kraytkiller
Don Juan
- Joined
- Oct 1, 2008
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Met this chick, became fckbuddies, last night found out she's had a boyfriend she's unhappy with the entire time.
I'm not too surprised, all the signs were there, such as mysteriously needing to be places until certain times, and a pic of her and him on her facebook (but not romantic enough to be concrete)
I guess it shouldn't matter to me. We both agreed it'd stay as a fckbuddy thing, but she of course started getting feelings and I guess I allowed myself to consider the thought of us having something one day.
The part that hurts, I guess, is that this revelation, in my eyes, has crushed almost all hope of us ever getting together. For obvious reasons I'll never fully trust her, which is a big factor for me but a struggle I already dealth with.
It feels like the emotional connection is gone, which is the fun part. But I could still keep her around for ***** if I wanted. But the sad part is, despite priding myself on being as non judgemental and accepting as possible, I find myself almost despising her for what she's doing, especially since my last ex did something very similar that I hate her for with all my soul. So ironically, I'm involved with someone almost exactly like my ex. I realized that last night, theyre similar personality wise too.
I guess this post is mostly venting, but I'm really not sure what to do. Fck her and treat her however I want until she leaves? Or tell her I can't be a part of something this disgusting with a clear conscience? Or pretend everything is fine and try to understand why she does what she does? I'm pretty torn.
I'm not too surprised, all the signs were there, such as mysteriously needing to be places until certain times, and a pic of her and him on her facebook (but not romantic enough to be concrete)
I guess it shouldn't matter to me. We both agreed it'd stay as a fckbuddy thing, but she of course started getting feelings and I guess I allowed myself to consider the thought of us having something one day.
The part that hurts, I guess, is that this revelation, in my eyes, has crushed almost all hope of us ever getting together. For obvious reasons I'll never fully trust her, which is a big factor for me but a struggle I already dealth with.
It feels like the emotional connection is gone, which is the fun part. But I could still keep her around for ***** if I wanted. But the sad part is, despite priding myself on being as non judgemental and accepting as possible, I find myself almost despising her for what she's doing, especially since my last ex did something very similar that I hate her for with all my soul. So ironically, I'm involved with someone almost exactly like my ex. I realized that last night, theyre similar personality wise too.
I guess this post is mostly venting, but I'm really not sure what to do. Fck her and treat her however I want until she leaves? Or tell her I can't be a part of something this disgusting with a clear conscience? Or pretend everything is fine and try to understand why she does what she does? I'm pretty torn.
