Hey Colette, sorry to break it down for you!
It may be disappointing, it maybe hateful, it maybe depressing...
But it is how it is. No one said this was the easy road, but I can assure you of one thing.
It is the only road you can choose. It is the right decision.
You will gain absolutely nothing by trying to reengage contact but more pain. The soonner you cut all ties, the faster you will begin your healing process. Picture myself for example. It took me 5 months, a huge amount of my dignity, and most certainly a lifetime of despise from that particular girl for me to bail.
Had I gone ghost may 26th, the day she asked for a break, who knows what could have happened. She would probably reached out to me by now... Or No... I don't know, but what I do know is that giving up 5 months after that, October the 9th, I've not only destroyed whatever image of a man I've created to that woman during the relationship, but also extended the pain exponentially, adding to the sum of the breakup lots of days and loads of bullsh*t I regret doing!
In the aftermath, I think it was good for me like this. I've needed to grow up and start acting like a man, and this was the sort of thing that I was in need.
I know believe that the hard way is the way to go. Even though I advise you, and anyone for that matter, to go ghost ASAP, in fact I do believe that a heartbrake is a healthy process that every man should go through, doing all possible mistakes.
After all, you can only learn from your mistakes, and not some advice a random dude is giving you online!
Welcome, and good luck on your journey! It is going to be a long one!
Peace!