Baibars
Master Don Juan
Hi
I'm here for some time now, opened 2 threads. I read through the Forums, read books and all this stuff.
I know this girl for 6 years now and have/had oneitis for her. The " Real " relationship lasted for the first 1,5-2 years. After that i chased her while she fcked around. I also had Sex with her. Always chased my Drug . Now its another guys turn. She doesnt give a fck about me but we have to stay in contact for our childs. So no contact wasnt an Option.
The girl is a Rat. She fcks around and still says she will leave this guy because its just for fun and wants to give me a Chance. She talks to me like im a worthless piece of ****. Last time she offered me to be Plan b and wait until she leaves this guy. She argued that we could be a family again and all this **** because she knows me and my ideals. I answered that she should fck off and i never want to talk to her about anything but the kids.
But i accept all the advices and knowledge i gathered about my Situation. Accepted that i was a fool and invested time for a thing that wasnt worth it.
But the thing is, i invested that much in a Person and my life was her from 19 until now and then you realize everything, try to change everything. Go work on yourself, go workout, find a Hobby, stop chasing, be a better man ,be the price and so on. I want to be strong as possible the next years both physically and financially.
But the Feeling still stays. I know i've been an Idiot and i cant just change this in a short time. I feel so depressed. I wake up at 6 and i go to work. I dont like that job. I try to improve everything but i really feel sometimes like i just should commit suicide. The fact that i lost all my dignity and my whole time. The fact that my idealized Person is just the rule, a random b*ich.
i dont know. It's another thing if you have a girlfriend and she dumps you. I experienced that and it was not nearly as bad as i feel now.
do i need as much time to get over her as i spend by being with her or chasing her? That would be years then.
I just want to feel good again. I just dont want to Think about her and my mistakes. Is there anything else i can do?
My life now: going to work, workout,read books,i dont fap or watch porn, i dont even Drink,pick up my kids every second weekend,i live with my family (they Support me),i dont hang out with friends much.
I also tried to talk to some Girls but i stopped it because of my Depression.
I'm here for some time now, opened 2 threads. I read through the Forums, read books and all this stuff.
I know this girl for 6 years now and have/had oneitis for her. The " Real " relationship lasted for the first 1,5-2 years. After that i chased her while she fcked around. I also had Sex with her. Always chased my Drug . Now its another guys turn. She doesnt give a fck about me but we have to stay in contact for our childs. So no contact wasnt an Option.
The girl is a Rat. She fcks around and still says she will leave this guy because its just for fun and wants to give me a Chance. She talks to me like im a worthless piece of ****. Last time she offered me to be Plan b and wait until she leaves this guy. She argued that we could be a family again and all this **** because she knows me and my ideals. I answered that she should fck off and i never want to talk to her about anything but the kids.
But i accept all the advices and knowledge i gathered about my Situation. Accepted that i was a fool and invested time for a thing that wasnt worth it.
But the thing is, i invested that much in a Person and my life was her from 19 until now and then you realize everything, try to change everything. Go work on yourself, go workout, find a Hobby, stop chasing, be a better man ,be the price and so on. I want to be strong as possible the next years both physically and financially.
But the Feeling still stays. I know i've been an Idiot and i cant just change this in a short time. I feel so depressed. I wake up at 6 and i go to work. I dont like that job. I try to improve everything but i really feel sometimes like i just should commit suicide. The fact that i lost all my dignity and my whole time. The fact that my idealized Person is just the rule, a random b*ich.
i dont know. It's another thing if you have a girlfriend and she dumps you. I experienced that and it was not nearly as bad as i feel now.
do i need as much time to get over her as i spend by being with her or chasing her? That would be years then.
I just want to feel good again. I just dont want to Think about her and my mistakes. Is there anything else i can do?
My life now: going to work, workout,read books,i dont fap or watch porn, i dont even Drink,pick up my kids every second weekend,i live with my family (they Support me),i dont hang out with friends much.
I also tried to talk to some Girls but i stopped it because of my Depression.
