I have a bad case of oneitis right now. I literally cannot stop thinking about this one girl, even though she has no interest in me. Unless I am 100% occupied or concentrated on something, my thoughts drift to her. I wish I could just turn this sh*t off like a lightswitch. All the DJ stuff I have read during the years has not stopped this oneitis crap from creeping in! I guess like David DeAngelo says, attraction is not a choice. When you are truly attracted to someone, it's damn near impossible to control your feelings. I had decided to cut her out of my life, but I ended up at the beach with her and some other friends recently. When I saw her body in a bikini, I was just stupified, she has what I consider to perfect body. I couldn't even stand to f*cking look at her, it was damn near painful. I'm trying to remind myself that there 3 billion women out there, but it just doesn't help. Damn I'm becoming a wussbag....