Oh ... my ... god ...
I see ... I see it all now ...
I'm a first year in Uni ... living with 6 other students, all first years. I came with a relaxed, easy going, postive/optimistc, enjoy-everything-I-do, like meeting new people attitude. All in all, I was confident.
I personally like to defy the rules in life. I like to be unique, I like to stray away from the common things in life. However, 18 weeks in a house full of 6 students, I feel a level down then I did feel when I first game. I begin to see why ... because of this topic ...
Because I am so easy going and happy all the time, (I like adventure), I tend to like everything i do, I like to talk, I like to talk to different people, I'm not afraid to do things. I see why the other people I live with ... I see why they like putting down things that I like, that I do.
This is simply because, my mindset and attitude/confidence is way better than their's. I know this after 4 weeks of living with them (I like to analyse people, and hell, they were homesick, always calling their partners/parents, they go home very often, let little things bother them, don't leave "old friends" behind).
I just went with the flow and enjoyed it. I left my friends behind, only kept 3 of them in contact. But we rarely contact each other anyway. Because there's one thing in our minds. Go out and meet people, enjoy life, have fun.
But 14 more weeks later, attention seems to revolve around me, as interest raised on me, such as what I like, what I do. (To keep people thinking, I keep myself reserved, mysterious, but yet I'm always with them doing things). Needless to say, they don't like my ambitions and my dream, nor do they like my music/interests and my actions towards "public" people (e.g. checkout assistants, staff, random public people). And in order for them to "lower" myself to their "level" they put me in several parts of my life. (They're scared to do certain things, especially just chatting to someone you've never met, for example)
They are the typical average students:
Go out, spend loads, get wasted. Come back sick. All for what? Nothing. Nothing is achieved. Except having a good time at the beginning then gradually getting worst as the drinks increase.
I tend to NOT go out with them all the time, I only do it once in a while, and even then, I am extremely aware of how much drink I'm putting in myself so I won't get drunk or waste lots of money. Of course social life is important, but why do they think that drinking until your throwing it back all up again is the only method of "fun"?
This is yet another factor which splits me between them. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate them or anything. I came to Uni to study, I want to get the job I want with my degree, I want to pay my parents back for what they have given me over the last 18 years. They're paying for my accomodation and tuition fees, damnit.
However, things are extremely great in my course. No problems there at all. Meet people, go out, have fun.
I think that it is quite hard to explain everything at the moment. I know what I am thinking but I find it hard to express it in words.
Also note that I am single, but this is because my course soaks up a lot more effort and time than the other courses. The others in the house always tell me to go out, and get a girlfriend. I don't want to. Why? I don't have the time (yet). But by them telling me to do so, they are simply putting me down, to their level.
How? They are tied down on a relationship (currently the one of the guys is dating one of the girls in my house, the others have partners elsewhere on the opposite side of the country. more or less). I am single, free to do whatever I want with no strings attached. Hence, I flirt with people I come across, no matter where. They see me doing this, they don't like it. (*-Jealousy-*)
But now ...
I see it all now ... thanks to this post ...
After 14 weeks of decline in my mind, it's time to boost it up again ... I just can't believe I let this happened to me. I guess the countless times they tried to change me altered my way of thinking SLIGHTLY ...
Now, I'm just not gonna give a fxxk about them. They do what they want (and fail) while I go around enjoying life and people and achieving my dreams.
(Note I dropped by here simply because I felt and saw myself slowly degrading. I was going to ask for advice but thank god, I saw this most.)
I see ... I see it all now ...
I'm a first year in Uni ... living with 6 other students, all first years. I came with a relaxed, easy going, postive/optimistc, enjoy-everything-I-do, like meeting new people attitude. All in all, I was confident.
I personally like to defy the rules in life. I like to be unique, I like to stray away from the common things in life. However, 18 weeks in a house full of 6 students, I feel a level down then I did feel when I first game. I begin to see why ... because of this topic ...
Because I am so easy going and happy all the time, (I like adventure), I tend to like everything i do, I like to talk, I like to talk to different people, I'm not afraid to do things. I see why the other people I live with ... I see why they like putting down things that I like, that I do.
This is simply because, my mindset and attitude/confidence is way better than their's. I know this after 4 weeks of living with them (I like to analyse people, and hell, they were homesick, always calling their partners/parents, they go home very often, let little things bother them, don't leave "old friends" behind).
I just went with the flow and enjoyed it. I left my friends behind, only kept 3 of them in contact. But we rarely contact each other anyway. Because there's one thing in our minds. Go out and meet people, enjoy life, have fun.
But 14 more weeks later, attention seems to revolve around me, as interest raised on me, such as what I like, what I do. (To keep people thinking, I keep myself reserved, mysterious, but yet I'm always with them doing things). Needless to say, they don't like my ambitions and my dream, nor do they like my music/interests and my actions towards "public" people (e.g. checkout assistants, staff, random public people). And in order for them to "lower" myself to their "level" they put me in several parts of my life. (They're scared to do certain things, especially just chatting to someone you've never met, for example)
They are the typical average students:
Go out, spend loads, get wasted. Come back sick. All for what? Nothing. Nothing is achieved. Except having a good time at the beginning then gradually getting worst as the drinks increase.
I tend to NOT go out with them all the time, I only do it once in a while, and even then, I am extremely aware of how much drink I'm putting in myself so I won't get drunk or waste lots of money. Of course social life is important, but why do they think that drinking until your throwing it back all up again is the only method of "fun"?
This is yet another factor which splits me between them. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate them or anything. I came to Uni to study, I want to get the job I want with my degree, I want to pay my parents back for what they have given me over the last 18 years. They're paying for my accomodation and tuition fees, damnit.
However, things are extremely great in my course. No problems there at all. Meet people, go out, have fun.
I think that it is quite hard to explain everything at the moment. I know what I am thinking but I find it hard to express it in words.
Also note that I am single, but this is because my course soaks up a lot more effort and time than the other courses. The others in the house always tell me to go out, and get a girlfriend. I don't want to. Why? I don't have the time (yet). But by them telling me to do so, they are simply putting me down, to their level.
How? They are tied down on a relationship (currently the one of the guys is dating one of the girls in my house, the others have partners elsewhere on the opposite side of the country. more or less). I am single, free to do whatever I want with no strings attached. Hence, I flirt with people I come across, no matter where. They see me doing this, they don't like it. (*-Jealousy-*)
But now ...
I see it all now ... thanks to this post ...
After 14 weeks of decline in my mind, it's time to boost it up again ... I just can't believe I let this happened to me. I guess the countless times they tried to change me altered my way of thinking SLIGHTLY ...
Now, I'm just not gonna give a fxxk about them. They do what they want (and fail) while I go around enjoying life and people and achieving my dreams.
(Note I dropped by here simply because I felt and saw myself slowly degrading. I was going to ask for advice but thank god, I saw this most.)
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