I think that I may have to clear a few things up. When I first met her, I wasn't taken by her. I had other interests and as we talked here and there, attractive things surfaced. No pedestal here though. She doesn't occupy my thoughts 24/7, but enough that there is something there that I just can't put my finger on. As far as being invested, not at all. She is there and I am there, simple as that.
I think that what I said came out confidently and it was certainly not apologetic. if I say something, I own it. Stupid or not.
Again, knowing her situation and realizing that I has SOME interest, I tried to give her some hints of sexual interest to stay out of the friend zone, kind of in a holding pattern. For example: The girl is a hugger. She hugs everyone. Girls, guys. If she has talked to you enough times to get acquainted, you are getting a hug. So, after a few conversations, I got them too. Before you start thinking.. oh friend zone, I didn't just do the quick, get it over with microsecond thing. I gave her a tight squeeze, kept my hands on her waist, looked her straight in the eye and said "you smell delicious". The look on her face, the tone of her thank you and the lingering eye contact let me know that it had the desired effect. If we end up sitting together, (she approaches me usually) you couldn't slip a piece of paper between us. If she or I move and her leg goes against mine. There is no "oops" pull back. It stays there. Yes, these are little things and could always be misinterpreted, but there are more and as a group, I think not.
You may be asking, what is stopping you? I saw this as a timing thing and rebounds have affected me more than once. I have been on the other end as well. I'm not sure that her mind has cleared of the old relationship yet and I'm happy to let someone else take that bullet. Call it fear if you want. I call it experience. I have no idea how she will read it. I'm just going to stay steady and see if there is a change on her end and I'm pretty sure that there will be one. I'm not going to cry over spilled milk. Either the cat is going to lap it up or I'm going to step in it and I don't see any in between since I'm not going to try and clean it up. With my schedule, I don't think that I will see her for a week or more so text may be my only clue in the interim. Meanwhile, on with life.
Lots of interesting view points and I appreciate all of it.
I think that what I said came out confidently and it was certainly not apologetic. if I say something, I own it. Stupid or not.
Again, knowing her situation and realizing that I has SOME interest, I tried to give her some hints of sexual interest to stay out of the friend zone, kind of in a holding pattern. For example: The girl is a hugger. She hugs everyone. Girls, guys. If she has talked to you enough times to get acquainted, you are getting a hug. So, after a few conversations, I got them too. Before you start thinking.. oh friend zone, I didn't just do the quick, get it over with microsecond thing. I gave her a tight squeeze, kept my hands on her waist, looked her straight in the eye and said "you smell delicious". The look on her face, the tone of her thank you and the lingering eye contact let me know that it had the desired effect. If we end up sitting together, (she approaches me usually) you couldn't slip a piece of paper between us. If she or I move and her leg goes against mine. There is no "oops" pull back. It stays there. Yes, these are little things and could always be misinterpreted, but there are more and as a group, I think not.
You may be asking, what is stopping you? I saw this as a timing thing and rebounds have affected me more than once. I have been on the other end as well. I'm not sure that her mind has cleared of the old relationship yet and I'm happy to let someone else take that bullet. Call it fear if you want. I call it experience. I have no idea how she will read it. I'm just going to stay steady and see if there is a change on her end and I'm pretty sure that there will be one. I'm not going to cry over spilled milk. Either the cat is going to lap it up or I'm going to step in it and I don't see any in between since I'm not going to try and clean it up. With my schedule, I don't think that I will see her for a week or more so text may be my only clue in the interim. Meanwhile, on with life.
Lots of interesting view points and I appreciate all of it.