I fully agree with you and acknowledge my inexperience with Women.The only reason why this is all so exciting for you is because you're so highly inexperienced with women. If some married 40 year old with 3 children from another country wanted to be with me, I'd tell her to fvck off. I've been with younger, more attractive, childless, local women many times over, so why would I want someone else's used up garbage?
This affair is only temporary. It will not work out in the long term. You're just a new interest on her high score list. There are many other men who are more interesting and of higher importance in her life, and that includes her (ex)husband.
My situation is quite difficult and most probably most of all due to the distance that separates us, which not only slows down the relationship but also includes big amounts of costs in order for us to be physically together.
I however cannot agree with you calling a 40yo used up garbage. Not being biased but in general, 40yo can sometimes turn out way better than some young teens and by this I mean physically and of course by the maturity.
I am most certainly not her 1st bf, and She isn't my 1st gf either. But She popped up in my life at a time where I was already asking myself a list of questions regarding my future. I need to be happy and I took a huge risk to see if this kind of relationship would work...up to now I haven't seen any reason for it not to. If it doesn't, it doesn't. I know that my current relationship here in France is unfortunately over....so either I stay in it unhappy, I become single not knowing what's next or I pursue this story and make the most if it..