I went to the mall today with my family to go and buy some things, just a nice day out and what not. Nothing big, just a evening planned to go and enjoy the mall.
There where naturally girls my age there walking around with other guys and in packs, or by themseleves. There where all kinds of girls there, young old and girls my age also.
I am really concerned and actually extremely frustrated and mad that what I am about to explain always happen to me.
When I was walking in the mall, I noticed a increase in self conscience's, I was nervous and it was like I couldnt control the feelings inside my body and I was filled with fear just walking around with people in the mall.
I had to try extra hard to keep my calm and maintain a look of confidence and to make eye contact even if it was painful for me.
I feel like my stress level goes up as I go to places that where filled with people.
This makes me so mad, that I keep getting afraid and super self conscience everytime I go outside. I frustrates me so much and gets me very angry.
I was waiting for my family outside a store and a bunch of hot girls stodd about a foot from me and proceeded to talk and they stood right in front of me.
My blood pressure went through the roof, my heart started beating faster and I started to get a headache and I couldnt even get myself to make eye contact with the girls.
I hate when this happens to me that I cant even control how I react to a situation.
I hate it, it feels like Im about to go on a stage and make a speech with out being prepared.
I feel exposed and very vulnerable.
Im sitting in my home right now and I am calm but angry that everytime I go out that my strees level and my awareness rises and i cant even stand next to a group of girls without feeling like I am about to pass out and my breathing gets deep and faster.
Why does this happen?
There where naturally girls my age there walking around with other guys and in packs, or by themseleves. There where all kinds of girls there, young old and girls my age also.
I am really concerned and actually extremely frustrated and mad that what I am about to explain always happen to me.
When I was walking in the mall, I noticed a increase in self conscience's, I was nervous and it was like I couldnt control the feelings inside my body and I was filled with fear just walking around with people in the mall.
I had to try extra hard to keep my calm and maintain a look of confidence and to make eye contact even if it was painful for me.
I feel like my stress level goes up as I go to places that where filled with people.
This makes me so mad, that I keep getting afraid and super self conscience everytime I go outside. I frustrates me so much and gets me very angry.
I was waiting for my family outside a store and a bunch of hot girls stodd about a foot from me and proceeded to talk and they stood right in front of me.
My blood pressure went through the roof, my heart started beating faster and I started to get a headache and I couldnt even get myself to make eye contact with the girls.
I hate when this happens to me that I cant even control how I react to a situation.
I hate it, it feels like Im about to go on a stage and make a speech with out being prepared.
I feel exposed and very vulnerable.
Im sitting in my home right now and I am calm but angry that everytime I go out that my strees level and my awareness rises and i cant even stand next to a group of girls without feeling like I am about to pass out and my breathing gets deep and faster.
Why does this happen?