Ok well this has to do more with me then like anythingelse, sorry if i dont make sense i just burned one :crazy:
Anyway what im getting at is i was alway's a quiet kid for some reason i have no clue i was scared of people i didnt know.
It got worse as i got older up until i was about 17 i just started reinforcing my beliefs even if they wernt exactly true, like im the cutest guy here or im better then you like im the **** eventually it all suck in an it all just worked i was getting chicks left an right. ]
An even had two of them fighting over me plus their friend on the side, 3 women after you i was like wtf? So now im kinda reverting to my old way's of being queit for some reason i wanna show these people the crazy dude underneath but i dont come out unless im really comfortable with them,drunk,high.
I wanna be that guy all the time everybody likes that guy all the girls love that guy. Im a gemini if that has anything to do with it split persona i guess...Dude i dont know people think im stuck up or i think im better then them an they dont even know me?
They base all this on the fact that i dont talk to them or smile at them, then whey they get to know me they tell me everything like how they thought i was all stuck up but im really not?
I guess their intimidated im 6'3 talk dark an handsome i stick out like a sore thumb even though inside i feel like a fly nobody see's im invisible.
Wtf dude im screwed up, how do i fix it?
Anyway what im getting at is i was alway's a quiet kid for some reason i have no clue i was scared of people i didnt know.
It got worse as i got older up until i was about 17 i just started reinforcing my beliefs even if they wernt exactly true, like im the cutest guy here or im better then you like im the **** eventually it all suck in an it all just worked i was getting chicks left an right. ]
An even had two of them fighting over me plus their friend on the side, 3 women after you i was like wtf? So now im kinda reverting to my old way's of being queit for some reason i wanna show these people the crazy dude underneath but i dont come out unless im really comfortable with them,drunk,high.
I wanna be that guy all the time everybody likes that guy all the girls love that guy. Im a gemini if that has anything to do with it split persona i guess...Dude i dont know people think im stuck up or i think im better then them an they dont even know me?
They base all this on the fact that i dont talk to them or smile at them, then whey they get to know me they tell me everything like how they thought i was all stuck up but im really not?
I guess their intimidated im 6'3 talk dark an handsome i stick out like a sore thumb even though inside i feel like a fly nobody see's im invisible.
Wtf dude im screwed up, how do i fix it?