The *No Contact* Challenge! ( Read this if you just got dumped)

[Lion1985]

NEVER EVER BRAKE NO CONTAC!

my story:

we dated 12 months, we broke up november last year, i went immediatelly no contact.
Beginning of April, after 4 Monaths on NC i initiated contact, we met, talked a lot, we go dancing and drinking.
Ddespite she was seeing someone new a month long i accomplieshed to bang her 2 times
This happend within 3-4 days but after the second bang she than decided to stay with this new guy.
She told me I came back in a inconvenient time, the first 3 months she missed me a lot but than the new guy came and she could finally restart with new happiness.
My comeback confused her head very much, I slept with her 2 times, we had fun, but in the end she decides to be with the new guy.
she says she feels he is her SOULMATE, it feels like she knows him very long, he makes her feel special, he is a very good guy with a good heart.
i told her i want to restart with her, but she sayd its not possible YET, she cant break up with him now just to be with me, she dont want to hurt him.
the only mistake i made is writing her ttat her decision hurt me and that i miss here.
she calls me and sayd she missed me also but she cant break up with him
i didnt cry or beg, i just say i understand her,wished her good night and hang up, today is the first day of no contact!

importnt also is the situaion as we were both clubbing and dancing i again showed her my jealousy, this was a big problem in our relationship
maybe this changed also her mind

about the guy:

we are from central EU, this guy is from albania,he barely speaks good our language.
i dont know if he has a job.
after only 3 weeks of dating my ex he is all over her, he writes her "i love you, i love you sweetheart"
i dont know if this guy is a real deal or a faker.....what do oyu guys think?
my mum told me this is a suspicious looking guy, telling "i love you" so fast, maybe he wants something from her? money?

Question to experts:

is it possible to win my ex back and how? what should i exactly do?
i know she is now in the honeymoon phase (new love feelings), and in the firts 3-4 months i have absolutely zero chances to chang her mind.
my first reaction is again no contact, left her alone, hoping she will someday starting missing me....
what do you guys think about this guy?

 

[soulforge]

So i decided finally to join the NC thread as things are getting a little tough now..

So how best to handle NC if you did the dumping?

In my case, there where various incidents or rudeness and disrespect.. Two of those quite major ones!

I made it known to her, this kinda chit will not be tolerated.. but this woman just cannot help fuking up again.. and saying or doing the wrong thing!

Sometimes imature, inconsiderate, rudeness..

The last incident, i called her on the phone, told her she needs to think about her behaviour, as she had been behaving unreasonably towards me..

She claimed it to be just a joke.. gas lighting.. i told her she needs to think about her jokes, as sometimes they are not funny!

She then she cut me off the phone mid sentence.. didn't turn up for our date.. then i didn't hear back from her in 4 days.. possible power play here!

I felt there was no going back after this level of disrespect.. so i straight dumped her ass!!

She called, but i ignored the call.. then she sent a text agreeing with the break up, and claimed it was ME who was treating her like chit.. WTF

Blocked her on every level.. changed my sim card, so she can't call..

2 months of NC now.. its been hard as fuk man.. but i am trying to save myself from years of possible misery ahead..

For all I know she could be texting me, begging for me to talk to her.. but i dare not check my sim card, incase it takes my healing process back to square one!!

I think there is no going back with this one.. also going back rarely ever works with chicks like this..

Do you think keeping her blocked is the best thing? What of one day she realises the errors of her way.???

 

[Killakittie]

So i decided finally to join the NC thread as things are getting a little tough now..

So how best to handle NC if you did the dumping?

In my case, there where various incidents or rudeness and disrespect.. Two of those quite major ones!

I made it known to her, this kinda chit will not be tolerated.. but this woman just cannot help fuking up again.. and saying or doing the wrong thing!

Sometimes imature, inconsiderate, rudeness..

The last incident, i called her on the phone, told her she needs to think about her behaviour, as she had been behaving unreasonably towards me..

She claimed it to be just a joke.. gas lighting.. i told her she needs to think about her jokes, as sometimes they are not funny!

She then she cut me off the phone mid sentence.. didn't turn up for our date.. then i didn't hear back from her in 4 days.. possible power play here!

I felt there was no going back after this level of disrespect.. so i straight dumped her ass!!

She called, but i ignored the call.. then she sent a text agreeing with the break up, and claimed it was ME who was treating her like chit.. WTF

Blocked her on every level.. changed my sim card, so she can't call..

2 months of NC now.. its been hard as fuk man.. but i am trying to save myself from years of possible misery ahead..

For all I know she could be texting me, begging for me to talk to her.. but i dare not check my sim card, incase it takes my healing process back to square one!!

I think there is no going back with this one.. also going back rarely ever works with chicks like this..

Do you think keeping her blocked is the best thing? What of one day she realises the errors of her way.???

We have very similar stories. I also ended the relationship with my wife due to disrespect, cheating, and deception. I kicked her out and blocked her like you did. I also made the mistake of taking her back about 30 times because i wanted her and my marriage to work.

Here's what it got me. With each consecutive time i took her back she learned she could get away with disrespectful behavior towards me. She always said she was trying to change but in the end she never did and it was a huge waste of time that eroded my self esteem.

Then when she realized i wasn't going to just shut up and be a good door mat she started blaming me for her behavior, tried gaslighting, and starting talking to other dudes.

Unfortunately guys like us who put our girls in check and leave them for bad behavior have to deal with this. You did the right thing. Don't throw it all away because your in a moment of weakness. You stood up for yourself and if you contact her you will give all that away and have to start over from square one. You will feel like **** if you contact her, you know it, so do anything to keep your mind off it.

 

[soulforge]

Yeah if you're the dumper, the same rules of NC apply. The theory is simple:

CUT OFF ALL CONTACT.

In practice that's much easier said than done: but it's absolutely vital that you stop thinking about your ex. Every time you think about her, is a setback for your healing and recovery.

Just a couple thoughts:

DO NOT CHECK HER SOCIAL MEDIA. You are NOT going to like what you see, and doing this will set your healing back incredibly. Mentally disordered women have a knack for being able to switch from one sexual partner to another like a pair of socks.. this is how they deal with their mental problems. Checking her social media is even worse than calling her or bumping into her, because it will give you a false puffed up version of what her life is really like. She will seem happy, beautiful, and loving life. She will be totally enamoured with her replacement of you. But he is just a rebound. Her core mental problems never leave her, deep down she will always be unhappy. She is destined to ruin every relationship she ever gets in; and the longer her relationships last, the more damage she will inflict on her partner. If you check her social media YOU WILL BE TRAUMATIZED. So don't do it.

Another thing, sometimes the more time that goes by, the more you will miss her and want to contact her. But don't fall for this. As people we tend to forget the painful memories and stick to the good ones after enough time has passed (why do you think women keep giving birth after the first one) and the sense of loss and cold realization of finality begins to sink in.

But stay strong: don't waver now. You are on the road to recovery, and giving in now will only increase and prolong your agony.

Stay strict NC. Allow yourself to heal from this extremely traumatic event. She is broken, damaged beyond repair. She cannot be fixed. You need to save yourself.

You are right man.. i cut this woman out completely.. blocked her on every fukin level...

My aim is to heal, till one day her poison leaves me and i can smile again..

There are days where i revert back to wanting her in my life, but I know this is a BIG mistake...

She maybe banging other guys.. or she may not... if I don't look or check, then I will never know... this is why cutting her out completely is the only way.. it's better just to not know man!

This much I do know.. she was defo not a good partner.. each day goes by and i begin to realise dumping her was the best and only option..

So many red flags i ignored.. she was ex bar girl and this is at the age of 50... In another 5 years her vagina will be all dried up and ready for the waste bin.. This girl couldn't suck dik to save her life, even her tits where beginning to sag!

nearly every dude she was dating before me, was on a casual basis..

Or he disappeared on her, or it fizzled out.. truth is she was a divorcee who got burned by her husband of 25 years, he left her for another woman..

These woman then hit the bars with there new found freedom.. and they are pretty damaged inside.. and should only be used for sex.. Do not wife them up!

This is one concelation I have.. she is fuking old.. so her sexual market value is in the decrease..

Man I hope I have the strength to keep 100% no contact, and recover from this chit.

 

[soulforge]

We have very similar stories. I also ended the relationship with my wife due to disrespect, cheating, and deception. I kicked her out and blocked her like you did. I also made the mistake of taking her back about 30 times because i wanted her and my marriage to work.

Here's what it got me. With each consecutive time i took her back she learned she could get away with disrespectful behavior towards me. She always said she was trying to change but in the end she never did and it was a huge waste of time that eroded my self esteem.

Then when she realized i wasn't going to just shut up and be a good door mat she started blaming me for her behavior, tried gaslighting, and starting talking to other dudes.

Unfortunately guys like us who put our girls in check and leave them for bad behavior have to deal with this. You did the right thing. Don't throw it all away because your in a moment of weakness. You stood up for yourself and if you contact her you will give all that away and have to start over from square one. You will feel like **** if you contact her, you know it, so do anything to keep your mind off it.

Hey man we have similar stories.. in my case i always voiced my opinion and called that b@ch out when she got out of line..

I Dumped her 3 months into the relationship, for disrespect.. and now I have dumped her for the last and final time... NEVER going back..

These woman cannot change.. my ex is a terrible communicater.. she is passive aggressive, also has narcissist traights..

She can be absolutely fine for a couple of months, then WHAM she will drop some disrespect on you... and then defend her actions..

Infact she will blame you... no man we don't need chit like this in our lives...

Whenever a woman show disrespect, give her just ONE opportunity, if it happens again, then immediately DUMP, because chit will get worse, and you will be more emotionally attached..

Its usually when you catch the feels, that there behaviour gets worse...

Dump, heal and then move on to a nicer woman!!

You know what, my ex wasn't even that hot.. she was 50 man.. mutton dressed up as lamb..

Why I even took any chit from her I don't know..

 

[QuadDeuces]

Fvcking Hell.
Just saw her on Tinder, she looked so hot, (obviously she posted only good pictures) just what the fvck I needed, damn. I Thought I was 90% over her hung out with 5 other sloots in the last 6 weeks, bedded 3 of them.
But this shot me in the heart, aches.
My first impulse was to text and go full on beta, but I refrained.
Off to the gym, I feel like squatting right now.

 

[Lion1985]

Fvcking Hell.
Just saw her on Tinder, she looked so hot, (obviously she posted only good pictures) just what the fvck I needed, damn. I Thought I was 90% over her hung out with 5 other sloots in the last 6 weeks, bedded 3 of them.
But this shot me in the heart, aches.
My first impulse was to text and go full on beta, but I refrained.
Off to the gym, I feel like squatting right now.

I know what you are feeling bro, stay NC no matter what your heart/emotions are telling you.
If you break NC you will regret it like hell, believe me, been there, done that, you will feel much worse than before!
Stop looking at her tinder/pics/facebook...., you will never heal! Believe me!
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My ex wrote me a sms at 3 oclock am! to join her at a party despite she is dating already a new guy since 5 weeks...
Some days ago we landed in bed 3 times, but she decided she cant break up with him,i told her friendship is not possible....
I ignored her sms..
I hope I did the right thing.....

 

[QuadDeuces]

I know what you are feeling bro, stay NC no matter what your heart/emotions are telling you.
If you break NC you will regret it like hell, believe me, been there, done that, you will feel much worse than before!
Stop looking at her tinder/pics/facebook...., you will never heal! Believe me!
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My ex wrote me a sms at 3 oclock am! to join her at a party despite she is dating already a new guy since 5 weeks...
Some days ago we landed in bed 3 times, but she decided she cant break up with him,i told her friendship is not possible....
I ignored her sms..
I hope I did the right thing.....

Yes you did the right thing bro, dont be a part in her triangulating scheme to have 2 men competing over her to inflate her ego.

I feel refreshed as fvck, absolutely ripped it in the gym. Talked to a few hot bishes, "One more chance" by Biggie in my headphones. Turning negative emotions into positivity.

 

[Reboot2017]

Dude, you did the correct thing. A man should not tolerate that sort of BS. Things will get better and you will find a woman who will not subject you to sh1t like that.

Thanks Carpathian. I was starting to doubt my decision but it helps to hear another opinion.

Day 3 of no contact. She messaged me on Friday but I deleted it and did not reply. Things are starting to sink in. I am feeling really weak at the moment. Mind is starting to come to terms with the loss. I will not contact her. Have started working out. Been dancing over the weekend. Distractions help and fingers crossed, the emotions will stabilize.

 

[Young_Don]

I've been 41 days NC so far, managed to stop checking her social media. But do any of you think that it's weird that she hasn't reached out to me yet? Considering the time we spent together was awesome and I know that she loved me, probably me more so than her.

Should I expect her to contact me eventualy if ever?

I had a few drinks the other night and had the biggest urge to text her saying "I miss you" but I controlled myself. The fact that I know that she's been out drinking with friends and hasn't contacted me first helped me to not text her.

It just seems odd to me that a lot of us are going through the same thing here and most of you are hearing back from them, yet I'm not and me and her invested time and effort into each other on a daily basis for 4 months.

 

[Killakittie]

Day 7 NC and all is well.

I'm taking myself out of the dating game. My heart is just not in It, it doesn't feel right, and I can't ignore it. I don't know what's wrong with me or if there is anything wrong with me. I have no issue meeting women and setting up dates. It's just not bringing me any happiness. Knowing my wife is already talking to someone should give me all the motivation i need to date but i don't feel like i can heal that way. More women isn't the answer. I can't do what she is doing..I don't feel ready yet. Sex is meaningless to me right now. I've had chances to sleep with other women but i haven't because it doesn't feel right. I loved my wife very much. Obviously this is going to take time to heal properly from and i don't want to be like her. Just moving on to someone else like nothing ever happened. This is between me and God. Honestly i pray each night for understanding on what the best course of action is and i think it's just working on myself and not making the mistakes she is. I can't sit here and pretend i don't still love her and ignore my emotions. Dating, having sex, or getting involved with the opposite sex is going to interfere with me truly healing. I will not break NC though and i haven't been tempted to contact her. She's just too hurtful to go back to. She was a horrible wife who only chose herself and her interests always came first. I could never put myself back in that situation. I hate that i gave my heart to this woman. Been seperated a year and it still hurts. Maintaining NC and trying to live an honorable existance while becoming a man of character is all i can do atm.

I'm not going to post up on here for a while. I'm going to get off the Internet and social media and focus on other things. Like dating its become too much of a distraction.

 

[soulforge]

2 months of no contact now.. two year relationship

in general I feel pretty positive I did the right thing by nexting her..

but still get the odd day, where I start to feel some doubts about it..

I felt like there was no going back.. once she has crossed that line, and you accept and tolerate that behaviour..

things would only get much worse.. NEXTING is the only option.. let her know that you are not afraid to walk away from her BS

I regret not walking away much sooner

 

[soulforge]

Day 7 NC and all is well.

I'm taking myself out of the dating game. My heart is just not in It, it doesn't feel right, and I can't ignore it. I don't know what's wrong with me or if there is anything wrong with me. I have no issue meeting women and setting up dates. It's just not bringing me any happiness. Knowing my wife is already talking to someone should give me all the motivation i need to date but i don't feel like i can heal that way. More women isn't the answer. I can't do what she is doing..I don't feel ready yet. Sex is meaningless to me right now. I've had chances to sleep with other women but i haven't because it doesn't feel right. I loved my wife very much. Obviously this is going to take time to heal properly from and i don't want to be like her. Just moving on to someone else like nothing ever happened. This is between me and God. Honestly i pray each night for understanding on what the best course of action is and i think it's just working on myself and not making the mistakes she is. I can't sit here and pretend i don't still love her and ignore my emotions. Dating, having sex, or getting involved with the opposite sex is going to interfere with me truly healing. I will not break NC though and i haven't been tempted to contact her. She's just too hurtful to go back to. She was a horrible wife who only chose herself and her interests always came first. I could never put myself back in that situation. I hate that i gave my heart to this woman. Been seperated a year and it still hurts. Maintaining NC and trying to live an honorable existance while becoming a man of character is all i can do atm.

I'm not going to post up on here for a while. I'm going to get off the Internet and social media and focus on other things. Like dating its become too much of a distraction.

how long where you in this relationship? and how many times did you break up previously

 

[dude99]

NEVER EVER BRAKE NO CONTAC!

my story:

we dated 12 months, we broke up november last year, i went immediatelly no contact.
Beginning of April, after 4 Monaths on NC i initiated contact, we met, talked a lot, we go dancing and drinking.
Ddespite she was seeing someone new a month long i accomplieshed to bang her 2 times
This happend within 3-4 days but after the second bang she than decided to stay with this new guy.
She told me I came back in a inconvenient time, the first 3 months she missed me a lot but than the new guy came and she could finally restart with new happiness.
My comeback confused her head very much, I slept with her 2 times, we had fun, but in the end she decides to be with the new guy.
she says she feels he is her SOULMATE, it feels like she knows him very long, he makes her feel special, he is a very good guy with a good heart.
i told her i want to restart with her, but she sayd its not possible YET, she cant break up with him now just to be with me, she dont want to hurt him.
the only mistake i made is writing her ttat her decision hurt me and that i miss here.
she calls me and sayd she missed me also but she cant break up with him
i didnt cry or beg, i just say i understand her,wished her good night and hang up, today is the first day of no contact!

importnt also is the situaion as we were both clubbing and dancing i again showed her my jealousy, this was a big problem in our relationship
maybe this changed also her mind

about the guy:

we are from central EU, this guy is from albania,he barely speaks good our language.
i dont know if he has a job.
after only 3 weeks of dating my ex he is all over her, he writes her "i love you, i love you sweetheart"
i dont know if this guy is a real deal or a faker.....what do oyu guys think?
my mum told me this is a suspicious looking guy, telling "i love you" so fast, maybe he wants something from her? money?

Question to experts:

is it possible to win my ex back and how? what should i exactly do?
i know she is now in the honeymoon phase (new love feelings), and in the firts 3-4 months i have absolutely zero chances to chang her mind.
my first reaction is again no contact, left her alone, hoping she will someday starting missing me....
what do you guys think about this guy?

Think of it this way.

She views the new guy as her soulmate and she doesn't want to hurt him.

But she didn't mind cheating on new guy by having sex with you.........do you think he would be ok knowing his girl cheated on him with an ex? Or would this hurt him?

She isn't loyal. Why would you want an unfaith girl in your life ?

New perception on this for you. She did you a favour by showing she is disloyal. Now next her and find a loyal girl.

 

[Lion1985]

Think of it this way.

She views the new guy as her soulmate and she doesn't want to hurt him.

But she didn't mind cheating on new guy by having sex with you.........do you think he would be ok knowing his girl cheated on him with an ex? Or would this hurt him?

She isn't loyal. Why would you want an unfaith girl in your life ?

New perception on this for you. She did you a favour by showing she is disloyal. Now next her and find a loyal girl.

thanks for your time and your reply dude99, you are completetely right.
even if I would win her back, who guarantee me she would not do the same things behind my back.

as i wrote above, My ex wrote me yesterday a sms at 3 oclock am! to join her at a party despite she is dating her "soulmate"
as told, she will not break up with him becasue he is such a good person.
I ignored the sms and of course never showed up at the party....

now my logical brain is fvcking with me:

"what if I had went to the party"?
"what if we had a great time, showed her how much fun she can have with me, she would sleep with me again and we would wake up nextday happily"
"maybe than she would eventually choose me over him?"
"now the chances are gone because I dont went at the party and ignore her"
"now she is again all over him"

but I know my mind is playing games with me right?
She must feel my abscence....

 

[Killakittie]

how long where you in this relationship? and how many times did you break up previously

Three years before the last time i asked her to leave which was Jan of 16. This entire last year she's been trying to get me back and I was holding out hope she might "wake up" and start putting real effort into her marriage. So there was alot of back and forth during that time.

 

[soulforge]

you guys ever feel like, you won't find a better chick again..

here is the thing, when I split up with my last ex.. I felt like I lost my fukin dream girl.. was devastated man.

then 6 months later I met my recent ex.. at first I wasn't much into her, then later I caught the feels for her.. and didn't even give my previous ex a second thought.

now I am thinking this one is the best I could have had.. I hope to be proven wrong in time again.

 

[dude99]

thanks for your time and your reply dude99, you are completetely right.
even if I would win her back, who guarantee me she would not do the same things behind my back.

as i wrote above, My ex wrote me yesterday a sms at 3 oclock am! to join her at a party despite she is dating her "soulmate"
as told, she will not break up with him becasue he is such a good person.
I ignored the sms and of course never showed up at the party....

now my logical brain is fvcking with me:

"what if I had went to the party"?
"what if we had a great time, showed her how much fun she can have with me, she would sleep with me again and we would wake up nextday happily"
"maybe than she would eventually choose me over him?"
"now the chances are gone because I dont went at the party and ignore her"
"now she is again all over him"

but I know my mind is playing games with me right?
She must feel my abscence....

She wants to know she still has you on a string. She won't break up with soulmate but she will f^ck around with you behind his back. Why? You are entertainment for her. And her soulmate really means nothing to her.

What if you went to the party. You would stroke her ego.

What if she had a good time with you? She was partying anyways. Why were you even invited? Was soulmate busy? If soulmate was there would you even have received an invite? Probably not.

Would she have had sechs with you again? Maybe. You may be one of many at the moment. You are at least sharing her with soulmate. Maybe more.

Would she have chosen you over soulmate? If so she would have already done it. By telling you she won't break up with him but will f^ck around with you tells you she is only using you for her own entrainment.

Besides soul mate may find out she is cheating on him and dump her. Then she will call you and sob on your shoulder. Until the next guy comes along.

Do not reward a bad quality girl with your attention or your thoughts. Next.

 

[resilient]

Day 7 NC and all is well. I'm taking myself out of the dating game. My heart is just not in It, it doesn't feel right, and I can't ignore it.

Good job man. That's more self-control than I've had lately with the breakup I just went through last week.

This is between me and God. Honestly i pray each night for understanding on what the best course of action is...

I know religion is a controversal topic on this forum, yet I think it's great that you are seeking God first for help daily. He'll help mend the wounded heart and over time you'll feel peace and direction in your prayer time.

Dating, having sex, or getting involved with the opposite sex is going to interfere with me truly healing.

Yes. I learned that hard lesson recently with my breakup last weekend. I may have mentioned it in this thread or another one, yet I thought after 1.5 years since my marital separation (divorced late last summer) that I would be ready to casually date after taking over a year off of dating. I got close to my recent main plate and I imploaded. I picked up on similiar toxic traits in this woman that my ex inheritatedly had. I ignored dozens of red flags at my own peril. I played into the gaslighting games and psychological intimidation that it began to erode my self-esteem and cloud my judgment that affected my productivity at work and continuing education. Better to take time to heal. Previously you wrote that you were on the mend focusing on yourself and getting better... keep progressing.

She's just too hurtful to go back to. She was a horrible wife who only chose herself and her interests always came first. I could never put myself back in that situation.

You may be struggling with moving on completely because of the hurt, betrayal, and disappointment. Eventually, you'll get to a place where you seek God for forgiveness and for acceptance of past events. You don't have to forget what happen. The forgiveness is necessary for you to heal and move on with your life.

I hate that i gave my heart to this woman. Been separated a year and it still hurts.

Again, don't give into the negativity trap. Be compassionate with yourself. You did your best to make that marriage work and you two just didn't work out. Don't blame yourself for loving someone who checked out of the marriage. I don't know all the events surrounding the end, yet it sounds like you tried.

I'm not going to post up on here for a while. I'm going to get off the Internet and social media and focus on other things. Like dating its become too much of a distraction.

I'm there right now too. Take as much time off as you need. This forum has helped me regain a perspective that I had put her needs first while ignoring my own. Deleting her of social media is one of the best things I did as well. You don't want to wonder what she's up to or who she's with now. As @bradd80 wrote above, checking her social media sets back your healing. Ex's tend to also glorify how much fun they are having now that they are single too. Often, it's just an act to show the world how happy and better she is now, when on the inside, she could feel sad, lost, angry, regret, who knows. You got your space and your life back -- so stay focused on that. You'll heal if you do the work and when you're ready, you'll be ready to get back in the game.

Beyond prayer time, these guided meditations are helping me to stop overthinking about her and focus on letting her go:

Surrender Meditation | A Spoken guided visualization (Letting go of control)

Hypnosis for Releasing Anger and Resentment with Guided Forgiveness

Heal Your Past & Let Go Of Your Pain - Sleep Hypnosis Session - By Thomas Hall

Sleep Hypnosis for Letting Go of Past Relationships
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SzOj3jq14d0

 

[QuadDeuces]

Seeing BPD ex on tinder yesterday really took me down today. Been writing and deleting texts I want to send her in Iphone notes. I know I should not send anything and I wont. But feel a dark black pit in my gut.
Got me thinking back realising I was a selfish assh*le too. I want to talk it out, get validation, mutual respect, a hug.
I even gaslight myself.
Thanks for this forum it helped a lot today.
She's probably plowed through a dozen guys already so she should be dead to me.
Damn what a day.