oldspice891
Don Juan
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Hey guys,
Been dating this girl over a year. First love and first sexual partner. I have extreme performance anxiety and she's been patient with me even though our sex life is terrible to be honest (because of me)
I lived with her the past 5 months because I wasn't man enough to day no, and although it made me more attached emotionally, mentally it hurt our relationship for me. She moved back in with her parents recently. We fight a lot. I've gained 20 lbs since we started. She's pretty attractive with a perfect body whereas I'm a fat slob.
The truth is, I feel like I just don't care anymore. She loves me way more than I do her. I just feel so bad and guilty, because I've been used to being a virgin who went after women and was turned down, but never a great attractive girl who loves me. I don't want to hurt her, but at the same time, many times I feel like I just don't want to be in this relationship anymore.
Her bday is coming up and she wants some Prince Charming type plans, but I just don't care. It's weird because I'm not a very sexual guy.
Not sure how to feel. Is this whole year going to come to an end. Just like that its over? I hate that I feel like this but I just don't want to continue on with it sometimes. I'm grateful she took a chance with me cuz who knows how much longer I would have remained a virgin.
Anyone else been down this road? I'd appreciate sole words of advice. Thanks. I don't know what I should do.
Been dating this girl over a year. First love and first sexual partner. I have extreme performance anxiety and she's been patient with me even though our sex life is terrible to be honest (because of me)
I lived with her the past 5 months because I wasn't man enough to day no, and although it made me more attached emotionally, mentally it hurt our relationship for me. She moved back in with her parents recently. We fight a lot. I've gained 20 lbs since we started. She's pretty attractive with a perfect body whereas I'm a fat slob.
The truth is, I feel like I just don't care anymore. She loves me way more than I do her. I just feel so bad and guilty, because I've been used to being a virgin who went after women and was turned down, but never a great attractive girl who loves me. I don't want to hurt her, but at the same time, many times I feel like I just don't want to be in this relationship anymore.
Her bday is coming up and she wants some Prince Charming type plans, but I just don't care. It's weird because I'm not a very sexual guy.
Not sure how to feel. Is this whole year going to come to an end. Just like that its over? I hate that I feel like this but I just don't want to continue on with it sometimes. I'm grateful she took a chance with me cuz who knows how much longer I would have remained a virgin.
Anyone else been down this road? I'd appreciate sole words of advice. Thanks. I don't know what I should do.