//The Chronicles of BPH\\

[BPH]

4/4/14 - 4/11/14 Week 81

I officially hate my life...this year can suck a fat ****.

This week was rather uneventful, had a lab practical, some homework, stuff like that. I sat down and talked to HB Nicole about my decision and she was surprisingly not mad. Doesn't want to be friends though, says she cares too much and can't be just friends...another good reason for me to have broken it off.

Didn't go our Thursday or Saturday, but had formal on Friday. I tried to meet Sabrina (my date) twice during the week, but both times she had tests to study for so I didn't actually meet her in person until formal time.

I got all gussied up and stuff and met her outside my apartment to go pregame before heading to the actual formal. One of the worst experiences ever.

She was with her friends the whole night; dancing with them, taking pictures with them, dancing with them, and leaving me sitting by myself most of the night after talking to some of my friends that I knew. Not once did she ask me if I wanted to dance, if I was having a good time...anything at all. My attempts to have conversations were very short. And to top if off, she didn't even look good.

So later in the night, the girl that hooked me up with her, my friend Leanne, felt bad for me (I was doing her a favor by being this girl's date at the last minute) and offered to give me a ride home. So I left.

But that's not even the worst part about why my life sucks so freaking much right now.

Sunday there was some touch football. It was nice out and I haven't played with John and these guys for a while. So I played for about an hour, and then this bulls*** happens...

One play I'm going for a pass, this guy jumps up behind me to knock it away, rolls my ankle, and steps on it with his cleats. I feel and hear a pop and am in excruciating pain. They help me off the field and after a little while I decide I should go to the hospital to check if it's broken.

Fast forward a bunch of hours and it's badly sprained and now I'm in an air cast with crutches. I walked from the dining hall to my apartment to see how bad it would be to go to class on crutches...so I won't be going to class for a bit.

I'm basically out of commission for a few weeks. That means:

No biking
No walking
No sexing
No partying
No exercising
No eating at dining halls
Probably no Oozeball
No beaching
Generally no fun

And this will probably last until the end of the school year.

I hate everything.

 

[BPH]

4/11/14 - 4/18/14 Week 82

My dad flew down to take care of me with my leg injury.

Literally spent the ENTIRE week hopping around my apartment on crutches and rarely leaving the apartment except to go out to eat with my dad once or twice.

This is all I did this whole week.

I f***ing hate life.

 

[GetBetter]

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLzvRx_johoA8ITQgxBpeJTaDUhhIB7bfX

 

[BPH]

4/18/14 - 4/25/14 Week 83

I'm starting to wonder if I should do these from Sunday to Sunday so they make more sense. It matters this time because this Sunday (4/27/14) is my birthday.

Yeah yeah Happy Birthday to me, but man I am just so profoundly depressed and angry with a lot of things right now. For this reason I'm going to just say **** it and let this site censor my curse words. I don't feel like being arsed to correct my ****.

See I have a lot of time to think, and that may be a bad thing, but it really puts things into perspective for me sometimes. This usually just makes me angrier lately, but whatever, let's get into this update. I want to show this one some attention.

So this week had Oozeball coming up on Saturday along with a party that this girl Kristen was planning since our birthday's were on the same day. I was looking forward to this weekend because I can walk a little better this week and needed to get out and see some girls and have some drinks.

I'm still going to the gym since I've been able to walk, doing everything other than legs. I get a lot of comments about being dedicated because of this, but to me it doesn't seem like such a big deal...after all this is something I enjoy doing.

But yeah let's fast forward to Thursday.

Alright so I spent most of the week knocking out homework assignments and not playing so much video games. I cold approached this girl HB Katie, the interaction wasn't very good but got her number anyway. She never replied to my texts after that, guess I shoulda seen that coming.

Thursday night I look around for people that are going to Fibber's because I know I can't really dance at Sandbar and I'm down for having a couple free beers and chilling at Fibber's. I link up with Angela (maybe HB Angela earlier in the year) and Hailey and they decide to head to Fibber's with a bunch of people. We load up in a car and one of their guy friends plays DD which is nice.

I had a decent time at Fibber's, didn't really get drunk; didn't have a whole lot to pregame with and I only had a few beers at the actually club/bar. Said hey to a bunch of people and just kind of milled about. I went to the dancing section a few times and was able to grind on a few girls without ****ing up my leg. I did that every now and then and even danced with this girl HB Kelly who was recently single that I knew from earlier in the year. Tried to kiss her but it didn't go down, I have her number though...not sure if I'll use it.

Angela and her friends are all chatting up guys and stuff and comes over to me at one point to boohoo about a guy that she had been talking to all night not being into her. I put her head on my shoulder and massaged her scalp and she was talking about me being a good friend.

This is a plot point.

About a half hour before closing time I can't find Angela or any of her friends that she came with, but don't think of anything of it for a while. Later on I start getting nervous and call her to find out that she and her friends had gotten separate taxis and headed home...leaving me here without a ride. I hunt up on her before she finished her sentence. I found my friend Alfred who was being a DD for two of his friends, and he was able to give me a ride home.

So that was lovely...

Now Friday there were apartment parties going down across the street from Angela and Hailey's apartment, which are conveniently located right next to my complex. I meet up with the same girls from last night and have a fifth of rum for myself. We head over and I see some familiar faces; Alfred, Emerson, and a couple other people later on the night. Plenty of girls there as well which was nice.

I mill about, talking to people, talking to Angela and her friends in their little corner, played a quick (and I mean quick) game of beer pong with Alfred, and just had some fun in my boot.

The highlight came when I went to the first of the three apartments where people were partying to find a bunch of girls, a few of them cute, chilling on a couch with a deck of cards in front of them. It looks like they're trying to play some games, so I take a seat across from them and we get a few people to join in and play with us.

We play a couple different drinking games, the whole time I'm flirting with HB Kristen. She's friends with a few girls at the party and I'm hitting it off with her pretty well. During one of the dare sections of our game I dare her to kiss me, and she does.

After the games die down a bit we get up and go outside and chill for a bit. I get just enough isolation and go in for the make out, score. She mentions there being a lot of people around, so I lead her to a different side of the apartment building where nobody is and put her up against the wall and start making out some more and getting all touchy feely. A few people interrupt us and she feels like she should go back to her friends. I suggest going to my place, seeing as she mentioned needing a place to spend the night since she was off-campus. She didn't quite trust me yet, which was understandable, so I got her number and walked her back to rejoin her friends.

I texted her a little bit about coming to the birthday party on Saturday, and it looked promising. Cops showed up at the party so I waited a little bit then walked back to my apartment and that was that.

Saturday morning was Oozeball. I made sure we had plenty of replacements since I was injured and the other guy had a rugby tournament to go to. It was a good excuse to be shirtless and the weather was awesome. Our team was losing kinda early though, so against my better judgement I decided to take my boot off and play some Oozeball (volleyball in the mud for those that don't know). I didn't get injured, and even made a few spikes, but our team lost and that was all for that.

My team consisted of the people I went out on Thursday with, along with 2 replacements from my Chemistry class. We all threw each other in the mud after the game and took some pictures, so that was fun. Went to the pool afterwards, while they all went to the beach, and spent the rest of the day figuring out alcohol and logistics for the party later tonight.

I needed alcohol for tonight and a ride to the party, both of which I eventually got. I invited a bunch of people, including HB Kristen. I decided to wear shoes instead of the boot tonight.

Now, remember HB Maecy from one of my earlier posts about an ATO party where I met this gorgeous chick? Well she was in town for Oozeball and stayed the weekend to party.

This is a plot point.

I get to the party and it's a great time. Everybody screams out "Happy Birthday" when I walk in the door and I have people trying to kill me with shots the whole night. There's music playing and plenty of hot girls there that Kristen probably knew. I recognized a lot of people and had an easy time just chilling and talking with whoever. This guy Ryan is a decent friend of mine from TKE and planned to go to the ATO initiation party at some point later tonight.

I was there waiting on HB Kristen to show, she told me she was on her way several times and I started to get a little worried. HB Maecy texted me asking if I was at the ATO party, and I told her I was at my birthday party first. Ryan later had a ride show up to take him to ATO and offered me a ride...but I stayed to wait on HB Kristen.

Eventually she DOES show up at like close to 1AM. I've had my fill of alcohol and have been generously giving my beers away all night and playing DJ with the music inside. The guys actually started calling me "DJ Bryce" (there, that's my real name, **** it, I don't even care).

But yeah so she finds a bonfire with her friends and sits down there with them for a while and has a little to drink. By this point a good deal of my friends have passed out of went somewhere to eat or something.

I kiss HB Kristen a little bit and after a little while I try to convince her to take a walk with me like last time. The same thing happens; we make out, get all touchy feely, and then when I tell her that I want her for my birthday and try to bring her back to my place she declines, saying she doesn't usually do this with guys and that she likes me and a whole bunch of bull****.

I see I can't plow through this, so I start calling people to see if I can get a ride out. Most aren't answering or are drunk and somewhere else. I look for the taxi number and realize that it's still in my Droid and that I haven't manually moved it over to this **** phone.

I go inside the house and ask some people for walking directions back to campus. I walk past HB Kristen and her friends sitting by the bonfire and just casually wave them goodbye and start walking home. Mind you, this is without my support boot and is about 2 miles away.

I resign to the ****ty night that I'm about to have and continue on my way. I give HB Maecy a call but she doesn't pick up, didn't really expect her to.

After about the first mile and a half a SUV passes me and stops to give me a ride. They recognized me as "DJ Bryce" by my shirt and dropped me off at my apartment complex.

Went to sleep and that was my night.

My birthday morning I was woken up at 9AM by the lovely sound of guy using his buzzsaw to saw down a piece of wood on our apartment deck...

Aside from a few texts and calls from family the only real birthday love I got was on Facebook. The sad thing? Most of these comments were from family, friends back in Delaware, OR PEOPLE THAT I ADDED FOR THE PURPOSE OF GIFTING ON A ****ING FACEBOOK GAME.

 

[BPH]

4/18/14 - 4/25/14 Week 83 Cont.

Today I was in a "**** everybody" kind of mood. Went to the pool, worked out, and chilled at home. I don't even feel like playing video games. I'm just so depressed about my current life. My birthday doesn't feel special anymore, it just feels like a normal Sunday...

I found Strength By Sonny online, which is kinda like Boy Toy Story, so I'll give him a look and check out some of his material.

But yeah I'm extremely depressed with my life right now...

I think this is partly due to me living so far away from my friends. I mean, they're all kinda close by, but I don't have roommates or anything and my apartment complex just isn't a place where people my age go to do anything...

My friends have been ditching me at parties and being generally unreliable despite how dependable and generous I am to them.

My girls are somewhat nonexistent, I haven't ****ed a new girl since November, which is about 6 months now for those counting.

I haven't had sex since whenever the last time with HB Nicole was and I'm not looking forward to a Summer filled with work, a lack of proximity to any women, and the very real possibility that I won't be coming back to this school next year, considering how badly this semester has been going.

Really the only thing I have going for me is my health and physical appearance, and my personality which allows me to make friends (of questionable character) easily. Currently I weigh 192 lbs and have a nice 6-pack finally.

That's about it for the pros for me right now.

I'm just really not enjoying life right now at all, and I just want this year to be over.

If you read this whole thing, I appreciate it, and hopefully you have something to say that might help me out here. This isn't how college should be. I'm at a college filled with beautiful women, southern hospitality, and warm, beachy weather. I shouldn't be as depressed and angry as I am right now.

That's all I think I have...if this post is too long for one post I'll just edit it and make a double post...peace.

 

[RiceandChicken]

Hang in there Bryce. We've all hit stumbling blocks before. But in the end, if the campus you're at isn't making you happy and you aren't enjoying it, go somewhere else. No need to waste time at a place that isn't making you enjoy college nowhatimsayin?

 

[BPH]

I'm probably not going to update this for a while. I just really don't feel like it. Just in case anyone's wondering where I dropped off to.

 

[BPH]

Hey guys, thought I'd check in and say hey.

Just a little half-year update I suppose.

Right now I'm 194lbs at 6 feet tall with a 6-pack, so my fitness is going rather well. I started doing a Rest Reduction Training after reading about it in a Lazar Angelov blog post and took up intermittent fasting, but I may have already mentioned that somewhere.

As far as women, I've been doing ok for myself, though I could always use more. For those keeping track, I've f***ed 22 women to date. Most things come natural now, and if I have enough time around a women I like there's a very good chance I'll end up sleeping with her.

When I have a real issue with women I've found a couple good people to start consulting; there's my friend Nick who's good at cracking girls who are a little less slutty and a little more sweet, occasionally my dad if it's something relationship-ey, and this guy Sonny. Sonny actually has a website: http://strengthbysonny.com/
Lots of his articles are a good read and I've even gotten into the habit of giving him a weekly update with how things are going with women in my life if I have something that needs to be ironed out. He also got to where he is without being in a fraternity, made him easy to relate to, at least for me.

Aside from that, I tried my hand at being in a relationship to catastrophic results. Same story different girl, everything was perfect for a while, then things got in the way, then she wanted to separate herself from me since she was going away at the end of the month, found out she was staying, met a new guy, and I cursed her out over text.

I know I know, be nice, but I was attached to this girl in a way that made me mildly depressed and sad for about a week and a half and had to get closure, and when I finally got it I was able to be angry and move on.

Other than that, I'm in school for winter session and changed my major to graduate a little earlier. I'll be turning 21 this year so I can legally drink as well as get laser eye surgery.

Life ain't too bad. Deuces guys. I'll probably do this every so often but if you want to actually talk to me best way is to probably PM me.

 

[BPH]

Hey guys,

It's been nearly a year since I last posted and looked at this forum. I see they've changed the look of the forum and there are a lot of new faces with the journals in the high school section.

I'm in my senior year at UD and since my last post I guess I've come pretty far, as I've now slept with 39 women. 6 feet tall, around 205lbs., doing alright in the fraternity, and getting the women I want is pretty easy so long as I get face time with them.

Just came in here to give that quick update, if this goal is similar to other guys on this section I can offer a little advice if you shoot me a PM, but just decided to pop in and see what's up, as this was where I got my roots.

Anyway, until next year likely, deuces.