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well, i went down to the campus police today, and they were somewhat understanding.
i had to answer some questions. fact is, they had recorded my initial phone conversation, and everything that i've said is already on tape...i asked them how can they do that without my consent, and they said atleast one party involved must know it's being recorded...well, duh, the officer himself knows he's recording me.
anyway, for the most part, i felt like the officers, though one was pretty cooperative, the others were trying to get me to confess to the crime...just the way they asked the questions was really tricky to not say the wrong thing.
i got a charge for vandalizing school property and will have to go to court for that.
i was telling them about how the dept. should be more careful about this...atleast forewarn students. i mean, my parents have been trying to convince my sister, a genius btw who is considering harvard, yale, and some other top schools who will probably get a full-paid scholarship if she applied to my school, to stay here and go here...in a way, i don't want to tell her, because it would turn her away from going here on a fully-paid scholarship, but at the same time, i'm afraid of something like that happening to my sister much younger, could have more affect on her than it did on me...or what if something worse happens.
i know, i know, i handled it wrongly, and i feel sorry for the way i handled it, but you probably wouldn't believe this: the officers told me that for a while, there was a website online that advertised this specific building as a place for homosexuals to meet, in the bathrooms particularly. he said it's a well-known fact! if it's so well-known, how come i didn't know about it? the least they could do is have the professors send a warning email to their students, atleast to make us aware of the situation.
heck, i've probably mentioned this before, but when i initially reported this to the officer...he was like "oh did it happen at (name) building? yeah, that building is known for that..." and he pretty much laughed it off.
i'm not trying to make myself out as the victim again, because i've thought it through and realize i was wrong...i just have to play it that way so i don't face that many criminal charges when talking with the campus police.
lastly, i have to say i learned a lot from this experience. for one, i am way too honest. i literally committed a crime and turned myself in within minutes. then i go and tell everyone online. of course, initially i thought i was a good samaritan from preventing a sexual predator from affecting others...and had acted out of fear, but i was seriously very stupid by disclosing all that information. what's said is said, and the campus police have me on tape, you guys have the details here too, unfortunately.
i could have not said anything to anyone and just gotten on with life, but i thought it was the right thing to do...but now i feel bad.
so, i learned not to be too honest. i of course learned that the way i handled the situation was wrong and the guy could have really not known what he was doing was wrong. and lastly, as unfortunate as it is, i will be reluctant to ever go to the police again about anything. maybe, if it is a real big deal, i will. but i pretty much ratted on myself. i have some freaking anger management issues and i am going to seek some help soon.
i've already "confessed" to everything over a phone conversation that they didn't tell me was being recorded at the time. i can't change my story unless i can claim i have some mental disorders myself.
thanks for the advice, options that i could consider. i have been talking to a lawyer. praying is definitely an option too. i think the reason i really need the lawyer is because what if this guy does show up? i know the chances are slim to none, but when i had a spontaneous lung collapse 2 times last year, they told me it only happens to 1 out of every 100,000 males. so i already know either God or some guy up there doesn't like me very much. if this guy does come back, they already have my confession. and that's seriously scary.
because, honestly, the door vandalism part shouldn't be tough to get cleared. i know i'll have to pay for it, but i'll talk to the DA so it won't go to court.
btw, Mind i cleaned my inbox.
i had to answer some questions. fact is, they had recorded my initial phone conversation, and everything that i've said is already on tape...i asked them how can they do that without my consent, and they said atleast one party involved must know it's being recorded...well, duh, the officer himself knows he's recording me.
anyway, for the most part, i felt like the officers, though one was pretty cooperative, the others were trying to get me to confess to the crime...just the way they asked the questions was really tricky to not say the wrong thing.
i got a charge for vandalizing school property and will have to go to court for that.
i was telling them about how the dept. should be more careful about this...atleast forewarn students. i mean, my parents have been trying to convince my sister, a genius btw who is considering harvard, yale, and some other top schools who will probably get a full-paid scholarship if she applied to my school, to stay here and go here...in a way, i don't want to tell her, because it would turn her away from going here on a fully-paid scholarship, but at the same time, i'm afraid of something like that happening to my sister much younger, could have more affect on her than it did on me...or what if something worse happens.
i know, i know, i handled it wrongly, and i feel sorry for the way i handled it, but you probably wouldn't believe this: the officers told me that for a while, there was a website online that advertised this specific building as a place for homosexuals to meet, in the bathrooms particularly. he said it's a well-known fact! if it's so well-known, how come i didn't know about it? the least they could do is have the professors send a warning email to their students, atleast to make us aware of the situation.
heck, i've probably mentioned this before, but when i initially reported this to the officer...he was like "oh did it happen at (name) building? yeah, that building is known for that..." and he pretty much laughed it off.
i'm not trying to make myself out as the victim again, because i've thought it through and realize i was wrong...i just have to play it that way so i don't face that many criminal charges when talking with the campus police.
lastly, i have to say i learned a lot from this experience. for one, i am way too honest. i literally committed a crime and turned myself in within minutes. then i go and tell everyone online. of course, initially i thought i was a good samaritan from preventing a sexual predator from affecting others...and had acted out of fear, but i was seriously very stupid by disclosing all that information. what's said is said, and the campus police have me on tape, you guys have the details here too, unfortunately.
i could have not said anything to anyone and just gotten on with life, but i thought it was the right thing to do...but now i feel bad.
so, i learned not to be too honest. i of course learned that the way i handled the situation was wrong and the guy could have really not known what he was doing was wrong. and lastly, as unfortunate as it is, i will be reluctant to ever go to the police again about anything. maybe, if it is a real big deal, i will. but i pretty much ratted on myself. i have some freaking anger management issues and i am going to seek some help soon.
i've already "confessed" to everything over a phone conversation that they didn't tell me was being recorded at the time. i can't change my story unless i can claim i have some mental disorders myself.
thanks for the advice, options that i could consider. i have been talking to a lawyer. praying is definitely an option too. i think the reason i really need the lawyer is because what if this guy does show up? i know the chances are slim to none, but when i had a spontaneous lung collapse 2 times last year, they told me it only happens to 1 out of every 100,000 males. so i already know either God or some guy up there doesn't like me very much. if this guy does come back, they already have my confession. and that's seriously scary.
because, honestly, the door vandalism part shouldn't be tough to get cleared. i know i'll have to pay for it, but i'll talk to the DA so it won't go to court.
btw, Mind i cleaned my inbox.
