backbreaker
Master Don Juan
earlier today I got a call from a friend back home, wanting me to talk to his little brother who is apparantly strung out of his mind on drugs. And this **** really hits home, to me beucase this dude was like what, 4 years younger than me and my friend, I remember spending the night over their house and beating him up in his sleep, just the innocence of being a little kid. now at what.. 23 year old he's a crackhead..
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just like I am. As some of you who read my post know, I'm a recovered drug addict. I loved crack. in 8 months i probably spend 50 thousand dollars on crack cocaine and that is no exaggeration. i'm sure some of you are saying babreaker how can you smoke 50 thousand dollars worth of crack. lol, one rock at a time my friend, one rock at a time. i
i joke about it but it's not a joking matter. i can look back and laugh now. itwas no laughing matter then. not only that, i had the means to literarl smoke myself in the ground; i had just sold my company and to be frank, had 7 figures in the bank account. i'm ont going to get into exact amounts, but the point is, i could have very easily killed myself. very very easily. it was that moment of clairty that i had where i said, backbraker, you are going to die if you do not stop. ther ewas no middle ground. i had too much money to play around with and not using was not an option. it got so bad the dealer would just come to my house like he was going to work lol. he'd pop up about 10:30-11am, with his sack, lol he'd even bring my drug paraphernalia all ready to go. usually would bfring a girl for me to kick it with too. he'd sit and we'd play vidoe games lol or he'd play vidoe games and watch me get high and just keep feeding me dope, then leave about 5-6pm. we idd this for like half a year.
my saving grace, was that I am a born skpetic. i knew the first dahy I walked into aA sommething asn't "right". i might have been a drug addict, but dammit i wasn't stupid, and some of the **** there just didn't make sense.
see, this all goes back to Regan's war on drugs. it has failed. horribly. not only has it failed horribly, it has faked america into thinking they are doing something about the drug problem but they aren't. And it has done so long enough to watch drugs get more and more potent.
When Regan announced his war on drugs, cocaine was the big thing, crack was being experimented with, and hell, as bad as they say crack is, you smoke it, you get high as a kite, it's addictive as hell, trust me, and it made you livve a miserable ilfe, but... at least it didnt', kill you. I mean, you might feel like you want to die sometimese, but you weren't dead.
we have drugs now, that kill you. these pills that no one is doing **** about that are so cool to pop are killing people.
here are the problems that I feel are wrong with the drug program in America
1. stop lying to kids. once you lie to them you lose them forever. and you know what, that's what got me. i never really was a drug head until i touched dope, and i had smoked a few joints before then to know all the BS they taught me in school about weed was not true, I just didn't care for it so I didn't do it. and when the girl i was with brought out the white bag of coke, i figured they were wrong about that too. that's how kid's thing. hell that's how adults think.
cut the fvcking bull**** and legalize weed and be honest with the kids and say hey, if you want to do this in your recreational time, do it responsibility, but this **** right here, this will F you up. like seriously.
2. Get rid of AA. the **** doesn't work. Harvard did a study a few years ago where they found that more people stop using on their own in time (13%) versus people who did s by going to aa (5%).
the courts like AA because it's a cheap method of rehab. but cheap doesn't matter if it does not work.
It's just like gaming a girl. you don't game every girl the exact same. some girls you have to approach differently than others. what got me clean might not get you clean.
what honestly got me clean, was living in an environment where i was monitored for about 5 months and then moving my ass to the west coast where i didn't know any one. since then the few times that i have encounted the drug the cravings have long past. years ago. hell one time
3. look in the mirror and see the real problem for what it is. I'm not stupid or poor. My friends son is a college grad. it's not just poor uneducated people who are hook don drugs. it's ruining society, or at least seriously straining it.
they need to have REAL drug classes in school. bring some ex dealers to the school and tell them all the tricks to the trade. bring some attractive girls there and have them tell all the tricks they had to turn to get their drugs.
this is an issue that i hold pretty seriously to me. getting clean was the 2nd hardest thing i have ever done in my life. i've been clean for over 6 years. one day, one day hopefully within the next 2 years actually as I wish to do so before I'm 30, is to open up my own half way house and target... kids like me. i had hell in rehab. because i'm not poor and i'm not stupid and I had options. not necessarily rich kids but kids that dont' fit into the AA / chem free off the street mantra that they expect everyone to be like.
The "drug community" is a laughing joke. the only thing they care about is getting money off you. they don't give a **** about your livihood, or you having skills to make money so you don't have to turn to crime or drus selling to make a living, they don't care about teaching you serious coping skills. man I remember i used to go to these classes they made you go to when you lvied there, pure BS. no practical skills whatsoever.
everyone here knows someone who has a drug problem. some know some who have died. and we all as a whole turn the other cheek and act like it's not a big deal but this is killing more people than the wars we are fighting, it's taking innonent lives, beucase we are too vain to think we have a problem. we don't want to admit it. well we have a problem.
ss
just like I am. As some of you who read my post know, I'm a recovered drug addict. I loved crack. in 8 months i probably spend 50 thousand dollars on crack cocaine and that is no exaggeration. i'm sure some of you are saying babreaker how can you smoke 50 thousand dollars worth of crack. lol, one rock at a time my friend, one rock at a time. i
i joke about it but it's not a joking matter. i can look back and laugh now. itwas no laughing matter then. not only that, i had the means to literarl smoke myself in the ground; i had just sold my company and to be frank, had 7 figures in the bank account. i'm ont going to get into exact amounts, but the point is, i could have very easily killed myself. very very easily. it was that moment of clairty that i had where i said, backbraker, you are going to die if you do not stop. ther ewas no middle ground. i had too much money to play around with and not using was not an option. it got so bad the dealer would just come to my house like he was going to work lol. he'd pop up about 10:30-11am, with his sack, lol he'd even bring my drug paraphernalia all ready to go. usually would bfring a girl for me to kick it with too. he'd sit and we'd play vidoe games lol or he'd play vidoe games and watch me get high and just keep feeding me dope, then leave about 5-6pm. we idd this for like half a year.
my saving grace, was that I am a born skpetic. i knew the first dahy I walked into aA sommething asn't "right". i might have been a drug addict, but dammit i wasn't stupid, and some of the **** there just didn't make sense.
see, this all goes back to Regan's war on drugs. it has failed. horribly. not only has it failed horribly, it has faked america into thinking they are doing something about the drug problem but they aren't. And it has done so long enough to watch drugs get more and more potent.
When Regan announced his war on drugs, cocaine was the big thing, crack was being experimented with, and hell, as bad as they say crack is, you smoke it, you get high as a kite, it's addictive as hell, trust me, and it made you livve a miserable ilfe, but... at least it didnt', kill you. I mean, you might feel like you want to die sometimese, but you weren't dead.
we have drugs now, that kill you. these pills that no one is doing **** about that are so cool to pop are killing people.
here are the problems that I feel are wrong with the drug program in America
1. stop lying to kids. once you lie to them you lose them forever. and you know what, that's what got me. i never really was a drug head until i touched dope, and i had smoked a few joints before then to know all the BS they taught me in school about weed was not true, I just didn't care for it so I didn't do it. and when the girl i was with brought out the white bag of coke, i figured they were wrong about that too. that's how kid's thing. hell that's how adults think.
cut the fvcking bull**** and legalize weed and be honest with the kids and say hey, if you want to do this in your recreational time, do it responsibility, but this **** right here, this will F you up. like seriously.
2. Get rid of AA. the **** doesn't work. Harvard did a study a few years ago where they found that more people stop using on their own in time (13%) versus people who did s by going to aa (5%).
the courts like AA because it's a cheap method of rehab. but cheap doesn't matter if it does not work.
It's just like gaming a girl. you don't game every girl the exact same. some girls you have to approach differently than others. what got me clean might not get you clean.
what honestly got me clean, was living in an environment where i was monitored for about 5 months and then moving my ass to the west coast where i didn't know any one. since then the few times that i have encounted the drug the cravings have long past. years ago. hell one time
3. look in the mirror and see the real problem for what it is. I'm not stupid or poor. My friends son is a college grad. it's not just poor uneducated people who are hook don drugs. it's ruining society, or at least seriously straining it.
they need to have REAL drug classes in school. bring some ex dealers to the school and tell them all the tricks to the trade. bring some attractive girls there and have them tell all the tricks they had to turn to get their drugs.
this is an issue that i hold pretty seriously to me. getting clean was the 2nd hardest thing i have ever done in my life. i've been clean for over 6 years. one day, one day hopefully within the next 2 years actually as I wish to do so before I'm 30, is to open up my own half way house and target... kids like me. i had hell in rehab. because i'm not poor and i'm not stupid and I had options. not necessarily rich kids but kids that dont' fit into the AA / chem free off the street mantra that they expect everyone to be like.
The "drug community" is a laughing joke. the only thing they care about is getting money off you. they don't give a **** about your livihood, or you having skills to make money so you don't have to turn to crime or drus selling to make a living, they don't care about teaching you serious coping skills. man I remember i used to go to these classes they made you go to when you lvied there, pure BS. no practical skills whatsoever.
everyone here knows someone who has a drug problem. some know some who have died. and we all as a whole turn the other cheek and act like it's not a big deal but this is killing more people than the wars we are fighting, it's taking innonent lives, beucase we are too vain to think we have a problem. we don't want to admit it. well we have a problem.
just kidding don't shoot.
