Am I too much of an ass/manipulative/pimpish?

[ima str8 up pimp]

Sometimes I think I go too far, and this is not a joke.

I tend to feel sympathy because I wasn't always at such a high status.

I really actually realize that to get where I'm at... I have supressed people, if people feel bad about themselves, I make them feel worse because I act like I'm too good. But maybe I just am, and the people I supress I do it because they want to supress me and I don't judge? I dont know that's been what I go by.... "I'm just trying to be my best, so don't even try and mess with me."

I play football, have money, have good looks/high/growing status, but I really honestly feel guilty and don't know why.

I know that I'm being a REAL MAN because I'm seriously almost like a pimp, I just suck the attention out've these girls and then ditch them, looking for hotter ones to **** with.

Granted, maybe it's just because I havent found a girl that doesn't completly submit to me but keeps me satisfied?

Maybe I just need to have my status grow higher to get *her*.

The truth is... I honestly feel no love. And it scares me....

It's like... when I had love I was also depressed and a loser in my eyes.

But... when I have status, looks, girls that are attracted to my extreme assholwe ways... I have what I "wanted" then.. but No love..

Confused...

 

[Boston DJ]

I know that I'm being a REAL MAN because I'm seriously almost like a pimp

I think this sums up your cluelessness, you've got a lot to learn young man.

 

[ima str8 up pimp]

****... thanks, I really wasn't raised the best, but I'm not sure if your opinion matters either, that depends... what do I "have to learn?" I get the job done like a man should right? Guys like at our school are like this, but I dont know if they feel ANY remorse.

 

[Boston DJ]

That being a real man has a lot more to it than being "seriously almost like a pimp"

It's obvious you are still in high school and guess what? I was the same way in high school and there really isn't a problem with it. I don't understand why you are looking for love, live it up you are young.