THIS IS OVER.
^ All of that sh1t is irrelevant.
I will be honest, if you knowingly had a drinking a problem and if the stress with intensive law studiying was so bad, you should not have gone into the relationship and she did the right thing - you were lucky that she backed off and came back when you had sorted yourself out, but then one night the drink got the better of you and you made a fool of yourself. This sealed your access to her pu$$y for good.
Yup.
Yes you should! - You should be cutting off every connection you have with her.
If you already know her password, log in to her account, change the password to some random letter you will never remember. Log off (she can always reset her password by email) - do it now!
Trying to see what it going on with her just isn't worth it. You will feel worse for it like this:
Imagine what that will change to in a couple of weeks!
You consider yourself to be good looking - I'm jealous. Most of us on this forum don't have this blessing and work hard to be desirable. Imagine how awesome it WILL be when you change your body as well.
The only time you are to contact her is, to send photo of you on the beach with a ripped body and a HB8-10 under your arm sticking two fingers up at the camera.
This will happen more quickly than you are thinking right now. I have been through it and honestly now how it feels. Hitting the gym and changing your lifestyle is the way forward. I have never gone back and cannot see me every doing so.
When the momentum gets rolling, the change of lifestyle becomes a habit. I very rarely drink now as I'm get to obsessed thinking it will affect my training.
It is going to be hard, but it also gets easier then becomes an enjoyable uplifting way of life. Just keep at it, I promise you!
Just take a look at
this post by me. I was a hairy monster with beer belly, look how much you will change in just a few months IF you stick at it.
I love not drinking - my confidence is sky high as I have got used to going out at night soba, I have the freedom of driving on a night out, I save a huge sum of money, my body is in shape and it feels amazing.
This is where I came from, and was truly my turning point:
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=174038 if you reed through the whole thread you will see how it goes through how I caught her cheating just a days after posting the thread, sink in the advice I was given. I was such a passive weak man back then.
Take the advice from other members on here, read through the
DJ bible and DJ tips section. It does work!
Don't just sit there and do nothing but read the bible, go out and action it. Do it now... go on with you :woo: