Had a rough relationship with highs and lows. ok looking chinese girl, love together for 2 years, i have a bit of a substance abuse problem. she signed the lease of a new place a month before she left and didnt tell me.
When she seemed indifferent and distant more and more, stopped complaining, i began supplicating.i was started off pretty alpha. When she became distant i began to supplicate more, do little favors all the time to try and make her feel better. It felt like she stopped behaving like a girlfriend, but i kept behaving like a boyfriend.
this so slowly pushed me into a depression( Or I let it), i had asked what was wrong twice. I would get mad somtimes. I got more and more insecure, and it felt like she got more secure.
the last week she acted real sad, and cut off. We lived togther for two years. I ended up quiting my job during this time, I was so stressed didnt know what to do. she respected me a lot for like the first 1 2/3. everything went down hill fast the last 1/3. something were m fault I drank to much and smoked to much pot, i also put less money into the relationship. I promised her i would go to college so we could have a life and family.
When she left I had no friends, I was drinking a lot, i stopped about a week before she left. When she left she moved into a house with a couple other girls, so she had a social circle right away, we spent most our time togather.
I went soft, stuck in a relationship grave yard, never really got to know to many people in Cincinnati except work friends. I chased for like 2 months. She ignored me a lot, kept in touch for a bit, came over an sucked my **** once and left right away. She told me at one point on skype about a party, the next day she said she made out with some senior from notre dame. I started to drink all the time, every day, no job. I broke.
prior to the break up i was addicted to benzos, on antiderpessants. The relationship had a lot of pressure, i went to these extents, the wrong way though. I was so caught up in the relationship i lost myself.
Shes not even that good lookings, shes educated well, studies finance, nice body, but face isnt the best, its not horrible either. She was always kind of nice and polite, she used to look up to me so so so much. I went from alpha traits, to jerk, back and forth on those and eventually afc started to peak its ugly face, and it consumed.
When she seemed indifferent and distant more and more, stopped complaining, i began supplicating.i was started off pretty alpha. When she became distant i began to supplicate more, do little favors all the time to try and make her feel better. It felt like she stopped behaving like a girlfriend, but i kept behaving like a boyfriend.
this so slowly pushed me into a depression( Or I let it), i had asked what was wrong twice. I would get mad somtimes. I got more and more insecure, and it felt like she got more secure.
the last week she acted real sad, and cut off. We lived togther for two years. I ended up quiting my job during this time, I was so stressed didnt know what to do. she respected me a lot for like the first 1 2/3. everything went down hill fast the last 1/3. something were m fault I drank to much and smoked to much pot, i also put less money into the relationship. I promised her i would go to college so we could have a life and family.
When she left I had no friends, I was drinking a lot, i stopped about a week before she left. When she left she moved into a house with a couple other girls, so she had a social circle right away, we spent most our time togather.
I went soft, stuck in a relationship grave yard, never really got to know to many people in Cincinnati except work friends. I chased for like 2 months. She ignored me a lot, kept in touch for a bit, came over an sucked my **** once and left right away. She told me at one point on skype about a party, the next day she said she made out with some senior from notre dame. I started to drink all the time, every day, no job. I broke.
prior to the break up i was addicted to benzos, on antiderpessants. The relationship had a lot of pressure, i went to these extents, the wrong way though. I was so caught up in the relationship i lost myself.
Shes not even that good lookings, shes educated well, studies finance, nice body, but face isnt the best, its not horrible either. She was always kind of nice and polite, she used to look up to me so so so much. I went from alpha traits, to jerk, back and forth on those and eventually afc started to peak its ugly face, and it consumed.
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