I tried to resist replying to this but... I feel strongly about it.
Objectively, OP, your entire assertion is pure trash and an affront to any man who takes responsibility to overcome adversity in his life. It's so easily, provably wrong, that I'm not even going to provide any evidence to refute your claim.
Subjectively, you are depressed and that is skewing your perception of reality. You have my sympathy, and I genuinely wish you a full recovery.
Once you start thinking more clearly, you will see how truly blessed you are. All else being equal, you are in the top fraction of a percent of humans on this earth in terms of prosperity, opportunity and abundance.
You have to be willing to take responsibility for your mental health.