Still learning BPD behavior

[051AV]

Its called parentify, answers the question why I felt like my ex's dad at times she even called me dad at times when I would lecture her, it felt really weird being her parent when I'm supposed to be her BF.

I don't go intentionally looking for this stuff it pops up in my suggested YT video feed because I have been searching about BPD in the past. So glad I never have to ever see her or deal with her ever again, more a guy learns the realization fvcked up a BPD is and the damage they can do to you. Watched a few more recent videos that were made last month to current, its good knowledge to have so a guy will not repeat the past.

 

[MountainSlide]

I dated girl diagnosed with BPD. She even told me but I didn’t know what it was. She was a nightmare. One night she started cutting herself when we were drinking and I started telling her like wtf. Then she stabbed me in the foot. I have a scar that reminds me of that psycho every time I take a shower lol. She monkey branched on me and I went completely nuts. Never gone crazy before. Not really sure what happened there. She still Hoover’s me.

Person with BPD projects all their bull**** on you. They start off idealizing you thinking that you’re perfect and not like everyone else who broke their trust. As soon as a little flaw appears the facade fades. Then you enter devaluation. Where they start accusing you and blah blah blah. It’s really a trust disorder I think. And they communicate in an odd fashion. Basically they accuse you, you deny, which to them, confirms they’re right. Then replace and discard. Goes something like that anyway.

 

[MountainSlide]

Hard to quit thinking about them cause they take up space in your mind. I managed to let mine go even though she was constantly hoovering me. Still does. Just told her off again tonight lol. She can go to hell hahahaha