Right so I stayed with my ex last night and all of today whilst still having this date lined up for tonight. I didn’t have time to go home and change but I’d showered and gone straight to the date with the Australian about 18:30.
Didn’t go well for my standards. During the night we arranged to meet up on Sunday (it’s friday night) do to some stuff and we are going abroad for a wedding (accommodation paid for I just have to book my flights). But I feel I’ve friendzoned myself, found it difficult to escalate with kino (did some) and genuinely found myself seeing this girl as a friend, I think because I’ve recently broke up with my ex and I spent yesterday and today with her it was hard to get my mind in the game, my heart wasn’t in it tonight and I think it showed. We split a g of coke and Uberrwd to her place and I Ubered back to mine.
She’s interested in me, but I’m not on my usual form and feel a bit jaded if I’m honest. I feel like calling her (we both did coke she will still be up left her not long ago). Just general frustration with myself, we both opened up about family stuff tonight and she was definately more flirtatious than she’s ever been, I just flopped, all sexed out from earlier today and just not hungry enough for it. Help?