Bobby_lapointe
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First post here, been a long time dude studying PUA's stuff when it first came out in 2000 and improving myself since then with more deep core and RedPill awareness (following manosphere and all its evolution).
I'm actualy losing my girlfriend : she's losing interest, pulling back, all in a sudden after a year. LDR, single mom, don't really want to settle, mixed signals after 1 year of success from myself (avoiding every obstacles). Usual stuff
Well, the end is near and I dunno if I will save the boat, or at the least, my own self-esteem.
I kind of feel depressed by how my "romantic life" seems so much different from every other guy around. I'm 34, and all my friends / colleagues are having babies, getting maried.
All the RedPill stuff, the AF/BB and all these theories don't apply to them. They are happy, their girlfriend don't cheat, they are supportive, never bored.
I'm so much better at 34 than I was in my 20's when first discovering Mystery & co. But even If i'm a better person, always trying to achieve something greater, willing to date a girl with high qualities and looks, I'm always failing in the long run.
There's only here on Sosuave, and all the boards I know from RooshV to BBing miscers that I can relate with stories posted and Field Reports.
Why is that ? There are no separated galaxies, we all live on Earth. Why are my day-to-day struggles nothing to compare to others ?
Yes, everytime a friend or colleague show me his wife, I'm always saying to myself "not very good". I don't want to be an a$$hole saying that, I just respect everyone being happy with what he has. But myself, I can't. The fact that I'm always trying to achieve better, having more, is constantly making myself on the edge : stressfull and exhausted.
With my current girlfriend, I did my best game I ever did. 1 year, I avoided ****-tests, I've been doing dread game naturaly as women are interested in me. I did all my ****in best. But once again, I Failed. RedPill is great, I'm another person that I used to be.
But everytime I relate my stories to my mum or dad that are concerned about my dating life, they don't understand my world. They don't understand the girls behaviours. They are speechless. Sure i'll always be right for them, as I'm their son. But noneless, they can't see what did I do wrong so she don't want to go further.
My brother has also choose a divorced single mum. 3 kids... It's been 10 years. They are now married, with 1 kid of their own (4 in total), and HAPPY.
The wife is just... the coolest I ever met. Supportive, all the thing you could dream about. My brother is nothing about RedPill or stuff like that. He has a purpose and live his life, but as I do. I've my own passions, my life, my goals, and don't make women my priority.
What's the difference between me and him ?
What's the difference between us and others guy all happy ?
I'm 34 and kind of feel lost today. Sometimes I want to disappear. Just leave, stop trying. ****ing be a beta for life. But I just can't. I can't let myself always fail, it's like I want to be right. Want to win at the end. What's to win ? What are we running for ? I don't want to spin plates. I want to feel a connexion, a deep bond with someone. Not be a beta, just, I dont know dudes... I want to listen to you guys, especially long time players. Where are we going, 2020, the world is bitter
I'm actualy losing my girlfriend : she's losing interest, pulling back, all in a sudden after a year. LDR, single mom, don't really want to settle, mixed signals after 1 year of success from myself (avoiding every obstacles). Usual stuff
Well, the end is near and I dunno if I will save the boat, or at the least, my own self-esteem.
I kind of feel depressed by how my "romantic life" seems so much different from every other guy around. I'm 34, and all my friends / colleagues are having babies, getting maried.
All the RedPill stuff, the AF/BB and all these theories don't apply to them. They are happy, their girlfriend don't cheat, they are supportive, never bored.
I'm so much better at 34 than I was in my 20's when first discovering Mystery & co. But even If i'm a better person, always trying to achieve something greater, willing to date a girl with high qualities and looks, I'm always failing in the long run.
There's only here on Sosuave, and all the boards I know from RooshV to BBing miscers that I can relate with stories posted and Field Reports.
Why is that ? There are no separated galaxies, we all live on Earth. Why are my day-to-day struggles nothing to compare to others ?
Yes, everytime a friend or colleague show me his wife, I'm always saying to myself "not very good". I don't want to be an a$$hole saying that, I just respect everyone being happy with what he has. But myself, I can't. The fact that I'm always trying to achieve better, having more, is constantly making myself on the edge : stressfull and exhausted.
With my current girlfriend, I did my best game I ever did. 1 year, I avoided ****-tests, I've been doing dread game naturaly as women are interested in me. I did all my ****in best. But once again, I Failed. RedPill is great, I'm another person that I used to be.
But everytime I relate my stories to my mum or dad that are concerned about my dating life, they don't understand my world. They don't understand the girls behaviours. They are speechless. Sure i'll always be right for them, as I'm their son. But noneless, they can't see what did I do wrong so she don't want to go further.
My brother has also choose a divorced single mum. 3 kids... It's been 10 years. They are now married, with 1 kid of their own (4 in total), and HAPPY.
The wife is just... the coolest I ever met. Supportive, all the thing you could dream about. My brother is nothing about RedPill or stuff like that. He has a purpose and live his life, but as I do. I've my own passions, my life, my goals, and don't make women my priority.
What's the difference between me and him ?
What's the difference between us and others guy all happy ?
I'm 34 and kind of feel lost today. Sometimes I want to disappear. Just leave, stop trying. ****ing be a beta for life. But I just can't. I can't let myself always fail, it's like I want to be right. Want to win at the end. What's to win ? What are we running for ? I don't want to spin plates. I want to feel a connexion, a deep bond with someone. Not be a beta, just, I dont know dudes... I want to listen to you guys, especially long time players. Where are we going, 2020, the world is bitter