So, I've been lurking around this website for quite some years. I tried the whole journal thing before (high school, freshman and again, second year, last year) but since I'm not in High School and barely even in College anymore it didn't seem appropriate to keep posting there; to the discussion it is!
For anyone who's not interested in reading it all (I wouldn't be, it's a bit depressing):
- Tall guy
- Musician
- 22
- First year acting school
- Athletic, but not ripped
The first part of my SS-journey helped me to overcome my fear of girls; it also messed up my standards and made me kiss with over 100 girls. I can talk with girls that come to me; I can't approach. I can get dates with Tinder; I can't have good conversation with the real pretty girls.
The problem
I'm still a virgin. I've done it all with girls, except the real deed 'cause I still want it to be a bit special, or at least with a really hot girl. One of the things that is really keeping me back is that I don't feel worthy of having a nice girl; I'm 22, but don't feel like I have my **** together. I've never had a girlfriend, I wouldn't know what to do, I'm back in my first year of studying and I'm scared of talking to the real pretty women.
How do I want to solve this?
- I want to get more routine in my days, to get my confidence and self-worth up
- I need a bigger bed and more furniture 'cause my bedroom just has a single bed and a closet
- Need to find a way to meet more people. My class is small, school is small, I have one roommate and barely time to work. It'll come.
- I need to keep writing this journal; let this be one of my routines.
If you have any questions, tips, feedback or just want to say "you suck": be my guest!
27-02
First entry, not a really interesting one. Wrote a part of my thesis, worked on some feedback. Studied music for a coming performance.
Ran about 7 miles, did my stretching routine.
For anyone who's not interested in reading it all (I wouldn't be, it's a bit depressing):
- Tall guy
- Musician
- 22
- First year acting school
- Athletic, but not ripped
The first part of my SS-journey helped me to overcome my fear of girls; it also messed up my standards and made me kiss with over 100 girls. I can talk with girls that come to me; I can't approach. I can get dates with Tinder; I can't have good conversation with the real pretty girls.
The problem
I'm still a virgin. I've done it all with girls, except the real deed 'cause I still want it to be a bit special, or at least with a really hot girl. One of the things that is really keeping me back is that I don't feel worthy of having a nice girl; I'm 22, but don't feel like I have my **** together. I've never had a girlfriend, I wouldn't know what to do, I'm back in my first year of studying and I'm scared of talking to the real pretty women.
How do I want to solve this?
- I want to get more routine in my days, to get my confidence and self-worth up
- I need a bigger bed and more furniture 'cause my bedroom just has a single bed and a closet
- Need to find a way to meet more people. My class is small, school is small, I have one roommate and barely time to work. It'll come.
- I need to keep writing this journal; let this be one of my routines.
If you have any questions, tips, feedback or just want to say "you suck": be my guest!
27-02
First entry, not a really interesting one. Wrote a part of my thesis, worked on some feedback. Studied music for a coming performance.
Ran about 7 miles, did my stretching routine.