RestUnknown
Don Juan
- Joined
- Mar 21, 2016
- Messages
- 146
- Reaction score
- 21
- Age
- 34
I've been a quiet and reserved guy all my life until couple of months back. Don't think I'm an introvert as I do love company around me.
Last months I've been putting myself out there, just talking to everyone, saying what comes up in my mind, asking them about something they said before. It works, as on a review I got from one of my bosses it said "RestUnknown's positive attitude brings a good atmosphere to the team". You can imagine I would have never thought I'd get such a remark a few years back.
But back to today. I don't know what happened, the day started ok, but then after an hour I started to feel like I didn't want to say anything. I avoided conversations, didn't participate in a meeting. And worse I now feel like I ruined any relationship I had with my coworkers.
How to save this? I don't want this feeling as I remember it from years back, it's that feeling of not belonging in a group, of being ignored, of people talking to others but not you. And because of that feeling I act in that way so it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. And goddamn why does it come up today after so many good weeks.
Last months I've been putting myself out there, just talking to everyone, saying what comes up in my mind, asking them about something they said before. It works, as on a review I got from one of my bosses it said "RestUnknown's positive attitude brings a good atmosphere to the team". You can imagine I would have never thought I'd get such a remark a few years back.
But back to today. I don't know what happened, the day started ok, but then after an hour I started to feel like I didn't want to say anything. I avoided conversations, didn't participate in a meeting. And worse I now feel like I ruined any relationship I had with my coworkers.
How to save this? I don't want this feeling as I remember it from years back, it's that feeling of not belonging in a group, of being ignored, of people talking to others but not you. And because of that feeling I act in that way so it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. And goddamn why does it come up today after so many good weeks.