I won’t ever get the body that women prefer because of my genes and I have a hole in my chest at any rate. Much female culture to me seems the sole preserve of the handsome man, and everyone else is the butt end of cruelty and exclusion.
I considered not going to clubs altogether- I couldn't cope in those anyway when I was 18-20 and its only for shallow people.
I've been spending a lot of time figuring out who I am and what works for me, how to live my life, and maybe its all in my head, but it somewhat hurts going around in public thinking you are an outsider.
That you don’t, or will ever, belong in a woman’s world, socially or otherwise. They are there with you in public, and yet their world seems so far apart from yours, and you can’t figure out why you feel this way or what brought about these feelings. So I am left quietly despairing, and nobody can understand where you are coming from in your feelings, and tell you you are talking rubbish.
Can anyone relate to these feelings. Maybe its better being a recluse. Is it all in my head?
I considered not going to clubs altogether- I couldn't cope in those anyway when I was 18-20 and its only for shallow people.
I've been spending a lot of time figuring out who I am and what works for me, how to live my life, and maybe its all in my head, but it somewhat hurts going around in public thinking you are an outsider.
That you don’t, or will ever, belong in a woman’s world, socially or otherwise. They are there with you in public, and yet their world seems so far apart from yours, and you can’t figure out why you feel this way or what brought about these feelings. So I am left quietly despairing, and nobody can understand where you are coming from in your feelings, and tell you you are talking rubbish.
Can anyone relate to these feelings. Maybe its better being a recluse. Is it all in my head?