of white picket fences clouded my thinking and I withstood loads of abuse...
I understand that BPD, alcoholism, and conflict oriented people destroy relationships all on their own... And that this will end. I shouldn't care but I do. I want it to fail. I want her to abuse the fvck out of him like she did me.
Jesus what a morning... Good thing I banged last night. Woof.
Thanks for listening...
Just got the news my ex BPD gf of 4 years is getting married...
I won't lie I've been very broken up about her. She moved in with him 6 months ago right after we broke up. The first 3 were agony with my best friend also dying.
So they've been together 6 months... Still the honeymoon phase really especially in terms of an alcoholic junkie borderline...
I'm 38. She's 43 with rapidly fading looks. Used to be a knockout but now she's got the white wine belly, ever expanding ass, grayig hair, wrinkles.
I didn't want this... She's a train wreck. Pill popper, mean drunk, no job, debt, rage... After 4 years and 3 recycles I was done.
And now she's getting married... In the time we've been apart steroid boys been in a bar fight and arrested, she's raged at many of her oldest friends and they're leaving her, she's been hospitalized twice due to drugs/alcohol...
Sounds like a winner right???
In our last face to face she bragged about how much money he has... And before that we had a fight with her saying "I was raised traditionally. I think a man should pay for everything!" This after I insist she do SOMETHING with her day besides sleep.
I know in a few years had we gotten married she and I would get divorced and id lose everything... Especially my time... Which isn't good. I do want a kid.
The stupid thought of white picket fences clouded my thinking and I withstood loads of abuse...
I understand that BPD, alcoholism, and conflict oriented people destroy relationships all on their own... And that this will end. I shouldn't care but I do. I want it to fail. I want her to abuse the fvck out of him like she did me.
Jesus what a morning... Good thing I banged last night. Woof.
Thanks for listening...
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