I'm wanting to play "catch up" with everyone else. Seems I'm one of the only guys I know who "doesn't get it", where my friends are out dating several girls at a time and ALWAYS having them on the side... I can't even get one to so much as smile at me.
Seems like a pretty good reason to figure what's going on and how to fix it. I don't want to marry someone desperately like my friend is doing, I'd rather make the choice of who I want to marry instead of saying "you're not going to do any better man, just take her and run" lol.
Seriously, I want happiness from good relationships where I feel I have a choice in who I date, one where I don't have to put on a facade and one where it's a strong relationship emotionally and physically.
I also wanted to become a DJ to become a dominant male, one with the right attitude, loads of confidence, a fearless approach on life and the energy and happy outlook that makes me feel I can do anything. That's a lot better than the pessimistic attitude I had on life and letting people walk all over me was also something I didn't want to have happen anymore. And essentially by becoming a DJ EVERY aspect would be better; Dating, attitude, appearance, personality, conversation, communication, looks, outlook.
Essentially I've wanted to be what a DJ is since I can remember, but I didn't know how to go about becoming one. But that's changed
